âIf you do something bad, it might feel easy for a moment, but youâll sleep uncomfortably. And if it keeps happening, your heart never settles. So why bother? Itâs better not to do it.â
It sounded like the words of one of the five fools guarding the underground shelter, but it was actually from a wise and thoughtful friend.
âWhat if you get used to it? What if that discomfort disappears?â
Enkrid challenged the notion.
âI donât want to get used to it.â
The friend replied immediately. No hesitation. No second thoughts.
âFair enough.â
That exchange happened one morning, when Enkrid was drenched in sweat from training. The friend had come byâapparently, just to say thank you.
The conversation had begun as casual chatter, and somewhere in the middle, it turned into this exchange.
Later, Delma brought over water and asked if he needed anything else. Her uncle watched nervously but didnât push Enkrid away.
He never had. Like Lord Louis, the castellan, he only ever looked at Enkrid with respect.
There were many in the city who looked at Enkrid with those same eyes.
But was that all there wasâonly reverent gazes left in this city? Hardly.
âThey say if you do anything bad, heâll come find you and kill you. That rumorâs spreading. Now some folks are saying they should strike firstâbefore he gets to them.â
Thatâs what Delma said. Those were the kinds of people who saw Enkrid as a threat. Theyâd whisper such things amongst themselvesâbut of course, none dared to actually act on them.
The lord had mobilized troops, scouring the city with blazing eyes, tightening security.
And even without that, Enkrid was not someone they could hope to kill.
Still, the very fact that people with malice and ill intent remainedâDelmaâs words made that clear.
âThe Demon shall descend and purify all!â
A crazed woman once screamed that aloud.
Some hid knives up their sleeves and glared at Enkrid with murder in their eyes.
Others lurked in the shadows, watching silently.
There were addicts, the impoverished, the paranoidâall of them watching Enkrid with mixed intentions.
âSo even after saving them, this is what I get?â
Lua Gharne muttered after observing them.
âLet them be. Theyâre fools.â
That was something the fool himself had said when he came by earlier.
âI donât know... I mean, I like how things are now, but... something about it still makes me nervous.â
Delma added that she had never once felt truly safe in her life, and this sudden change was frightening.
Yes. There were people like her, and then there were people like that.
Enkrid recalled someone from his pastâa sword instructor who had once trained him by the sea.
âI used to be an executioner.â
Thatâs what the man had said.
âIt didnât matter whether the one standing before me was guilty, falsely accused, or just a scapegoat. My job was to swing the sword and kill. My maskâjust two holes for the eyesâwas both helmet and my most lethal weapon.â
When he spoke those words, the instructor had looked tormented. Like he wished he could erase the past and start over.
After a few drinks, Enkrid had asked if heâd go back and change things if he could.
The man said yesâbut of course, it was impossible.
Looking back now, Enkrid knew he too could repeat the day as much as he liked, but he could never return to a specific point in the past.
Even the repetition of this day wasn't by choice.
âThere was even a child I killed. Yes... a child. The mother asked me, âWhy did my child have to die?ââ
The instructor had admitted that he didnât take pride in his past.
âI swung my blade without thinking.â
And somehow, his skill with the blade had only grown sharper.
He said heâd learned something as an executioner.
It was clear just by listeningâthis man had talent.
But one day, that motherâs question changed everything for him.
âI regret it.â
He spoke of regret.
What became of him after that? Enkrid only knew fragments.
After quitting, the man stopped killing altogether.
He especially avoided taking the lives of those who offered no resistance.
He began mercenary work using the swordsmanship heâd honed during his executioner days. He survived, and after much wandering, reached a small independent city tucked away on the continent.
Somewhere along the way, ~NĐŸvĐ”lđght~ he had become obsessed not with killingâbut with saving.
âWill those Iâve killed come back to life just because I live like this? No. But still, this is how I choose to live.â
Had he saved more lives than he took?
That, no one could know.
Enkrid believed that you couldnât judge the good or evil of someoneâs life so simply.
It wasnât about forgiveness either.
