âWhatdoesthatmean....â
âfyouârecuriousaboutsomething,askproperly.Socananswer.â
â.......â
fKwonaehangotinvolved,plausibilitycouldberesolveduptoacertainpoint.wouldnâtbeabletotellhimeverythingofmyownwill,butsomethinglikethiskindofloophole......theyâdprobablyallowit.Maybe.
henwhyhadnâtâSeoJehyunâtriedtoletKwonaehanknowthisbefore?
âBecauseâdhavetokillhimagain?â
fyouhadtokeeprepeatingsomethingwhenyoudidnâtevenknowwhenitwouldfinallysucceed,youâdprobablywanttoshoveasidelittleriskslikethat.ButhadneverintendedfromthestarttobearKwonaehanâsthousandlives.
couldseethelookinKwonaehanâseyesashetriedtoreadwhatwasthinking.
âeâstakingfuckingforever...thinking.â
presseddownhardonthetipofhisshoe,meaningtohurryhimalong.Kwonaehanâsbrowstwitchedstrangely,maybebecauseeventhatcausedafaintstabofpain.
Afterafairamountoftimehadpassed,Kwonaehanslowlyaskedinasubduedvoice,
âDoyou...knowme?â
âWell,you?hewholecountryknowsyou.â
âmeandoyouknowwhatthisquestionmeans.â
Becausehisvoicehaddroppedsolow,italmostfeltalittlelikewasbeingthreatened.otthatitfeltthreateningatall,ofcourse.
lookedatKwonaehanforamoment,thenansweredsimply.
âYeah.â
Atthat,Kwonaehan,whohadbeenmovinghislipslikeheâĐŸvĐ”lŃgÒ»Ńâ(Continuereading)wasabouttopouroutquestionsatonce,closedhismouthagain.
hereweregapsbetweenhisquestions.didnâtthinkhewasthetypetothinkthisdeeply,butitlookedlikehewasearnestlyworkinghisbrain.
leftKwonaehantothinkonhisownandquietlyobservedhim.Wehadnâtactuallybeenfacetofacethatmanytimes,buthefeltexcessivelyfamiliar.
WheneverthoughtabouttheâSeoJehyunâKwonaehansearchedforandevenresented,feltastrangesenseofdissonance.haddefinitelylookedintothatpointinthepastseveraltimes,andsometimesâdevenbeenassimilatedintoit,butthatstilldidnâtmakeitmymemory.Atbest,itwaslikewatchingitalittlemoreclosely......likeavideo.
Butseparatefromthat,didfeellikeâdknownKwonaehanforaverylongtime.
Kwonaehanstaredatmeforalongwhilewithcomplicatedeyes,thenopenedhismouth.
âhatâsalie.â
What?
heguywhohadbeenstrugglingwithhimselfjustmomentsagospokeinafirmvoiceallatonce.Forasecond,mybrowfurrowedwithoutmerealizingit.
âYouârejustmakingassumptionsbecauseofhowâvebeenacting,figuringthereâssomethingthere.hefactthatyouwonâttellmedirectlyandaremakingmeaskquestionstoo...youâretryingtodrawwordsoutofme.â
âWhatareyoutalkingabout?â
âYouâregoodatpsychologicalgames...andeverytimesomethinglikethishappens,youactclever.â
Foramoment,thatinsanebullshitpouringoutofhismouthalmostmademegrabhimbythecollar.Kwonaehankepttalkingstubbornlythroughmybaffledreactionanyway.
âYouprobablywonâtunderstandevenifsaythis.......Butitâscertainsomethinghaschanged.Andthereâsnowaythatâsbecauseofyou.â
âaehan,getittogether.â
âalready...amtogether.â
Sayingthat,Kwonaehanaddedcalmly,
âfwasnât,wouldâvebelievedyouagainthistime.â
Withthosewords,feltKwonaehanâshandremoveminefromhisarm.esteppedback,thenwidenedthedistancethathadclosedbetweenus.
