The Badgers and civilian staff who had been standing near Yehyeon turned to look back with puzzled expressions.
But Yehyeon â NĐŸvĐ”lŃgÒ»Ń â (Continue reading) couldnât pay attention to their reactions.
After setting the pad down, he walked straight toward Hilde as Hilde entered the office.
Only after Yehyeon came to a stop in front of him did expression return to Hildeâs face.
The man gave a faint, bitter smile.
âYou barely slept.â
Only after Hilde spoke quietly did Yehyeon realize that he had used honorifics.
He went cold for a moment, then, realizing he couldnât take back what he had already said, turned his head away.
Two secretaries, Dante, Aki, and Asil.
...Fortunately, people this could still be managed with.
âSorry. The rest, submit it as a written report.â
He grabbed Hilde by the arm and pulled him out of the office.
Hilde allowed himself to be led without resistance.
Without saying a word, Yehyeon dragged him to the executive office.
It was the place where Hilde had stayed for a week back when he first appeared in the Portal Zone, when two Creatures had shown up near Center Core Headquarters trying to kill him. The media had gone wild over that incident, making it impossible to interview Hilde right away.
When they went inside, closed the door, and Yehyeon turned around, Hilde smiled faintly.
âItâs been a while. This place.â
âWhat happened?â
He asked while thinking that, if it came to it, he might have to go find that long-limbed Titan who had gone with him.
âPlease tell me everything.â
Hilde reported only the key points.
As always, a clean report, without excess.
Yehyeon forced the manâwho looked like he might stand upâto sit on the bed and made him report from there.
Even after the report ended, he continued staring down at his godfather for quite a while.
Three in the afternoon. A gentle spring breeze drifted pleasantly in through the open window frame.
The first to speak was Hilde, who had been watching Yehyeon standing in front of the bed.
âYehyeon. You really need to sleep.â
âDonât take any work calls for a week and rest.â
The moment Hilde spoke, Yehyeon snapped back to himself and issued an order.
Golden eyes filled with confusion.
Feigning ignorance, Yehyeon continued.
âIâm not assigning you any missions for two weeks.â
âWhat?â
Hilde tried to get up from the bed.
âWhy? I heard the hostages havenât been released yetââ
âSit down. Anyone who returns from a mission is supposed to take time off for a while. You took the autonomicâsympathetic nerve training, right, from Yun.â
âI understand that, but isnât two weeks too long? Iâm not even injured.â
Yehyeon swallowed down the emotions that surged up in his chest.
He bit his lip, then pressed Hildeâs shoulder firmly to make him sit.
âYou donât know what kind of face you walked in with. Go rest. If it were up to me, Iâd lock you in a cabin.â
Hildeâs eyes widened.
Still, it was a relief. It felt like the godfather he knew had finally come back a little. He never wanted to see again that expressionless face Hilde had worn when he entered the office.
The look Badgers injured by endless combat and loss often showed.
Hilde blinked and asked,
âWas my expression really that bad?â
âYes. It was the worst. Hilde, Iâve lived on the battlefield since I was twenty-five. Thereâs no way I wouldnât notice something being wrong.â
Hildebert gave a wry smile.
âIs that so. I thought Iâd gotten a lot better on the way back. Itâd be a lie to say I wasnât shaken, but as time passed, I kept leaning more toward the idea that I really did help Eve.â
âThen are you saying you were in even worse shape before you came back?â
He thought he should contact the Titans, including Blackjack, and keep Hildebert confined to a cabin.
If he resisted, heâd just lock him in this lounge instead.
As he scanned the room, wondering what it lacked, Hilde spoke.
âI can shoot well now.â
Yehyeon stared straight at Hilde.
âYou might be shocked to hear it, but... I think that was real salvation for Eve. Now.â
Hilde smiled faintly, beautifully.
That unique, pale smile.
Why was the world so cruel to this man?
Still, Yehyeon felt relieved that Hilde seemed to be trying, in his own way, to overcome Eveâs death. Throughout the entire report, heâd been worried that Hilde might not be able to hold a gun anymore.
But it was the oppositeâhe could shoot again. He must have pulled himself out of the pit in his own way.
And Yehyeon, too, believed that it would have been salvation for Eve.
Because he knew someone who wished for death more than anyone, yet could not die of their own will.
But this man truly needed to rest.
âSo, Commander. About the kidnapping incidentââ
âWeâre trying to negotiate with the Titan side, so thatâs enough about that. You wonât be taking missions for two weeks.â
It didnât seem like pleading would work, so he crushed him with rank.
Hilde fell silent.
