Chapter 698: Chapter 698 Heâs Really Crazy!
This extremely conflicted psychological state made him avoid any news related to the Su Family as much as possible.
Especially news related to Xiaoâai.
A few days ago, the group captain even mentioned that Xiaoâai had asked him why Uncle Ji Dong hadnât come to see her recently.
He didnât dare to go.
He was afraid that if he went, he would overthink things.
It was better not to see her; knowing that the little girl was safe and sound each day was enough.
At times, his mind would become dizzy with thoughts, and he would let this unusual emotion gradually dissipate.
As several days passed, he thought he had dispersed these unusual feelings, but when faced with someone elseâs kindness, the reaction that was too quick to even consider, like a loud slap, woke him from his self-deceptive dream.
He then realized that the more suppressed feelings were, the deeper they etched themselves into the depths of his heart.
He hadnât forgotten, nor had he stopped caring.
On the contrary, he cared too much, which made him always think that he had forgotten.
Rarely was Ji Dong caught in such prolonged distress.
Even on the most dangerous battlefields, he would make decisions after just a few minutes of thought.
Yet the small thought of âshould I go see that little girlâ made him feel like a trapped beast, with no right move to make.
This special emotion, he couldnât talk about it with anyone.
Even facing the group captain now made him feel short of breath.
How to answer the group captainâs questions?
Could he say that he didnât visit the house because he had special feelings for the group captainâs little niece?
He couldnât say; this unacknowledged affection that had grown had to be digested and borne by him alone.
If it wasnât necessary, he wouldnât even go to the headquarters now.
The people around him, whether leaders or comrades-in-arms, all thought he was just tired from the arduous tasks of the past few months and the close call with death he had experienced once.
They unanimously gave him time to recuperate.
If the circumstances werenât special now, with hardly any leave left, he probably wouldnât remain in the army either.
Sometimes, Ji Dong himself was also confused.
This special affection, when exactly did it start?
There was even a time when he suspected he was ill.
He was so frightened that he wouldnât only avoid going to the group captainâs house, but he would also flee at top speed at the mere sight of his sister-in-law bringing Su Shu to the army headquarters.
Even seeing Xiaoâai happily waving at him from a distance, and ultimately that disappointed little face lingering in his mind, was unbearable.
For the first time in his life, Ji Dong experienced what it meant to be powerless.
Occasionally, when he felt depressed, he would think that even if Xiaoâai were as old as Bai Qinghuan, he probably wouldnât avoid her as desperately as he did now.
He was afraid of doing something wrong that might frighten the little girl, even more afraid of frightening himself.
Really, even if Xiaoâai were only fifteen or sixteen, perhaps he would dare to take a step forward and truly express his affection.
But nowâŠ
She was so youngâŠ
He truly was crazy, why couldnât he forget a simple phrase from a child?!
Even at night, in the deep silence when no one was around, he actually imagined what Xiaoâai would look like when she grew up.
Ji Dong, you really are crazy!
Fox sat beside him, watching Ji Dongâs face turn white, then black, then red, and then deathly still as if there were no tomorrow.
It really was very strange.