So this is how it comes out.
That was the thought that crossed my mind as I looked at the senior who hadnât yet managed to wipe the blood and dust from himself.
Who had died, and who had been taken?
âWho...?â
Ami asked in a trembling voice.
For the first time, Ruta Ayerâs gaze left me.
The stench of the battlefield stabbed at my nose.
As the man dryly recited the list of the dead, there wereâthankfullyâno names I recognized. I thought it was a relief, though if anyone noticed that thought, Iâd probably get hit for it.
The seniorsâ expressions darkened rapidly.
Ami couldnât hold it in and let out a small sound.
Standing beside Yun, the only one who hadnât wavered at all, Ruta Ayer continued.
âThat was the list of the fallen.â
Then he recited different names.
âAnd these are the ones who were kidnapped.â
âAh.â
This time, the sound escaped my lips.
âLeeho.â
So heâd been taken too.
A chill ran through me. Fear and anger scraped at my insides. It was selfish, but the fact that there was a name I knew made it worse.
The senior Iâd first met while fighting the ink-cap mushroom Creature.
After that, weâd only gone on one mission together, but every time we crossed paths, heâd taken easy, casual care of me. He was the one who had scratched his head and apologized, saying he was sorry for treating me coldly even after noticing something strange about me during that mission. From that day on, even when I spat out ridiculous excuses, he never questioned me and let them slide.
And now he was under the blade of our own kind.
By now, he must understand why Iâd been making those nonsensical excuses.
âBut.â
As I bit down hard on my lip to steady my emotions, Yun broke the silence.
Arms crossed, the shooter stared straight at Ayer.
âWhat does any of that have to do with slashing my deputyâs cheek?â
Ayer met Yunâs gaze.
âYou might not realize that thereâs no guarantee theyâd release the kidnapped just because you hand Hilde over. Or that specifically naming Hilde means heâs the most dangerous one. That isâif youâre lacking in intelligence.â
Yunâs voice was thick with irritation and fury.
It was the first time Iâd ever seen him this viciously angry.
âBut even if you didnât know that, why the hell did you shoot him?â
His irritation seemed to build the more he spoke.
âDo you think Iâm easy?â
Every squad member watched Yun carefully.
The rage in his voice felt like it could explode at any moment.
I was no exception. I stayed taut with tension, eyes locked on Yunâs hand.
It looked like heâd deliberately shot to miss my face. Someone whoâd survived something this horrific couldnât possibly be in a sound state of mind.
I wanted to say that.
But I couldnât bring myself to.
Even with Yoow, Yun hadnât been this angry. That was probably because heâd decided Yoow had to die.
This one couldnât be killed, and the fact that heâd provoked Yun seemed to make his blood boil.
Ayer answered slowly.
âI know thereâs no guarantee the squad members will come back alive even if I hand that white-haired one over.â
âThenââ
Yun hissed.
âWhy did you shoot?â
He must have fired in a surge of emotion.
I failed to say it.
âI heard he betrayed the humanoid Creatures. If thatâs true, wouldnât you usually welcome him? Or am I mistaken again?â
â....â
âAnd if you really wanted to shove him out there to die to save the squad, shouldnât you be crawling on your knees at his feet instead of firing a gun? Even that wouldnât be enough sincerity. So why fire a gun when youâre doing neither?â
Thatâs enough, Yun. Heâs going to cry.
âDidnât you know Iâm his shooter?â
While I hesitated over whether to speak, Yun kept going.
A voice barely restraining boiling murderous intent.
âNo, thereâs no way you didnât know.â
My nerves were on edge, my gaze fixed on the shooterâs hand.
âYou just didnât care.â
Bang!
Fast as hell.
If Iâd been a second slower, the bullet would have gone straight through Ayerâs hand. Thank goodness I hadnât taken my eyes off the shooterâs hand in his pocket for even a moment.
The instant his hand came out, I drew my sword and slapped Yunâs arm down with the flat of the blade.
It was razor-close. If I hadnât calculated the trajectory in advance for moments like this, I wouldâve been too late.
