I figured that once I returned to Center Core, Iâd find some time to drop by.
But after hanging up the call, as I buried my face in my hands with a restless heartâ
Lee Seunghyun walked into the room.
Samuel and I were both startled.
âUwaaaagh!â
Samuel screamed and threw his pad.
For reference, the doctor had heard everything Seunghyun was saying as well.
The doctor, who had been scrunching up his face by the second before eventually beating his chest in rage like an orangutan, went pale at the sight of the man entering with a blank expression.
âWhat the hell is this crazyâ!â
I sympathized with his outburst.
âWhy the hell is that here! Did you call him over?!â
âWhy are you already here?â
Dumbfounded, I stood up.
âHow did you get here?â
âThe portalâs been stabilized.â
Seunghyun answered flatly.
âYou can talk after we return, or you can say it here. Either way is fine.â
I stared straight at Lee Seunghyun.
A man standing in a room dyed in pale dawn light.
When all my memories had been wiped, Iâd thought Seunghyun and Yehyeon were brothers. Just looking at their faces, it was hard not to assume they were blood-related.
That fact irritated me now.
Back when I observed things from a distance, I hadnât noticed it.
Now, the sense of rejection made my mouth bitter.
It was the same feeling I always had when I saw someone indifferent to the suffering of the weak.
Suppressing the turmoil in my gut, I pointed to the sofa across from me.
âSit.â
Lee Seunghyun obediently followed.
âDoctor. Would you step out? Or you can stay. Either is fine.â
âIâm too pissed to leave him here and walk out.â
Samuel replied.
Seunghyun didnât react. He simply sat on the sofa and looked up at me standing opposite him.
I took Lee Seunghyun in with my eyes.
Someone who grew up in violence and never properly grasped the weight of his own sins.
Because his nature wasnât inherently evil, I felt pity for his upbringingâbut the disgust provoked by his transgressions was stronger.
I set aside the myriad emotions and thoughts that had surfaced as I listened.
Then I sighed.
âFrom now on, donât speak to Yehyeon first. Donât even look at him.â
Seunghyun quietly looked at me.
Then answered.
âYes.â
âEverything you did to Yehyeon was abuse.â
I murmured it like a whisper.
âWhether you loved that child or not... no one ordered you to abuse Yehyeon. Donât try to rationalize that wrongdoing with your mental defects.â
âDid it sound like I was trying to rationalize it?â
âIt didnât sound like it. It was rationalization.â
Seunghyun looked up at me without changing his expression.
He seemed unable to understand which part of his explanation counted as rationalization.
A man excessively indifferent to violence directed at himself and violence inflicted on others.
The fact that he was still employed in a profession that uses violence didnât help. Over nearly eighty years, Seunghyun had neither recognized the problem nor changed himself.
To begin with, perpetrators always take the situation far more lightly than victims do.
And perpetrators always attach reasons to their actions.
âPeople always attach reasons to everything they do.â
I said quietly.
âThat doesnât lessen the sin. It only disgusts the one listening.â
âYes.â
âHonestly, I want to beat you upâbut it probably wouldnât affect you much.â
Iâd been thinking the whole time.
What should I do?
Now I understood Yun. I finally knew why, on the rare occasions he fought with Yehyeon, the argument always ended up being about Lee Seunghyun. To the mentor, the solution had been painfully obvious.
Lee Seunghyun just needed to disappear from Yehyeonâs life. Whether Seunghyun died, left on his own, or Yehyeon cut off his feelings.
But Yehyeon couldnât sever those feelings. And every time, he must have suffered because of them.
That was what Yun could never understand.
âThatâs Stockholm syndrome.â
Iâd heard that Yun once said this and ended up having a huge fight with Yehyeon.
Honestly, it was impressive Yun hadnât attempted to kill Lee Seunghyun until now....
.......
Or had he?
Did he try?
Did he try and fail?
I quickly grabbed hold of my thoughts as they tried to drift elsewhere and loosened my finger joints.
âKilling you wouldnât solve the situation either. Youâd die and stop thinking, so only you would be at peace.â
âThatâs not incorrect.â
âSo get professional counseling.â
For the first time, emotion appeared in Seunghyunâs eyes.
He looked at me like I was spewing nonsense.
Meanwhile, Samuelâwho had been glaring at Seunghyun with undisguised loathingârelaxed his face.
I looked down at the man who was staring at me in confusion.
âI think youâre capable of realizing what you actually did.â
âWhat do you gain from making me go through something so troublesome?â
âIf you committed a crime, you take punishment and repent. You stay separated from the victim. If the victim demands an apology, you apologize sincerely.â
I wanted to strike him, but it wouldnât satisfy me.
From the time I trained him, heâd been unusually good at taking hits.
âRecognize your crime properly and live the rest of your life in regret.â
Yehyeon didnât need to know any of this.
âI want you to truly realize how cruelly you treated Sashaâs love and devotion.â
Even now, Sasha was his entire worldâso the moment of realization would open up a brand-new hell.
But what good would regret do?
What was done couldnât be undone.
I wished for him to flounder in piercing remorse.
And if he didnât regret it in the end, well....
I could always clean him up when I brought Colton down.
If I suggested disguising it as an accident, Yun would probably like that.
Yehyeon would grieve for a while, but heâd overcome it.
Still, rather than that, I hoped this bastard would shed tears of repentance that no one would accept.
I thought that might be the path that let Yehyeon rest easiest.
