âDo you have a reason for thinking that?â
My heart pounded.
I tried hard not to hold onto false hope. Because if what he said turned out to be untrue, it would hurt too much.
The room was covered wall to wall with shifting screens.
Yehyeon continued speaking.
âItâs simple. If their survival hadnât been guaranteed, you would never have taken Falconâs hand.â
So he didnât know more than that.
I thought I wasnât hopingâbut I must have, at least a little. My expression must have given me away.
The Commander didnât seem to mind.
âYou donât trust yourself enough right now, Hilde. Youâre losing your objectivity.â
âSir?â
âThink about it carefully, Hilde. You didnât take Falconâs hand because you liked humans.â
My eyes widened.
His husky voice went on.
âSure, you probably liked us more than Kyle. But your top priority was always your own kind. If youâd believed victory in war would guarantee their safety, you wouldâve made humanity kneel at your feet.â
My mouth opened soundlessly.
Ah...
I couldnât refute it.
What Yehyeon said was true.
As I recovered lost memories, I realized how deeply I had cared for my kin. Of course, I had also grown attached to Eve and the other scientists who worked with her. Their deaths devastated me. Guilt shook me to my core. I loved the world they stood onâEarth.
But my first priority had always been my own people.
It was only natural.
â...You can tell that?â
When I hesitantly asked, the Commander gave a low chuckle.
âOf course.â
He smiled that unreadable, professional smile.
âI wouldâve been the same.â
I blinked several times, taken aback.
âHildebert. You didnât really intend to form a genuine bond of friendship with Falcon, did you?â
âAh, no. I actually tried to kill him for real, several times, but failed each time.â
âExactly.â
Gilbert and Yun turned to look at me.
Their startled gazes pricked like needles. It had been a while since Iâd seen that expression on my mentorâs face.
It didnât seem like such a shocking statement to me. Iâd bet even he had tried it at least once himself.
Heâd just stopped for political reasons.
âYou joined forces with Falcon because he had something to offer you.â
I turned back to Yehyeon.
âIt wasnât just persuasion. It wasnât just threats either. If heâd done nothing but threaten you, you would have died fighting beside Kyle to the end. But Falcon isnât that stupid. Iâm sure he promised to guarantee your peopleâs survival. You wouldnât have turned your back on them for mere sweet words.â
Colton protected my kin?
I couldnât react quickly. My mind wasnât working the way it used to. Maybe my body hadnât fully recovered yet, or maybe the shock of the recapture battle still lingered.
Either way, my superiorâs reasoning was sound.
But if that was true, why had Kyle chosen war?
He had always been more aggressive than me, yesâbut he wasnât a war fanatic.
Besides...
âI donât feel any trace of my kin inside the Core.â
I muttered in a husky voice.
âIf they were there, I wouldâve sensed them.â
âDo you remember the injection Jaeyeon gave you?â
Yehyeon asked back.
Of course I rememberedâthe day I reunited with Colton.
After the social gathering ended, I was about to go home, but when I opened my eyes, I was already kidnapped by Jaeyeon. Sheâd injected me with something unknown. That injection had unlocked the sealed sense inside me.
I had never really thought deeply about it until now.
But after Yehyeon mentioned it, I started wonderingâhow had such a thing even been created?
âFalcon is a meticulous man.â
The Commanderâs voice pulled me back.
âNo one handles things as thoroughly as he does.â
â...You mean he might have hidden my kin from me without my knowledge?â
I tried to keep my tone calm.
âThat theyâre living among humans inside the Core?â
âThatâs only my hypothesis. But itâs not without basis...â
Yehyeon said that, then suddenly looked troubled. The faint confusion on his face made me stare at him intently.
Whatâs wrong?
Heâd been speaking fine until now. Why stop?
âWhatâs the matter?â
â...Iâm wondering whether I should say more.â
Hm?
â...I canât decide how much of his story I can tell.â
Who?
I lost the thread of the conversationâapparently, I was the only one.
Gilbert and Yun already seemed to know exactly who âheâ referred to.
But judging by the tone, it didnât sound like Colton.
I tried to thinkâbut then Yun, whoâd been silent the whole time, broke in.
âLetâs stop there. Heâll roll his eyes back and go berserk again.â
That familiar low tone carried clear disapproval.
âI mean, I donât think things could get worse, but still.â
Ah.
âRight, they couldnât get worse. And besides, I was planning to tell Hilde about it soon anyway.â
âBut it doesnât have to be today.â
Gilbert joined calmly.