Yun stared blankly at the wall the stray bullet had pierced, then rolled his eyes.
âWhat.â
His voice was laced with irritation. I kept my mouth shut.
âIt looked like you were about to shoot his hand.... Yun, calm down. Letâs go to the conference room. It seems the TF has been disbanded. I was told to come to the conference room once things were settled.â
âWhy are you interfering when Iâm disciplining a junior?â
Terrifying.
For a split second, I was genuinely scared. I forced myself to pull it together.
âIâm sorry.â
The mission was over, and I wasnât even a squad leader now. I had nothing to say.
I sheathed my sword obediently and bowed my head.
Ayerâs gaze returned to me, but I couldnât bring myself to meet it.
âTell the Personnel Director Iâll be late.â
âIâll stay behind.â
Amiâthe only one in the squad with comparable seniority to Yunâplaced a hand on my arm.
âGo on ahead.â
I didnât refuse and left the waiting area.
To be honest, I had no idea what to say. One squad had been wiped out, and another had been entirely kidnapped except for Ayer. What could I possibly add in a situation like this?
I knew it wasnât my fault. But guilt still surged up.
I stepped outside the waiting area.
Walker took Shu from Ami. Walker and Shu werenât part of the TF, so they didnât need to go to the conference room. Walker would take Shu to the medical wing for admission, then head home.
Before we split at the junction, Walker called my name.
âTaleb.â
I stopped and turned back to him.
âYes, senior.â
âThereâs no guarantee that hostages will be released even if you pay the ransom. I know that because Iâve handled kidnapping cases to the point of disgust.â
The man who had once been a famous fixer in the underworld let his eyes gleam in the shadow cast by the aisle lights.
They were the eyes of a hungry bear.
âCarve that into your brain.â
âI will.â
I answered quietly, then smiled faintly, grateful heâd said it.
âThank you.â
Walker didnât reply. He turned away.
Without another word, the senior headed toward the medical wing. We parted there, each going our separate ways. No one spoke as we walked toward the conference room. We stripped off our outerwear that reeked of sand and moved down corridors that swallowed our footsteps.
Looks like I donât have much time left living under the protection of those who favor me.
That was the thought that came to me as I walked in silence.
***
The Personnel Director wasnât waiting.
The Commander was.
The supreme authority, receiving reports through the earpiece hooked around his ear.
He lifted his head as we entered.
âSit.â
There was none of his usual gentle greeting.
As I took my seat, I reported that Yun and Ami would be late. Yehyeon nodded indifferently. He didnât ask why, nor did he say heâd relay the meeting contents to them later.
Instead, once everyone was seated, he got straight to the point.
âAs youâve been notified, the TF is disbanded effective today.â
No one dared to speak.
âThe TF was formed to draw out Hildeâs combat potential while concealing his identity. The plan was to make full use of him to expand territory. But if the humanoid Creatures are already spreading word of his identity, thereâs no reason to maintain the TF.â
It seemed many of his kin had come down.
That made sense. Unlike humans, they had no leeway.
My gaze settled on Yehyeonâs jet-black tie.
âToo much power was concentrated in the TF as well. But now that theyâve decided to kidnap Badgers, we canât afford to concentrate our forces in one place. Each of you is {Nâ˘oâ˘vâ˘eâ˘lâ˘iâ˘gâ˘hâ˘t} capable of leading a squad. From now on, the TF is disbanded, and youâll operate individually.â
âAre you sending Hilde out?â
Sophia asked.
For the first time, Yehyeon lifted his gaze from the pad and looked at her.
Large black eyes that revealed no emotion.
âNo.â
His voice was cold.
âThe loss would be too great if we lose Hilde.â
Kyleâs side knew full well that the Badgers wouldnât hand my head over so easily.
Still, it was an efficient strategy. No matter which choice was made, backlash was inevitable, and internal division was guaranteed.
Those whoâd had experiences like Sophiaâs couldnât help but resent Yehyeonâs decision.
