Chapter 1375: You That I Love Most
Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
Ning Xi put up a bitter smile. āYou can guess what happened afterwards. After I got pregnant, I thought it was Su Yanās child, so I insisted on keeping it. During that time, Su Yan went overseas for a long time and was only back when I was eight months into my pregnancy.
āAfter he came back, he told me the truth. It wasnāt him that night. The child wasnāt his. He revealed what Ning Xueluo did to me. He told me that he only lied to cover up what Ning Xueluo did to me.
āWhen Ning Xueluo told me the truth, I lost control and ran out onto the road and got hit by a car. The child was dead when it was born. This is probably the only kindness the heavens showed me. If not, I really wouldnāt know how to face this childā¦ā
All her past feelings were coming back to her. āDo you know how I felt back then? The world crumbled around meā¦
āBoth Ning Xueluo and Su Yan didnāt know, but Iāve doubted Su Yan from the very start. Although my memories were messed up that night, I can never forget the feelingā¦
āThat strange manā¦was very scary. I felt pain⦠It was agonizing. I felt like I was going to dieā¦
āAfter that time, I had a high fever for a whole week. I stayed in bed and only recovered after about a month. When I went to the doctor, I can never forget the embarrassmentā¦
āThe only thing that kept me going at that time was the thought that I had done it with Su Yan. I didnāt want to think that that person wasnāt my boyfriend.
āSo, I kept on lying to myself until I couldnāt anymore⦠And I paid the price.ā
Ning Xi stopped for a bit, then continued, āAfterwards, my fear towards men followed me everywhere. I hated men. That was my only experience with sex. I went to counseling for a very long time. It didnāt help, but I didnāt care anymoreā¦ā
As he was listening to Ning Xi, especially when she mentioned about the fear towards the strange man, Lu Tingxiaoās bloodlust surfaced. āWhoās that man?
Ning Xi trembled a little. āI donāt know. I investigated for a very long time⦠There was no clue at all⦠Iām not sure if Ning Xueluo arranged it⦠Itās like the man didnāt even exist in the first placeā¦ā
After she was done, Ning Xi looked lost. She just stared at the man in front of her. āIām finished. So, this is my past. Youāre so good. Sometimes, I think⦠Itād be nice if you were a little more terribleā¦ā
Lu Tingxiao frowned and looked at the girl in the eye. āNing Xi, Iām telling you this. You think Iām good because you love me! My first and only time was with some other woman, and I evenā¦had a child, a black spot that can never be removedā¦ā
āNonsense! Little Treasure isnāt a black spot!ā Ning Xiās sense of loss was gone, replaced with a serious expression.
Lu Tingxiao smiled. āThatās right, to me, everything that has happened to you isnāt as well. No matter what happened in your past, thatās all you, thatās what made the current you, the you that I love the most.ā