âAsettlement....Dowhateveryouwant.donâtwanttogetinvolvedwithyouanymore.Atleastnotthistime.â
â.......â
âJustonce...please.â
Forsomeoneusingthewordplease,hedidnâtlookallthatdesperate....Wasthisanotherresultofemotionalwearandtear?
Whenlightlyfurrowedmybrow,Kwonaehanstaredsomewhereelseforalongwhile,thenturnedhisheadbacktowardme.
didnâtsayanything.justwaitedforKwonaehanquietly.elookedatmelikehestillhadmorehewantedtosay,groundhisteethslightly,theninaninstantletallthestrengthgooutofhimself.
âAnd,SeoJehyun.â
â.......â
âvenifeverythingyousaidistrue,stillwonâttrustyou.â
hadnâtansweredanythingheâdsaidthiswholetime,butthisoncecouldnâthelpaskingback.
âWhy?â
âBecauseevenifeverywordyousaidisthetruth,itâsstillbetternottotrustyou.â
Withthat,Kwonaehanlefthishospitalroom.
o,tobeexact,hetriedtoleave,andtheattemptfailedprettyeasily.grabbedKwonaehanashewasfiddlingwiththedoorlock,spunhimaround,andshovedhimagainstthewall.
âUgh!â
bracedanarmtightlynearKwonaehanâsshoulder,pinninghiminplacesohecouldnâtmove.
âhereareCCcameraseverywhere,anddonâtwanttomakethepicturelookweird,sohowaboutwekeeptalkingalittlelonger,quietly?fonemorestrangescandalbreaksout,feellikesomeoneâsreallygoingtokillme.â
âAreyoudoingthisbecauseyouwantyourarmbrokenorsomething?â
âo,hategettinghurt.â
loosenedmyarmandpressedthecenterofKwonaehanâschestwithmypalm,blockinghimfromgettingpastme.houghifKwonaehanreallydecidedtouseforce,hecouldbreakoutofthisinnotime.
âakeyourhandoffme.Beforeknockitawaywithforce.â
âDonâtshowoffyourstrengthagainstsomeoneweaker...andlistentotheend.â
âWeaker?a,sincewhendidyou...?â
easilyignoredwhatKwonaehansaidandsmiledaslookedathimquietly.
âow....aehan,thinkaboutthissimply.â
â.......â
âvenifyoukeeptryingtoavoidme,itwonâtreallydomuch.Youâregoingtokeepgoingaroundclearingatesanyway,andthemediaâsgoingtoshowyoucountlesstimes.fyouhatethat,thenstartlivingasarecluserightnow.ohideyourselfquietlyonsomeislandnobodyknowsthenameof...thenmaybewonâtbeabletofindyou.â
â.......â
âButthereâsnowayyouâddothat.Youknowthatyourself,donâtyou?â
slowlyletthestrengthoutofthehandthathadbeenpressingagainsthischesttoholdhiminplace.WaitingforKwonaehanâsgaze,whichhadbrieflydroppedtomyhand,torisebackuptomyeyes,wentoninaneasyvoice.
âDonâtthinksomethingliketoday...isonlygoingtohappenonce...justwait.â
âa....SeoJehyun,areyoufuckingkiddingmerightnow?couldkillyourightnow,thissecond.heonlyreasonâmnot...â
âhenwanttotrykillingme?â
cutoffKwonaehanâspatheticwordsandaskedseriously.
â...What?â
hadthoughtonceortwicethatmightlethimkillmeonce.Well,ifâdkilledhim999times,thendyingoncemyselfwasnâtexactlyaloss.fcourse,ifheactuallycameatmetryingtokillme,itâdbefuckingawful.
grabbedKwonaehanâshandwhereithadfallenlimpathissideandpulledituptomyneck.couldseehimbracingandresistinghalfwaythrough,butnotenoughtomakeitdifficulttoforcehishandaroundmythroat.
âetgo.â
âowaboutwetradeonceeach?donâtmind.â
Rightafterthat,feltasharpstingingpainatmyneck,andhishandwasroughlytornaway.Whenlightlybrushedthespotwhereithurt,athinbeadofbloodhadformed.