There was just something he considered more important than all of that.
That thing was his anchor. His guiding moonlight. The signpost that stood before him.
âYour goal must be to protect those within the boundaries youâve set for yourself. If thatâs the case, then itâs simple. Take them all into the underground shelter. You have the means.â
The Ferryman suddenly interjected. A moment of reflection. Enkrid saw the hazy illusion of the Ferryman before him.
At some point, everything had stopped. The people. The air. The wind. The sunlight.
With the world frozen, everything turned gray.
He had reached the end of the recalled memory.
The Ferrymanâs words were right. That was the right path.
Following that advice, Enkrid could save a few peopleâDelma, the fool and his friends, her uncle, Lua Gharne, the castellan.
The Walking Flame would burn the city. If it couldnât find anything left to burn, it would vanish.
All he had to do was protect them up to that point. No need to risk his life. No need to scale an invisible wall with no path forward.
Inside the gray world, Enkrid silently watched Delma.
âWhat do you think that girl will become one day?â
He asked the Ferryman without shifting his gaze.
But the Ferryman couldnât answer. He wasnât a fortune-teller.
Even Enkrid didnât know the answer. No one could.
Delma might grow up to be an innkeeper.
She might become a hunter. Or perhaps sheâd roam the war-torn continent and one day, found a kingdom of her own.
Why not?
âNo one knows.â
Enkrid continued.
The Ferryman, with his gray eyes, looked quietly at the man condemned to eternal life by a curse.
A being of color in an otherwise colorless world.
âSo?â
The Ferryman asked, and Enkrid finally voiced the question that had stirred his soul when the Ferryman had first posed it.
âHow far... must I protect?â
The Ferryman echoed the question with a nod.
âYes, how far will you protect?â
People. Lives. What lies behind you.
In other wordsâthe lives of those behind your back.
That was what he had sworn to protect.
But if that was allâif only that was allâthen why live this kind of chaotic life?
Was there a reason to save the saintess of the Holy Nation, far off in the distance?
None.
Why save a strangerâs child?
They werenât standing behind him. Therefore, he had no obligation.
Enkrid knew then: he had wavered.
The Ferrymanâs words had struck home.
Only save those within reach. Those who cared about him.
The city? Just four daysâ acquaintance.
It made sense. It was absolutely correct.
Smack.
In the gray world, Enkrid slapped both his cheeks with his hands.
The world blurred. The dream ended.
He returned to the black river world of dreams. The Ferryman was there again, holding his lamp, staring at him from atop the swaying water.
But Enkrid didnât protect a mere four-day bond.
What he protected was something else.
âThey deserve a chance too. I will protect that possibility.â
Among the Cross Guard, there were those hiding daggers, fearing death by his sword. Assassins still remained. Cultists too.
There were unforgivable evildoers. Husbands who beat their wives. Mothers who struck their children.
Children who stabbed their parents. Thieves who lived off the pain of others.
And then...
There was a girl who dreamed of becoming an innkeeper.
An adult who made sure she didnât starve.
Idiots who joined a thievesâ guild and lost their fingers trying to protect civilians.
A castellan who couldâve fled, but stayed, saying he loved every single person in the city.
People who had no reason to, but still stood by him.
The righteous. The wicked. All of them, living in this moment.
Enkrid wanted to protect that sliver of time.
He didnât know what theyâd become tomorrowâbut today, a forbidden spell cast to kill him would erase the futures of everyone in this city.
How could he allow that?
An end to the war. He wanted peace.
Why?
Because everyone deserved a chance at tomorrow.
An end to the war. He wanted peace.
Why?
Because even he didnât know what tomorrowâs version of himself would be.
He didnât want to destroy that possibility.
He wanted the Demon Realm erased.
Because monsters and beasts always erased tomorrow.
The Ferryman asked again.
âHow far will you protect?â
âTo my tomorrow. And to theirs.â
Enkrid raised his hand atop the boat floating on the black river.
His hand held nothing, but the Ferryman saw a sword.
An invisible blade that expressed his will.