I still couldnât take my eyes off his tie.
âAnother unit will be deployed for the rescue operation. For now, youâll rest. You canât be assigned a new mission the moment you return from one.â
âCommander.â
âBut Jack, Iâd like you to come in after one dayâs rest and review the footage the rescue unit sends back. You know Creatures well, and as a former insider, you might notice something.â
âUnderstood.â
I couldnât hold back and opened my mouth to speak, but Yehyeon ignored me and continued.
Kairos answered crisply.
Yehyeon turned his gaze to Ricardo, Carl, and Sophia.
âYou three will rest for your designated days, then take on the missions assigned to you.â
âYes.â
âYes.â
Ricardo and Carl answered quietly.
Only Sophia didnât respond, her expression complicated.
Yehyeon didnât seem to care and finally looked at me.
âHilde, youâll rest for your designated days as well.â
And thenâ
âAnd youâre going to another Core.â
âWhat?â
My eyes widened at the completely unexpected words.
Why?
âOne of the primary reasons we suffered a setback this time is Green Dream. Weâve received reports that itâs leaking out of Core 3.â
Yehyeon lowered his gaze to his pad.
âGo there and lead Sylvia and Leonard to find and seal the route through which Green Dream is leaking. Itâs as urgent and important as the rescue operation. Only you and Jack are immune to Green Dream, but Jack will be assigned to Creature analysis for the time being.â
âUnderstood.â
âThe two deserter-capture teams are already in Core 3. Theyâre tailing Doug Clark.â
So that was itâtheyâd deliberately let him loose and watched.
The urgent fire Yoow had mentioned had spread like this. I resisted the urge to bite down hard on my lip.
Iâd had a bad feeling ever since Yun was hit by Green Dreamâlaced ammunition. The problem was that weâd realized far too late that there were traitors on the human side.
Still, if we could block the leak of Green Dream, the chance of defeat would drop dramatically.
Every one of Yehyeonâs decisions made sense.
Exceptâ
âCommander.â
When I spoke, everyone looked at me.
âThereâs also the option of me pretending to offer my head and entering enemy territory. Jack and the ones under my command inside Center Core wonât be detected.â
âI know. I considered that strategy too.â
The plan where Iâd be captured willingly, and Kairos and Igor would infiltrate enemy territory to rescue me and the other Badgers.
It wasnât a low-probability strategy.
But Yehyeon didnât endorse it.
âWe canât use that strategy yet. If you seek them out that early, theyâll be certain youâre being tailed. They wonât kill the hostages immediately, so we have time to try other approaches.â
A cold conclusion.
I understood it logically.
âIf the situation worsens, we may have to accept the risk.â
Yehyeon finished calmly.
âBut not yet.â
Being forced to quantify what should never be quantified was the burden of the Commander.
I bowed my head, signaling my acceptance of his judgment.
I didnât show how tangled my insides were. Not that it wouldâve gone unnoticed.
There was no room to push back, no better alternative to propose. So I simply bowed my head. Just as Yehyeon said, I wasnât in a position to charge blindly into enemy territory.
Even if the other Badgers might think differently.
âThatâs all. Good work on the mission, and thank you for performing beyond expectations.â
As Yehyeon concluded the meeting, a heavy fatigue and sorrow suddenly settled over his voice.
âGo rest.â
Leeho.
As I stood with the others, that name crossed my mind.
Leeho and Jin.
They were far too young compared to me.
***
I returned to the cabin.
I donât remember exactly how. I only remember Ricardo wiping the blood from my cheek before we parted.
Heâd told me to stop thinking stupid thoughts and get counseling while I was resting, hadnât he?
I also remembered Carl gripping my shoulder and saying, âHold fast,â before leaving.
Both of them must have been shaken by the news of their juniorsâ deaths, yet they still took such careful consideration of me. I was grateful.
Unfortunately, I probably wouldnât have time for counseling.
Deltei greeted Kairos and me when we returned to the cabin.
âGoing to play the game right away?â
We were.
Now, we really had to.