"What?"
I forced my tense body to relax and asked. Did I mishear? No matter how many times I thought about it, it seemed like I did, but this time, I hadn't.
"What... what?"
Namgung Bi-ah remained silent despite my repeated questioning. She simply looked at me.
Her ocean-like blue eyes, as always, were beautiful. At first, I couldnât even look directly into them, constantly turning my head away. Now, I could barely manage to hold her gaze.
However, my eyes trembled with embarrassment. I swallowed hard, my Adamâs apple bobbing.
Gulp.
Saliva went down involuntarily.
"Where did you even learn that...? No, do you even understand what you're saying?"
I was certain she didnât know anything about this sort of thing. Yes, she must have said it without understanding.
As I thought that and asked her againâ
"Making a baby."
"...What?"
"I know."
Oh, no. My head spun in an instant.
When did she learn that? When exactly...?
"I'm older than you," she pointed out, apparently displeased with my reaction.
Right, Namgung Bi-ah was older than me.
But does this really apply here? Are those two things even comparable? My head swirled with conflicting thoughts.
"Could you explain... in detail?"
I shook my hand at her words.
"No, donât. Please, donât."
Whatever detailed explanation she intended to give, I absolutely didnât want to hear it from her.
âWhere the hell did she learn that?â
Had she gained some kind of information network in the past few years? Or had someone told her? But that wasnât the main issue right now.
"That..."
"...Yes?"
"...Um..."
What should I say? I needed to say something, but my lips wouldnât move properly.
My mind went blank. What should I say? What could I possibly say?
After stuttering for a while, I finally managed to spit something out.
"Are you... okay with this?"
You idiot.
Thatâs what I managed to say? âAre you okay with this?â What even is âthisâ?
I wanted to smash my own mouth right then and there.
But as if my question made sense, Namgung Bi-ah nodded.
"I'm fine."
"...Youâre fine?"
"Yes."
Her eyes, looking at me, were as clear as always.
"Iâve always been fine..."
"...I..."
"Youâre the one who wasnât."
I was speechless. I had no rebuttal because she was right.
Yes, I was the one who wasnât ready.
It was something I already knew. But even so...
"Speaking about this so casually is just..."
I was about to point out how odd it was for her to say it so matter-of-factly, but I shut my mouth.
Because I noticed her expression.
At first glance, she seemed as calm as ever. But on closer inspection, her pale complexion was tinged with a slight blush. Her trembling eyes were subtle yet noticeable.
And especially, her ears, hidden behind her hair, were so red it looked like they might explode.
"...Oh."
So, she wasnât unfazed.
She had been suppressing her embarrassment to say this.
And realizing thatâ
Thump.
Thump.
Thump... thump... thump-thump.
My heart sped up wildly, beating out of control.
In my blank mind, a single pink droplet fell, dyeing everything pink as it swallowed up the white.
My head spun.
What was I trying to do again? Why had this topic come up in the first place?
What was I going to say to Namgung Bi-ah?
I couldnât remember any of it. All I could see was her faintly blushing cheeks and her clear blue eyes looking at me.
What should I say now?
No, why am I even worrying about this?
It was the same with Tang So-yeol, and itâs the same now.
Why am I overthinking this? Is there even a need to?
I canât even remember why I was worried in the first place.
I justâ
I just moved my hand.
To touch Namgung Bi-ahâs cheek. What happens next? I donât know. Right now, I was simply moving on instinct.
Just as my hand was about to touch her cheekâ
"What are you doing?"
"...!"
A sharp voice snapped me back to reality.
I turned my head to see Wi Seol-ah glaring at me with narrowed eyes.
"What are you doing right now?"
"Uh? No, I... uh..."
I had been so entranced that I hadnât even noticed Wi Seol-ah approaching. Now, the heat rose all the way to my ears.
âWhat was I trying to do just now?â
What was I about to do? My face burned as the heat spread further.
I probably looked just as red as Namgung Bi-ahâs ears right now.
But this wasnât the time for that.
âI need to explain.â
I had to explain this situation to Wi Seol-ah. That was what I decided as I opened my mouthâ
"Well..."
"I asked you a question."
"Huh?"
Wi Seol-ah wasnât even looking at me.
"Unni."
She was glaring at Namgung Bi-ah, who was busy avoiding her gaze.