That was his answer.
Heeheehee.
Hehhahaha.
Hahahahahaha.
Screeeech.
What a foolâs answer.
Is he an idiot?
If that is your will... then I respect it.
The Ferryman said nothing, but the words were heard anyway.
In truth, they came from the being beyond the maskâthe incomprehensible presence behind the facade of the Ferryman.
Dozens of meanings overlapped, trying to twist Enkridâs spirit into corruption.
It failed.
The Will of Refusal had long since taken root in Enkridâs soul.
No matter what the opponent said, even if the entire continent called him the enemyâif it didnât feel right, he would refuse it.
âWhat a madman.â
The gray-faced Ferryman lifted his lamp and spoke.
Enkrid knew thenâthe dream was ending, and everything was retreating.
But for just a moment, the Ferrymanâs face looked like it was smiling.
A trick of the light?
A Ferryman, smiling? Unthinkable.
That was something for Shinar or Esther. Not this being.
And with that, Enkrid was flung from the black river.
The Ferryman stayed behind on the boat, still chuckling.
But it wasnât mockery. It was laughter from the heart.
This was teaching. When was the last time he had taught?
Swordsmanship? That wasnât true teaching.
Body techniques were things people learned on their own.
But igniting the spirit insideâthat was real instruction.
What could be more joyful?
They call it eternal life, but itâs really a prison of endless âtodays.â
And within that prison, one who was supposed to become one with him still struggled and screamed.
The Ferryman had grown to enjoy watching that.
Of course, not all Ferrymen felt the same.
âA practical problem remains. You, who dream of mortality, you prisoner.â
He whispered into the empty void.
And somehow, those words still reached the waking Enkrid.
***
âA practical problem remains. You, who dream of mortality, you prisoner.â
Enkrid heard those words the instant he woke.
It was the same short beginning he had heard countless times today.
His thoughts accelerated, one chasing the other.
Among them was the Ferrymanâs question.
I know already.
The Walking Flame was still out there.
Over the course of a hundred repeated days, he hadnât found a single clue. Only watched helplessly as people burned.
And yet, strangely, Enkrid felt the crushing weight had lightened.
Maybe he never truly felt hopeless to begin with.
A matter of the heart.
Without choosing a path, it was only natural he couldnât reach a destination.
But now he had chosen. He had clarified his thoughts, turned the lingering haze into words.
Only one thing remained.
To cut down the Walking Flame.
How do you cut what cannot be cut?
If the answer had come easily, the despair wouldnât have lingered.
So what could he do?
âIâm going to die.â
The words slipped from his mouth unbidden.
A rare moment, even for him.
But fair enough.
He had only one option.
Do it until it works.
Still, he decided to tweak his approach.
âLua. Tell me everything you know about the Walking Flame.â
No time to waste.
He asked. He listened. He ran.
And he swung his sword at the Walking Flameâfull force, heart and soul poured into the slash. He infused his Will into it, reaching even his peak omnipotence.
Whoooosh!
Enkrid hurled himself forward.
Of course, a single strike was all he could do.
But he had thrown his entire body.
Which meant the infernal heat of the Walking Flame touched his fleshâand consumed him.
Sizzle.
His scale armor burned, melting into his skin.
The pain was excruciating.
His eyes cooked. The world turned red.
Agony remained as the only sensation.
Enkrid died again.
Only after twenty-five more fiery deathsâ
âYou may call me a fool.â
Enkrid muttered the moment he woke.
He couldnât help it.
âWhat?â
Lua Gharne approached, puffing her cheeks and rolling her eyes. What the hell was he talking about?
âI mean it.â
He said again, pulling out the secret weapon heâd been saving.
A mirror.
The one Esther gave him, telling him to look into it when things felt ominous.
Who knows magic best?
A mage? Noâa witch.
Among them, even Enkrid had to admitâthere was a true expert.
Esther. The black-haired beauty blinking from the other side of the mirror.
âDo you know the Walking Flame?â
Enkrid asked.
The beauty nodded, as if it were obvious.