âIs this an order?â
âThink of it as a threat. If you donât commit sincerely to treatment, Iâm thinking of joining hands with Falcon or Spitfire and going after Sukhoi.â
âI understand.â
Seunghyun bowed his head obediently.
âI will do so.â
I roughly understood how his fickleness, avoidance, and violence operated.
I didnât want to describe it in detail, and it wasnât worth doing so.
The point was that, having lived a long life, Iâd seen people like this many times.
Still, in Seunghyunâs case, the fact that he recognized his own mental issues suggested there was a chance his condition could improve.
So I wanted him to live his entire life atoning in self-loathing and regret.
And even then, with his sins never disappearing, I wanted him to shudder at the cruelty of time that could never be reversed.
Meanwhile, it would be even better if Yehyeon lived happily, knowing nothing.
That said, this was all part of atonement.
Separatelyâ
I still had to beat him up.
I walked toward the man sitting across from me.
And ignoring Samuelâs flustered shout, I grabbed Lee Seunghyun by the collar and walked out.
***
After wiping off the blood, I was about to leave the bathroom when my phone rang.
I answered without checking the caller.
Ami?
[I heard my father went over there.]
It was Yehyeon.
[Did Hilde call him separately?]
My heart nearly jumped out of my chest.
I was glad Yehyeon couldnât see how wide my eyes had gone.
Bracing one hand against the wall, I calmed my pounding heart.
Clearing my throat, I replied.
âHow did you know?â
Judging by the honorifics, he must have called from his private number.
âIt wasnât anything serious.â
[I heard from the doctor. He said you met the physician, but there was no improvement.]
âAh, right. Thatâs true.... But maybe if he rests, heâll recover slowly....â
[Did you hear why heâs rumored to be a legendary doctor?]
The unexpected question caught me off guard.
I pressed my lips into a thin line and looked at the corner of the mirror.
Sajid, who earned the title of legendary doctor by keeping a single Luca alive to the very end.
Killed by Sukhoi, and whose real name no one remembered anymore: Medeia.
Iâd also pried into the story from that timeâthe part Seunghyun hadnât explained. Staggering back to Center Core, Seunghyun had given one last explanation before taking the portal, about why sheâd been called âMedeiaâ.
In a splendid mythâ
Each time the eagle pecked at Prometheusâs liver, ichor spilled from his side.
Rare flowers grew where the ichor-soaked earth lay. When the roots of those flowers were broken, pitch-black liquid containing the essence of ichor seeped out. Medeia gathered that black fluid in pure white shells brought from the Caspian Sea and brewed a powerful medicine.
This medicine, which granted superhuman strength, was known as âPrometheusâs medicineâ.
And thus, she was called Medeia.
A woman who created medicine that bestowed superhuman power.
But I couldnât tell that story.
I brushed it off by saying that since he was a mysterious doctor living in an expensive district, strange rumors must have spread.
Yehyeon made a small sound of agreement.
After a brief silence, he askedâ
[He seems to be connected to Sukhoiâs side.]
Good thing he couldnât hear my heart racing.
I wiped my face with my free hand.
Yehyeon chuckled softly on the other end of the line.
[Itâs fine. I donât have attacks every time I hear about my father or see him. And if you donât feel like talking about it, you donât have to. Itâs not an important storyâotherwise you wouldâve reported it to me.]
âYeah. None of it was worth reporting.â
After letting out a relieved sigh, I addedâ
âIâm sorry I didnât tell you beforehand that I called Lee Seunghyun. I called him privately, and I thought telling you would only dampen your mood.â
[Sometimes it would. Sometimes it wouldnât.]
Yehyeon laughed quietly.
[But Iâve been getting much better. Lately, Iâve been even more okay. So you donât have to be that careful.]
I stood there blankly in the bathroom.
I stared at the mirror for a long while, eyes wide open.
What the child said so casually echoed heavily through my head.
Getting better. Even more okay lately.
Was it time that healed things?
Did Yunâs or Amiâs support help that much? Did his higher position, and no longer needing †NĐŸvĐ”â ight †(Read more on our source) to rely on others, give him courage?
Or was there some personal turning point?
Either way, the thought that Yehyeon was slowly saving himself made my chest churn.
Amazing.
It couldnât have been easy.
Even with solid support from his siblings....
[Iâm not saying Iâve completely let go. Yun is still frustrated to death. And I donât even understand myselfâbut I just canât bring myself to completely hate him.]
âThat happens.â
[Yes. I know Iâm foolish. But anyway... lately, especially, Iâve been doing surprisingly well.]
I felt proud of him.
So proud that I nearly teared up in a thoroughly undignified way.
But the next words sucked those tears right back in.
[I think itâs thanks to you, Hilde.]
âHm?â
Me?
âWhat did I do?â
I didnât do anything.
...Wait.
Did he find out?
Did someone plant a listening device on Lee Seunghyunâs phone or something?
As I was about to panic, Yehyeon said calmlyâ
[You came back safely.]
?
I became even more confused.
What did that have to do with overcoming trauma?
But before I could ask, completely lost, Yehyeon changed his tone entirely.
He suddenly saidâ
[Now hurry back. Get treated and rest.]
He was using honorifics, but it was basically half an order.
I debated how to respond, then blurted outâ
âYes, sir.â
And quickly changed the subject.
âEveryoneâs doing okay, right?â
The answer didnât come right away.
What?
My back straightened as I waited for a reply saying nothing special had happened.
âWhat happenedââ
[I heard a rumor that Ami is going on a date with Ju....]
Huh?
[Have you heard anything about that?]