âYou...!â
âSetupanoffice.tâllbebetterforyoutobeattachedtoaguildanyway.â
â.......â
âhereâsnoguildouttherethatâllsuityourtaste,soputyourownnameononeandbuildit.â
venifdidnâtsaysomethinglikethis,afterrepeatingseverallives,hewouldendupfoundingaguildonhisownanyway.Butifthatgotpulledalittleearlier,thingswouldgetaloteasier.
âYeah,allthatlong-windedcontact...donâtneedthateither.â
â.......â
âButâllcomefindyou.Whetheritâsmycuriosityoryourquestions...ifsomethingcomesupthatneedstoberesolved?Ah,justsoyouknow,âmverycuriousaboutalotofthings.vennow.â
â.......â
âSothinkcarefully.â
meantthat.fanotherdaycamewhenweendeduptalkinginahospitalroomagain,fromthatpointonitwouldbeprettyfunny.
Withthat,leftthehospitalroom.utside,sawDoYehyunwaitingquietlyforme.
âetâsgo.â
â...Whataboutthesettlement?â
âesaidheâddoit.Doesnâtseemlikehecaresmuch,though.â
Wewentdowntothefirstfloor,talkedaboutthebrokenlock,gavethemJooSeowonâsnumberasthecontactforfuturecompensation,andthenimmediatelycaughtataxioutside.
WhilesittingsidebysidewithDoYehyuninthebackseat,suddenlygotcuriousabouttheexpressiononhisfaceandturnedtolookathim.
âSointheendtherewasnopointbringingyoualongtoday.Wedidnâtevengettogointothedungeon.â
âtwasworthit.Youdidnâtgethurt,hyung.â
âReally?henthatâsgood.â
DoYehyunstayedquietforabit,thenabruptlybroughtsomethingup.
âWhileyouweregone,lookedintosomethingsaboutyou.â
âWhatdidyoulookat?â
âhenewswasup...peopleâsreactionsandstuff.thoughtmaybeitmighthelpyou.â
âYeah?Andhowwasit?â
Well,howgoodcouldthereactionpossiblybetomecleanlyrammingthecountryâsnewS-rankwithacar?
Still,pretendingtobeinterested,askedDoYehyun,
âtâsnotverygood.Alotofpeoplearearguingoverwhetheritwassuddenunintendedaccelerationornot,andthereâsspeculationaboutyouandunterKwontoo.aturally...thebadkind.â
âmm.â
âDoesitbotheryou?â
DoYehyunâseyesstaredstraightatmewithoutwavering.lightlyansweredwhilebrushinghischeekwithmythumb.
âo.â
âfigured.â
âWhy,doesitbotheryou?â
suddenlybecamecuriouswhatDoYehyunwasthinkingwhenhebroughtthisup.elookedcalmontheoutside,butwashecalmontheinsidetoo?
DoYehyunlookedatmeandslowlyblinkedthosebigeyes,thenaskedbackinavoicestrippedofpersonalwill,
âShoulduseit?â
Withoutanswering,quietlystudiedDoYehyunâsexpressionandslowlywithdrewthehandthathadbeentouchinghischeek.venafterthat,hisgazeremainedthicklyfixedonmeforquiteawhile.
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thadbeenaverylongtimesincemaekyunghadfeltsomethingsounusual.tseemedclosetoanger,butcallingitangeroutrightdidnâtquitefit.tfeltfresh.
âaha....â
Quietlylookingatthephonethathadeitherdisconnectedorsimplyreturnednoresponse,hecalmlyrosefromhisseat.
herewasnowayithadbeensomesuddenaccident.fithad,SeoJehyunwouldnâthaveactedthatcalmly.fanything,hewouldhaveexplodedinanger....
maekyungimmediatelyopenedtheofficedoorandcalledovertheemployeestandingoutside.
âCouldyoufindoutwhathappenedjustnowinvolvingunterSeoJehyun?â
âYes.â
heanswerthatcamebackatoncewascrisp,butatthesametimefaintlyuncomfortable.maekyungconsideredforamomentwhethertowipethesubtleinterestandquestionoutoftheemployeeâseyes,thenquicklygaveuponthethought.
âWhatamsupposedtodowiththis....â