âYouâve been appearing at official functions quite often lately, havenât you?â
Jaeyeon.
I caught the thread again. The âheâ Yehyeon referred to was Jaeyeonâthe one who hated me for stealing Coltonâs chance to die of old age. The one who despised Yehyeon just as fiercely as me.
A few days ago, Yehyeon had said he would soon tell me why Jaeyeon hated him.
Could that reason be connected to my kin?
It seemed my bad feeling was right, judging from what Yun and Gilbert said.
But Titans, Jaeyeonâs irrational hatred of Yehyeon, and Commander Yehyeon himselfâhow were all these things linked? I had no clue. I didnât even understand why Jaeyeon suddenly came up at all.
Still, it was clear that Jaeyeon and the Titans were entangled in some troublesome way.
Then did that mean this man across from me had earned Jaeyeonâs hatred because of my kin?
Because of the people I brought here?
My blood turned cold.
âYeah.â
But I missed my chance to ask.
Before I could speak, Yehyeon broke the silence again. His voice resonated through the quiet room, filled with fatigue and resignation.
âLetâs save that story for next time.â
Said like that, I couldnât push further.
Iâd have to hear about Jaeyeon another day.
I absentmindedly brushed at the small flicker of hope that had bloomed inside meâhope born from my conversation with Yehyeon.
The small, fragile hope that my kin might still be alive somewhere inside the Core.
I was afraid it might shatterâbut I didnât want to let it go.
âSome may have died of old age, of course.â
Yehyeon steered the conversation back.
âNot everyone was immortal, right?â
âYes. They were all strong, like enhanced bodies, but not all were ageless. Only those who learned the method of servitude could control Creatures. The technique of absorbing nutrients from corpses was exclusive to those qualified to wield it.â
âYou said before that only about three of you could use thatâyourself included, right?â
âAh.â
I remembered the talk on the rooftop with Yun.
I nodded slowly.
Then carefully corrected myself.
âYes, though I canât be certain. Back then, I only remembered two of the World Treeâs children.â
âWell, if we canât open it, it doesnât matter how many there are.â
âThe point isâdonât lose hope, Hilde.â
Yehyeon caught the thread before it drifted away.
I pulled myself from thought and met his gaze.
âJust because you canât feel their presence doesnât mean theyâre dead.â
His voice carried conviction.
âI think the odds of some of them being alive are far higher than the odds of them all being dead.â
His eyes were firm.
I didnât answer for a while.
Heavy emotions swelled inside me. I didnât try to look too closely at them. But unlike before, it wasnât entirely dark.
It felt like moonlight spilling over a black abyss.
I mulled over his words, then slowly replied.
âThank you.â
There were still so many questionsâbut...
âAs you said, Iâll try to keep hope. Itâs a great comfort.â
Yehyeon didnât reply, only smiled faintly.
I quietly took in that composed, elegant smile until Gilbert finally spokeâsaying the Commander had to leave soon. The usually reserved man rose from his seat, asking me to âlook carefully through the footage; the Video Department might have missed something.â
Of course.
I bowed politely as the leadership exited the Video Center.
Then Yun and I began reviewing the recapture battle footage together.
***
We were dying.
âI want to go home...â
Fourth day commuting to the Center â NĐŸvĐ”lŃgÒ»Ń â (Continue reading) after discharge.
Actually, I hadnât gone home yesterday.
Face buried on the table, I muttered weakly,
âPlease, just readmit me, sir... No, I need to be readmitted. My eyes hurt too much.â
âQuit whining and start from 35 minutes in.â
Yun raked his hair back, voice rough with fatigue.
âItâs your turn from that timestamp.â
There was irritation in his tone.
I understood. I even understood the way he flicked his half-burned cigarette onto the table. I understood him pulling another from his pocket. Honestly, it was a miracle he was only this irritated. I was irritated too.
I wanted to quit.
Even knowing how important this work was didnât make it easier.
There were just too many videos.
And not all were in good conditionâmany had wild focus shifts, others were buried in dust.
âWill we really find anything by watching all of this?â
âYouâd know better than me.â
âI donât have any clue either...â
Grumbling, I still pressed play.
The merciless start of the recapture footage. 17:35 record.
18:00 record. 17:58 record. Second file, 35-minute mark, drone footage. Third, unmanned aerial footage.
Footage...
âHuh?â
Drowning in that flood of video, I raised my voice when my phone vibrated.
âSpitfire?â
God, that was a welcome sound.
I snatched up the phone.
And without missing the chance to escape, I bolted out of the Center to answer it.