After everything had been said between Rachel, Lucy, and me, I left them to it and made my way to the hotel, to find Christopher.
Sixth floor. His room. The stairs felt longer than usual.
He was laid out on the bed when I came in, propped up just enough to not look completely horizontal, one arm resting across his stomach near where the bandaging sat underneath his shirt. He didnât look like a man who had just taken a hit from a Symbiotic, which was either a good sign or a proof to how well he hid things. When Rachel had told me heâd been hurt trying to intervene, my mind had immediately gone somewhere worse. A Symbiotic attack wasnât like getting clipped by a regular person. The damage those things could do, the way Penny had been moving when she was fully gone, Iâd braced for something serious. A deep puncture, torn muscle, something that would take weeks and real medical attention to come back from.
But looking at him now, pale and annoyed and alive, the wound apparently shallow enough to count as lucky, I let myself exhale.
The others were hovering just enough to make their concern obvious, which Christopher was tolerating with approximately zero grace.
"Youâre all treating me like I lost a limb," he said, not for the first time by the sound of it, staring up at the ceiling with the expression of a man being smothered by kindness. He exhaled. "Iâm fine."
"Thankfully," I said, pulling a chair over and sitting down, giving him a look that I hoped communicated both relief and a reasonable amount of irritation. "And letâs try to keep it that way."
"Come on." He shifted slightly, wincing just enough to undercut the casual delivery. "Sydney was struggling with her, you saw and fight Penny when she was fully gone. Someone had to step in. And we still need Lucy in one piece to get Mei back, so." He spread his hands as if the math was self-evident. "What was I supposed to do, watch?"
I leaned back in the chair, tipping it onto its rear legs, and looked at the wall.
"Itâs my fault," I said.
Christopher closed his eyes briefly. "Here we go."
"Iâm not saying it to be dramatic about it."
"No, you never do, thatâs what makes it worse," he replied, opening his eyes and looking at me tired. "The real suffering here would be listening to you take personal credit for every bad thing that happens within a fifty-meter radius. Itâs exhausting."
"Iâm being serious," I said. "I spent time alone with Penny, hours, just the two of us and she didnât go for me. She was calm. Controlled. So I convinced myself she was stable enough, that whatever was happening inside her was manageable. That was the assumption I made." I shook my head. "I should have known better. I should have considered that she might be stable with me because someone was keeping her that way. That she could be triggered from a distance, pointed at a target like a weapon. I didnât think it through far enough."
"You had no idea she could be controlled like that," Christopher said. "None of us did. Thatâs not a failure of observation, thatâs just not having information you couldnât have had."
"I should have predicted the possibility."
"With what? Youâre not omniscient, Ryan." He pushed himself up slightly against the headboard, more careful about it this time. "You already told us sheâd gone after you before and lost control. If weâre distributing blame, it lands on all of us. Every person in this group who knew she was unstable and didnât account for the full range of what that could mean. You donât get to claim sole ownership of that."
I looked at him for a moment.
Then I let out a short laugh. "Youâre surprisingly good with words for someone lying in a sick bed."
"Studied at Lexington," he said, the scoff carrying just enough pride to be funny. "What did you expect?"
"Was that always the plan? Lexington?"
He was quiet for a second, something shifting behind his eyes. "My parentsâ plan," he said eventually before pausing a bit, thinking. "They were good people. Just, busy. Always busy. The kind of busy where youâre in the same house as someone and still feel the distance." He paused. "Lexington was their idea of giving me something. I think they meant it genuinely."
"Iâm sorry," I said.
"Donât be." He said it simply, without deflection. "I grieved them. Took the time to actually do it properly, which I think most of us either canât or wonât. But if you donât grieve, you just carry it around and it gets heavier." He glanced at me sideways. "Hope is the cruelest thing going right now. Best fuel there is and the most likely thing to gut you if you let it run without a leash."
"Canât argue with that," I said quietly.
The room settled around us. Outside, somewhere down in the hotel, something was moving, footsteps, maybe voices caught my enhanced earrings.
Christopher then spoke looking at my complicated face.
"Rachel filled me in," he said. "About Lucy. About Gaspar and the threat against her brother." He let the words sit for a second. "Twisted doesnât quite cover it."
"No," I agreed. "It doesnât."
"She wasnât wrong, you known, what she said about the two of them. Callighan and Gaspar, they are different despite being together. More partners than companions."
"Yeah." I looked at my hands. "Partners. I think thatâs more accurate than anything I would have come up with."
Christopher watched me for another moment.
"So what are you thinking?" he asked.
"About what?"
"About Lucy." He gave me the wry half-smile, the one that meant he already had a guess and was checking it against the real answer. "Because I know you. And youâre not the kind of person who sends someone back into a threat without a second thought just because the math happens to work out in your favor. Not even for Mei."
I was quiet.
"Iâm probably the worst kind of leader," I said after a moment.
"Ryanâ"
"No, let me finish." I cut him off gently but clearly. "I mean it. Objectively. If you look at the situation, Mei is one of ours, sheâs being held, and I have the leverage to get her back. The logical thing, the thing any competent leader would do without losing sleep over it, is use that leverage. Send Lucy back regardless of what Gaspar threatened. Accept that you canât protect everyone from every consequence and get your person home." I paused. "I canât do that. Iâm sitting here trying to find a way around it instead of just making the call, and that hesitation could cost us."