âAnd if something truly urgent happens, weâll have no choice but to call you, so please rest in the cabin. If you donât want to, weâll lock you in my house instead.â
â...Alright. But I think youâre the one who should go home. Yehyeon. Since youâre already here, get some sleep before you go. Your dark circles are terrible, and the blood vessels in your eyes are completely burst.â
âThen you sleep in this bed, Hilde. Iâll sleep a bit on the bed next to it.â
âIâm not sleepy, though...â
Hilde argued that heâd slept enough on the flight back to Center Core. Yehyeon didnât listen. He knew very well that sufficient sleep helped.
How to make this man rest.
After a momentâs thought, he said,
âIf you donât get some sleep, Iâll go back to work.â
As he said it, Yehyeon felt a flicker of fear. What if Hilde reacted like his fatherâDo whatever you want. Itâs none of your business, and Iâm not sleepy, so Iâll go?
Was he overestimating his own presence in Hildebertâs life?
But Hilde made a troubled expression, then nodded.
âAlright. Letâs take a nap, then.â
Yehyeon felt like he might cry.
***
Even though Iâd slept like that, sleep still came the moment I closed my eyes.
I woke in the dim light of early evening.
That air unique to early evening, the kind you feel when you wake up after an indulgent nap...
Huh?
I realized the bed beside me was empty.
I sprang upright.
Sitting up, I groped for my phone. I lifted my heavy eyelids and stared at the blindingly bright screen until my eyes stung. Messages that had come in while I slept filled the display.
[Deltei: Did you arrive? Iâm ordering groceriesâanything you want to eat?]
[Igor: When you wake up, come to the Science Wing, Commander.]
[Yun: When you wake up, Science Wing.]
[Rose: Commander⥠Did you make it back to Center Core safely?]
[Yehyeon: Iâll head out first. Rest as long as you like before leaving.]
[Kairos: Let me know when you get off work. If possible, Iâd like to head back together.]
Why the Science Wing?
And Yehyeon... he really didnât sleep much before leaving.
I wanted him to sleep more, but it seems I slept like a log. A nap of one or two hours wouldnât make dark circles like that disappear.
Clicking my tongue at myself, I entered Yunâs message thread.
Did Igor and Yun get into another fight?
I was about to message that I was coming nowâ
[Ba-ba-ba bam-paba! Ba-ba-ba bam-paba! Ba-ba-baba]
A call.
That ghost of a man. The moment I heard the Tom and Jerry opening themeâwhich Iâd set to ring only when Yun calledâI hit the answer button.
It seemed heâd called the instant the unread marker disappeared.
âYes, sunbae.â
[Martin is booting up.]
True to form, Yun skipped any preamble.
[Thereâs something else to talk about, so if youâre up, come to the Science Wing.]
So he wasnât actively fighting with Igor right now.
Knowing it was pointless to ask more, I got up from the bed without another word.
After tidying the room just enough, I hurried to the Science Wing.
Iâd stopped by headquarters as soon as I arrived at Center Core, but before I could hear anything properly, Iâd gone straight to sleep. I had no idea what was going on. I wanted to know how the kidnapped people were being treated, what results the rescue team had achievedâbut judging by Yehyeonâs attitude, I wouldnât be hearing any of that for a while.
The fact that there hadnât been a single message from senior Black Badgers or my peers felt ominous...
Carrying that unease, I entered the Science Wing.
A familiar layout filled my vision.
Here and there, voices I was glad to hear burst out.
âHilde! Itâs been a while!â
âOh, itâs Hilde!â
âPerfect timing! Weâre about to power Martin up!â
âLetâs make some room. Do we have any spare chairs?â
âThis time there wonât be a blackout for real, right?â
âWeâve prepared properly, so itâs fine.â
âIf thereâs another blackout this time, weâre dead. The Commander personally warned usâabsolutely no power failure.â
âJohn, Yun. Boot sequence ready.â
âHilde! Hurry, come here!â
âAaah! John! Wait a second!â
Dee-ro-ring.
As I greeted the scientists and walked inside, a strange sound came from the center of where they were gathered.
Amid the scientistsâ gasps, I saw an artificial intelligence rising with a zzziiing into the air.
A perfectly round sphere.
âMartin!â
The researchers raised both hands and cheered.
âMartinâs return!â
[Hello!]
Martin stopped at a moderate height, then spun in place.
[Was my power shut off? My memory seems to be cut. I feel more energetic than beforeâwas I updated?]
âMaaartiiiin!â
Familiar faces reached out toward Martin, crying.
The people who had witnessed Martin explode when the portal opened in the Science Wing.
With reddened eyes, they stared up at Martin or burst into tears, unable to look away.
âMaaartiiiin....â
[I donât know what happened, but please calm down, everyone!]
âHhuuuh... huuuhhh....â
Iâm glad everyone looks okay.
