Saul spent the entire night asking the Nightmare Butterfly questions and intermittently reading the notes, finally gaining a rough understanding of her current condition.
According to Haywoodâs notes, the eggs laid by Nightmare Butterflies were not their offspringâbut rather, new bodies for themselves. Unless something went wrong, a Nightmare Butterfly could achieve rebirth by transferring her consciousness into one of her eggs.
In doing so, she would inherit her previous memoriesâwhat they referred to as their âhistory.â
However, this process could go awry.
Haywood had heard from the Tower Master that the moment of consciousness transfer was also the Nightmare Butterfliesâ most vulnerable time.
Some true wizardsâHaywood noted âat least Second Rankââwere known to target this exact moment to capture Nightmare Butterflies.
Of course, the butterfliesâ death throes were also terrifying. There had been higher-ranked wizards who died attempting such captures.
Also, the notes recorded that the transfer process often required the use of dreamsâthe more powerful the targetâs mental presence, the better the dream.
This could greatly shorten the butterfliesâ period of weakness.
âSo Penny originally wanted to be reborn through my dream?â
âYes, and to draw power from your history, she observed you.â
Saul: ââŠNo wonder she mistook me for someone else back then.â
His history involved crossing between worlds and not just from a big world to a small one, either. These were worlds with fundamentally different underlying rules.
Even he had nearly gotten lost when trying to observe his own pastâthere was no way he couldâve helped someone else.
âDo you remember what you saw during the observation?â
The little butterfly flapped her wings. âIf I remembered, then I wouldnât be me anymore.â
âFair enough.â
Saul felt a bit disappointed. If he could use this opportunity to learn what had happened during his crossing, perhaps he could finally understand whether something had changed in his soul.
But even after going through that vague and inexplicable crisis, Saul still hadnât figured out whether anything special had happened to him during the crossing.
As for the observer, Pennyâshe had merely peeked at a fragment of his history, and that alone had cost her part of her own. Sheâd become a haughty little butterfly.
âWhy do I feel like Iâm a bomb?â Saul shook his head. Exploring the secrets of world-crossing was even more dangerous than heâd imagined.
âSo I should still focus my resurrection research on removing the soulâs rejection of its vessel. Studying the peculiarities of my own soul might not yield any results. And if I end up getting Master Gorsa involvedâŠâ
Saul knew too well what becoming someone elseâs research subject could lead to. Hayden and Herman were living examples.
Your life wouldnât be your own. Neither would your gender.
Thinking of that, Saul looked at the Nightmare Butterfly again.
âDo you still have the ability to observe history?â
âNope!â The butterfly answered cheerfully.
âWhat about altering other peopleâs memories?â
âNope!â
Saul crossed his arms. Back in the day, he naturally wouldnât want the Nightmare Butterfly to have such mind-warping powers.
But now that sheâd become his bookmark, he naturally hoped his pet would be a little stronger.
Then again, if she still had her former powers, he probably wouldnât have been able to subdue her at all.
He simply asked, âSo what powers do you still have?â
âI dunno!â
Saul sighed and was just about to put the Nightmare Butterfly away, when she suddenly sensed his intention and fluttered up pitifully.
âBrother Saul, can I not go back to that dark and scary place?â
âYou donât want to go back? Can you really stay outside for long periods?â
âWhy not? I was always outside before.â
Saul thought for a moment. The Nightmare Butterfly was, after all, a lifeform that existed between a wizardâs body and her consciousness.
Maybe she was different from a wizard apprenticeâs soul in his book and could indeed act independently.
Thinking of this, Saul agreed to her request. âAlright, you can stay out for now. If anything feels off or you want to go back, just call me.â
âThank you, Brother Saul, youâre the best!â
The Nightmare Butterfly spun in the air, then landed on Saulâs cheek, brushing him gently with her antennae.
Saul only felt a faint chill.
âNightmare Butterfly⊠forget it, Iâll just call you Penny from now on. Even if youâve lost your past, youâre probably still her.â
âOkay! I like the name Penny!â The butterfly had no resistance to the name, accepting it gladly.
âPenny, why can your consciousness exist independently from your body? A soul without a vessel should be fragileâeasily corrupted or mutated.â
âBecause I have history! Knowing history lets me affirm my existence, and the more history I know, the more stable my power becomes. Even if I get hurt, I can recover by revisiting my history.â
âBut now youâve lost most of your memory. Doesnât that make you vulnerable?â
âNormally, yes. But my situation is special now.â
âYou mean your connection to the diary protects you?â
âSo that dark place is called a diary? Weird name.â
Saul didnât bother explaining, and Penny didnât need to understand it.
In any case, the Nightmare Butterflyâs method of survival as a separate consciousness wasnât something a wizard could copy.
Saul paused his study of Penny, returned the notes to the sealed lead box, and went back to the lab to clean up the mess.
He still hadnât figured out what had caused Hermanâs sudden change when entering the female corpse.
That afternoon, when Hayden came by as usual, he noticed that the tall man who always followed Saul around was nowhere to be seen.
Before he could ask, he spotted Herman standing in the outer section of the second storeroom, eyes closed, amidst a cluster of corpses.
He immediately tensed. âLord Saul, sheâŠâ
Saul followed Haydenâs gaze and understood at once, but only replied mildly, âThere was a little mishap with the experiment.â
Haydenâs heart lurched. He followed Saul nervously.
Hermanâs âdeathâ had him on edge. He hadnât expected Saul to burn through a test subject so quickly.
Though heâd mentally prepared himself to be used in various experiments when he joined the spirit infusion trialsâafter all, even ordinary apprentices were often voluntold into such rolesâseeing a test subject consumed in front of him still filled him with fear.
As Hayden walked much more slowly than usual into the lab, he was stunned by the device before him.
âAn electro-sense chair?â
In an instant, memories of his recent time as an experimental subject flooded backâhis new bodyâs dull sensory feedback, the endless painful testsâit all made his heart race.
He froze on the spot, unable to take another step forward.
He imagined electric currents surging through him, goosebumps all over but in reality, only his eyelashes quivered.
Hayden knew he couldnât disobey Saulâs orders. Even if he were to die the next moment, he would still have to cooperate.
But knowing that didnât make his body any less frozen.
Saul walked over and powered up the device. Noticing Haydenâs fear, he took the initiative to explain the experiment.
âToday, Iâm researching how corpses repel souls. Youâll sit in the chair, try to separate your consciousness from your body, and Iâll record your bodyâs reactions.â
He adjusted the chair and looked back at Hayden.
See? No electricity.
But Hayden still stood there dumbly, like someone had hit pause.
Saul frowned. âWhatâs holding you back?â
Haydenâs trembling pupils shifted from the machine to Saulâs face. Her mouth moved, but no words came out.
Just as Saul was about to issue a firm command, Hayden suddenly shuddered.
The aura of fear washed away like a receding tide. When she looked up again, her eyes gleamed with resolve and a trace of madness.
âHeâs afraid. Iâm not, my lord,â Haydenâs second personality spoke, her face twisting into a rigid smile.
(End of Chapter)
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