Clearly irritated, Wi Seol-ah furrowed her brow and spoke.
"You broke the promise."
Promise?
"We all agreed to hold back, and yet, what is this?"
Hold back?
The situation was taking a strange turn.
"Wait a second, what are youâ"
"Donât act like you donât know what Iâm talking about."
"No, seriously, what are youâ"
"Be quiet, Young Master!"
"...Oh, okay."
I obediently shut my mouth. It had been so long since Wi Seol-ah had yelled at me.
This alone was enough to show how angry she was.
"Unni."
"...Iâm sorry..."
"Tang So-yeol said she didnât want this kind of situation. She didnât want to feel humiliated. But youâre using that against her?"
"...I..."
Namgung Bi-ah looked like she had no excuse, her face full of guilt.
âWhat exactly did Tang So-yeol tell them...?â
I was left even more confused. What on earth was going on?
"And at least, if youâre going to make a move, you should do it when Moyong Biyeon is around."
"...Yes..."
Namgung Bi-ah was shrinking under Wi Seol-ahâs scolding.
Had Wi Seol-ah ever been this harsh toward Namgung Bi-ah? Not that I could remember.
"Um, girls? Maybe calm down a bit and explain to meâ"
"Young Master, could you step outside for a moment?"
"...What?"
"Please. We have something to talk about, just us."
It was clear: I was being asked to leave.
In this situation?
Wi Seol-ah looked desperate as she asked, and when I glanced at Namgung Bi-ah, she avoided my eyes, looking like a guilty party.
What in the world was going on?
Though I was dying of curiosity about what had just happened and what was happening nowâ
"...Alright."
Given the mood, pressing for answers wouldnât yield anything.
Reluctantly, I got up and stepped outside.
As soon as I did, I spotted a familiar face.
"Oh? Youâre coming out now?"
Tang So-yeol greeted me with a smile. It seemed like she was just about to go in.
"They told me to leave," I said.
"Huh? Who? Unni?"
âNoâŠâ
âThen it was Seol-ah?â
âYeah.â
âOh my, whatâs gotten into her?â
âThatâs what Iâd like to knowâŠâ
I was genuinely curious. On top of that, I still hadnât calmed down from what had just happened with Namgung Bi-ah.
When I placed a hand on my chest, I could feel my heart racing.
â...If Wi Seol-ah hadnât shown up just then.â
What would have happened?
â...â
I ran a hand through my hair, feeling the lingering heat. That had been closeâfar too close.
âI almost lost control.â
I thought Iâd been holding back all this time, but clearly, I hadnât.
â...Itâs not me holding back.â
Was it them?
With Namgung Bi-ah actively trying to seduce me, I couldnât keep my composure.
Was it even seduction, though? I wouldnât knowâIâve never been seduced before.
Well, to be precise, I have.
Itâs just thatâŠ
âAnyone who tried too hard to seduce me, I killed without hesitation.â
In my past life, thatâs how it was. Whether they were spies sent by the orthodox sects or lunatics from the demonic factions.
Anyone who approached me with a pretty face met the same fate.
Because of that, ridiculous rumors started circulating. That the Black Flame Demon secretly preferred men.
âI wanted to find the bastard who started that rumor and kill them.â
But I never found them. If I have a regret, thatâs it.
There was one theory that bothered me, though.
âThey said the one who spread the rumor was none other than the Divine Sword.â
It was laughable. Absolute nonsense.
Why would the Divine Sword do something like that? They claimed it was credible, but I didnât buy it.
Because it was that Divine Sword.
Even though the rumor was annoying, it had one upside: no more beauty traps were sent my way.
I didnât have to waste time killing people unnecessarily.
Of course, there was a time when Cheonma asked me about it.
âThey asked if it was true.â
The sly smile on their face made it obvious they were teasing me.
In any case, it was a load of crap.
AnywayâŠ
Iâd built up some immunity to crude attempts at seduction, but this kind of temptation? It was a different story.
It was no wonder I couldnât keep my wits about me.
âDid something happen?â
âWell...â
I was about to explain the situation to Tang So-yeol when Wi Seol-ahâs words suddenly resurfaced in my mind.
âThey said you told them something. Something about not liking the situation?â
âHuh? Told them what?â
âSomething about not liking the situation. Thatâs what they said, anyway.â
âOh! Oh, is that it?â
Tang So-yeol clapped her hands as if something had clicked for her.
