Chapter 810 Sorry, I have to betray you this time (2)

"I also don’t know where I got the courage to decide to be a single mom, raising two kids. Someone like me, with such an uncertain future, actually made that choice... Even now when I think back, it still feels unbelievable."

What power it was, I still can’t figure out to this day.

But sometimes, making a decision is a matter of a moment, who knows.

"But the most important thing that kept me from dispelling the thought of giving birth was the check he left me. If it weren’t for the financial pillar he provided, I probably would’ve had the will but lacked the means. Without money, without connections, what could I do?"

Still a student, she might not have even had the money to afford an abortion.

"Maybe if it hadn’t been for the meddling of the merchant, raising two kids would’ve been too much for me."

"Why did you make such a choice back then? The risks were too large. Alone, who would take care of you?"

"I didn’t think much about it. I had just broken up with Jin Xiangbei and was still in the sadness of losing love. Just a bit whimsically, I thought, men are unreliable. I’m not finding a boyfriend again, nor getting married. Just happened to be pregnant, so give birth to the child. Relying on each other with my child wouldn’t be too lonely."

Song Yanxi listened, nodded, and smiled, "But it’s nice... I’m envious. Having children is good, lively and cute..."

Song Yanxi finished speaking and drank the entire cup.

"Hey—don’t drink so fast. It’s easy to get drunk, slow down."

It was easy to tell that Song Yanxi was feeling melancholic.

"It’s okay, the alcohol is weak. I could drink a few bottles and not get drunk. Do you drink? Aren’t you the legendary ’one and done’? If you can’t hold your liquor, don’t drink. I’ll get you some soda and you can just eat something with me."

"No need. I’m not a ’one and done’; I can still drink some. The alcohol content in beer isn’t high."

After a few drinks, Song Yanxi’s expression became even worse.

"Sister Yanxi, are you troubled? Why not talk to me about it? I’m listening."

"Troubled..." Song Yanxi kept drinking, pursed her lips and nodded, "Mm... I was just thinking... how nice it would’ve been if I... could’ve been pregnant with his child... At least... when I saw the child, I would remember him, there would be something related to him in this world."

"Him...?"

Was it her boyfriend who had passed away?

"Mm, my boyfriend, but he’s gone," said Song Yanxi, "I wanted to show you his photo but I can’t. He didn’t leave a single photo of himself in this world."

"Ah?" This surprised Eleven, "How come? It’s not like the old days now, how can there be no photo?"

Song Yanxi smiled and said, "He was an orphan, no parents, no brothers or sisters. He said I was the most important and dearest person to him in this world. He never kept photos, this is our photo together."

Song Yanxi took out her wallet and opened it; Eleven looked and was stunned.

It was a photo together alright...

But it was only the body, her boyfriend’s face had been artificially cut out.

"Why like this? He..." Unsure if it was appropriate to ask, but seeing nobody else around, she asked, "Was he a fugitive? So he couldn’t show his face?"

"Pfft..." Song Yanxi laughed, "No, no. He had his reasons."

"Oh..."

Not a fugitive...

Then why? Afraid to show his face?

But Song Yanxi didn’t say, so she didn’t feel it right to ask any further.