âI missed you, Martin!â
âSo cute! Still cute!â
âHhuuuhhh!â
âItâs thanks to you! Because of you, weâre here right now!â
âHhuuuuuuhhh!â
âSeriously, thank goodness... that you came back....â
âHhhuuuaaaaaaahhh! Hhhuuuuuhhh!â
Among the scientists making a scene, I also spotted the ash-gray-haired genius towering over them.
John MĂŒhlen, looking at Martin with a mix of pride, fondness, and reliefâsurprisingly human emotions.
Meanwhile, Yun, who had been looking up at Martin with his hands shoved into the pockets of his lab coat, turned his head and stared at me.
Nearby, Igor sat on a metal chair with his arms crossed.
Smiling, I walked up to my mentor.
âIâm glad Martin was revived safely.â
âLetâs go.â
Yun said what he wanted to say.
âWeâve seen the boot-up.â
Yeah. Fine. What would change if I argued?
Besides, there was no chance to talk to Martin right now. The scientists were swarming him one after another, trying to strike up conversations. I smiled at the sight of Martin spinning around, then followed Yun out into the corridor.
Igor stood up and followed behind us.
Huh?
Whatâs this.
Yunâs not saying anything?
Thereâs no way the two of them get along. And he wouldnât just accept Igor following us.
We crossed the corridor and entered a lab on the opposite side. I still hadnât grasped the situation by the time Igor slid the door shut.
What happened for these two to team up and call me here?
Once again, it was Yun who broke the silence.
The moment the door closed, he spoke.
âThat brain couldnât be moved anywhere else.â
A full-force straight pitch.
I stood there, completely speechless, as Yun continued in a low voice.
âNo matter what we did, it was a situation that couldnât escape that place. The moment even one electrode was pulled out, everything would have ended. She mustâve known that tooâthatâs why she asked you to shoot her.â
â...Igor asked you, didnât he.â
âGo read the papers I dug through yourself if you want. I didnât dress it up with lies just to comfort you.â
I couldnât hold it in and let out a bitter laugh.
Right. Heâs not that kind of person.
Suddenly, everything made sense. Igor had gone to Yun. That loyal subordinate must have asked himâwas there a way to move Eveâs brain? If there had been, he would have hidden it. But Yun had reached the conclusion that there was no way, and that was why he called me here.
To comfort me.
I gave a dry smile and bowed politely.
âNo. Itâs fine. I donât think Iâd understand it even if I read them.â
Yunâs eyes narrowed.
âBut hearing it said like this does make me feel lighter. Thank you, Yun.â
After thanking him sincerely, I shifted my gaze to the subordinate leaning against the lab door.
I met Igorâs sulky stare and smiled faintly.
âThanks. For worrying about me.â
Some people might say this kind of self-rationalization is creepy.
Still, getting this answer from Yun eased my chest a little.
At first, the jellyfish-like brain had been a shock, and the hand holding the gun hadnât felt like my own.
I hadnât wanted to look in mirrors again, and everything had felt overwhelming. But now... well. As time passes, I find myself thinking more and more that what I did was salvation. And I wonder if it wouldnât have hurt even more if Iâd ignored her wish, tried to save her, and failed miserably.
Her desire had been so specific, after all...
It wasnât that I couldnât understand her feelings.
âIâm really okay now.â
I said it with a smile, but Igor didnât move.
âI mean it, Igor. You went through a lot taking care of me when I was out of it that day. Iâm a lot better now.â
âHilde.â
Yun called my name.
âYes?â
âIf it were me, Iâd never have killed her.â
My mentor smiled as he looked at me.
âRegardless of what the other personâs hope was, Iâd prefer them to be alive.â
What the hell.
A chill ran down my spine.
I shot him a look of pure shock, but Yun didnât even blink.
Instead, he added an explanation, leaving behind a faint smile.
âIf it were the brain of someone I didnât care about, Iâd have used it for research or lost interest. If it were someone I did care about, Iâd have done whatever it took to keep them alive as long as possible. I probably wouldâve taken over that lab until I found a method. In other words, if youâd been the brain in the tank and Iâd found you, you wouldnât have been able to die.â
âThatâs horrifying. Seriously. Thatâs not a jokeâthatâs genuinely terrifying.â
Knowing he meant it made it even scarier.
I shuddered. This must be his version of comfort... I know itâs Yunâs particular brand of comfort.
Itâs not that it doesnât help at all, but why is it so damn creepy?
Even Igor broke his poker face and looked at Yun like he was staring at trash.
Yun twisted his body after smirking crookedly at my horrified expression.
âIf you understand, letâs go.â
My mentor casually tossed out one more bomb as he stepped into the corridor.
âYehyeon told me to take you all the way home.â