âI gave them a bit of sex education because they didnât know anything. Maybe thatâs what they meant?â
âYou did what?â
âSex education.â
â...â
Hearing that, the unease Iâd felt in my mind vanished completely.
âSo thatâs who they learned it from.â
It was you.
I ignored the throbbing in my head as best I could.
âHow... How did it come to that?â
âWell, itâs not like I planned it. Itâs just that they were completely clueless. No matter how much time theyâve spent swinging swords, itâs ridiculous to know nothing at their age.â
â...â
I couldnât argue with her. She was absolutely right.
Given their ages, they shouldâve already known.
If they werenât martial artists, they mightâve had several children by now.
HoweverâŠ
âThen what did Seol-ah mean about not wanting to feel humiliated?â
Wi Seol-ah had clearly said that Tang So-yeol didnât want to feel humiliated, which is why she told them.
Hearing that, Tang So-yeolâs eyes widened slightly.
Her expression said she hadnât expected that to be shared.
She awkwardly scratched her cheek before letting out a sigh.
âWell, itâs just...â
She hesitated, but eventually confessed.
âIt felt unfair...â
âUnfair?â
âI didnât want to compete with someone who didnât even understand the basics. It felt like it would hurt my pride.â
âCompete? Compete over what?â
âOver who gets to make the first move on you, of course. It wouldnât be fair if someone was clueless, so I told them.â
âI see, that makes sense... Wait, what?â
I was starting to nod when her words sank in.
...Make the first move?
âHehe.â
âDonât laugh it off. Explain yourself properly. What do you mean by âmake the first moveâ?â
âWell, honestly... this is mostly your fault.â
âHow is this suddenly my fault?â
Tang So-yeol frowned slightly as she explained.
âWatching you, itâs obvious you react, but you never make the first move. And if we wait around, it feels like weâll be waiting forever. That leaves only one option, doesnât it?â
She casually tucked her hair behind her ear as she added,
âWe have to make the first move ourselves.â
â...â
Her words were as bold as they were shameless.
âSo, we made a deal among ourselves.â
âA deal...?â
I raised my hand as soon as she said that.
âHold on. Iâm struggling to follow this. Are you saying the deal wasââ
âYouâre right. We agreed on who would get to make the first moveâor who would be moved on first.â
â...Are you all insane?â
âPartially. And if we are, itâs because you drove us to it. So itâs not entirely our fault.â
Her audaciousness left me speechless. All I could do was gape at her.
âAnyway, thatâs the agreement. The winner gets priority.â
âAnd... why would you decide that without asking me?â
âIf you donât like it, just say so.â
âItâs not about liking or dislikingââ
âYou wouldnât dislike it anyway.â
âI havenât even finishedââ
âBut you wouldnât, would you? Because youâre not the type to let go of anyone. You want to hold onto all of us.â
â...â
She hit the nail on the head. Tang So-yeolâs green eyes gleamed with certainty, leaving no room for denial.
âWe all know it. You canât pick just one, so youâll end up keeping everyone close.â
âDo I really seem that selfish to you?â
âIf not selfish, then possessive. Very possessive.â
â...You donât even hesitate to answer, do you?â
âBecause itâs true. And we know there are things you want to say but canât. But listen.â
Tang So-yeolâs gaze bore into me, her light green eyes curving into crescent moons.
âThat doesnât mean weâll keep holding back. From now on, youâll have to restrain yourself. Weâve reached our limit.â
âYou...â
âOh, donât worry. We agreed that if anything happens, itâll be when all three of us are together. It wouldnât be fair otherwise.â
All three. There was no need to ask who the third person was.
Ah, so thatâs why.
âSo thatâs why Wi Seol-ah got so upset?â
The scolding earlier suddenly made sense.
Realizing all this, I froze. I didnât even know how to respond.
At that moment,
âBy the way.â
Tang So-yeol poked my chest with her finger before brushing past me.
The faint scent of wood lingered as she passed.
âWhen you go back, be ready. Weâre serious about this.â
â...â
âJust so you know.â
With that, Tang So-yeol entered the infirmary.
And I stood there for a long while.
Be ready, she said.
â...â
Could I really handle it?
I sighed as the thought crossed my mind.
âHandle it, my ass.â
Running a hand through my hair, I finally admitted it.
I was reaching my limit, too.