"Maybe," Christopher said. "Or maybe youâre right to hesitate. Because think about itk say you send Lucy back, Gaspar follows through on his threat, her brother gets hurt or worse. Mei comes home." He looked at me. "You think Meiâs going to be okay with that? You think sheâs going to settle back in knowing someone paid that price for her return? She may look like selfish and arrogant but her real self showed itself when she chose to intervene for Rebecca. And honestly?" He shifted slightly. "Itâs not like you either. Youâd wreck yourself over it too, youâd just do it quietly."
The laugh that came out of me had no humor in it. "Thatâs the problem. Itâs not like me. Thatâs the exact problem."
"Then stop wearing it like a character flaw and start working the problem," Christopher said, with a faint exasperation. "Youâve got a mind. Use it. Find another angle."
"Youâre right." I leaned my head back against the chair and stared up at the ceiling, letting the lines of it go soft while I thought. The water stains, the cracks, the texture of a ceiling in a building that had seen better years.
"We could try to move on her during the exchange meeting itself. Sydneyâs fast, if anyone could pull it off cleanlyâ"
"Too risky," I said, before heâd even finished the sentence, because Iâd already been there. "Theyâll have people ready for exactly that. They know someone with Symbiote capabilities is coming. Theyâll have contingencies. We push during the exchange and someone gets hurt, or worse, we lose Mei in the chaos."
Christopher nodded slowly, chewing on it. "So we need something theyâre not prepared for."
"Actually," I said, "I donât think we go to the meeting to do the exchange at all. I donât think we go there to do anything."
Christopher stared at me. "...What?"
"Iâve been turning it over." I straightened in the chair, elbows coming forward onto my knees, and looked at him properly. "The problem isnât Callighan. Callighan is manageable, heâs calculating, he wants things, which means you can negotiate with him. You can find the angle. But Gaspar is a different problem entirely. Heâs a wild variable and a dangerous one, and the moment heâs anywhere near the equation, the whole thing becomes unpredictable." I shook my head. "Even if we go in clean, even if we hand Lucy over exactly as agreed and Callighan holds up his end, Gaspar is still there. And Gaspar doesnât think like a man trying to maintain order. He thinks like someone who wants specific outcomes, and right now I donât trust what his outcomes are."
Christopherâs expression had shifted, the easy wryness replaced with something more focused. "You think heâd actually hurt Mei? Even after an exchange?"
"He already came for me directly, Christopher," I said. "He didnât send someone. He didnât wait for an opportunity. He targeted me, which means heâs already decided Iâm a problem that needs to be removed. And now he knows Mei is one of ours, he understands what she means to this group, then sheâs not just a bargaining chip to him. Sheâs leverage heâs not going to want to give up easily." I paused, letting it sit for a second. "And at worst? Even if we deliver Lucy without a single thing going wrong on our end, on top of whatever heâs already threatened against her brother, I think thereâs a real possibility heâs already planning to do something to Mei regardless. Something that sends a message."
Christopher fell thoughtful as he nodded at me.
"So negotiating through Callighan for Meiâs release," he said slowly, "is essentially useless."
"Essentially, yeah," I said. "Whatever Callighan agrees to, Gaspar can undercut. And I donât think Callighan has the kind of control over him that would make those agreements stick when it counts."
I sat back, pulling in a long breath.
"We have to get Mei out ourselves. Quietly, from Brigantine, without Gaspar knowing anything is happening until itâs already done."
Christopher was quiet for a moment. Then a small smile pulled at the corner of his mouth.
"Ryan, that is insane," he said.
"I know."
"Like, impressively insane."
"I know," I said again, and I could feel the faint smirk pulling at my face despite everything. "But itâs also the only play that gets Mei home without Gaspar having any opportunity to move against her in the window between us agreeing to terms and us actually getting her back. If we do this right, he never sees it coming. No negotiation table, no exchange window, no moment where sheâs in transit and vulnerable. We go in, we take her, weâre out."
Christopher tilted his head, the smile fading slightly. "Thatâs a good idea in principle. Itâs a great idea in principle. But youâre talking about moving on Brigantine, a location we know almost nothing about. The layout, the security, how many people, where theyâre keeping herâ" He spread his hands. "Weâre working blind."
"Weâre not," I said. "Lucy knows that place."
He paused. "Lucy already shut that door. She wasnât interested in giving us anything."
"That was before Gaspar put a death threat over her brotherâs head," I said, meeting his eyes. "Before she understood that staying quiet doesnât protect him, it just leaves him sitting inside Brigantine with a man who has already decided heâs disposable collateral. You think she still wants her brother in that place? You think sheâs still willing to protect Callighanâs operation knowing what Gaspar is?"
Christopher held my gaze for a beat, then nodded, slow and certain. "Right."
"So," I said, narrowing my eyes. "We offer her a way out. Not just information, not just cooperation, we offer to pull her brother out of Brigantine when we go in for Mei. She helps us understand the place, and in exchange, neither of them has to spend another night under Gasparâs reach."
The smile that spread across Christopherâs face this time was the full version.
"Now thatâs unexpected from you but..." he said, smirking. "I love that plan."