Blood 32 ā Sulkiness
Thereās been too much happening lately and it feels like my head is going to explode. When I woke up after going to bed in a huff and looked at things calmly, even I wonder what was up with me yesterday.
What Wrath was saying is correct. Even now I still canāt remember Felmina and so on, or rather, I donāt think I even have any awareness of her. Even I can realise that that is cruel. I myself understand one-sidedly treating someone like an enemy, having them take no notice of me, and then suffering the crushing shock of not even being recognised. Because I have experienced that myself. To Wakaba Hiiro, the existence of Negishi Akiko, was like that. After we have been reborn, being able to have our current relationship, gives a strange feeling though.
What Iāve done to Felmina, is bad Iām sure. I understand that. I understand it, but I donāt feel like simply apologising.
The heck? Felmina-āchanā, eh! Iād never have expected -chan. For THAT goshujin-sama, to AMIABLY, use -CHAN!
Sigh. Calm down, me. Recently, havenāt I become a bit strange when it comes to goshujin-sama? Iām aware of how things were in our previous existence, but it somehow feels like things have recently been developing in an entirely different direction. This is a bad trend Iām sure.
However, I canāt deny that Iāve thought of Felmina as being annoying anyway, and I donāt think that feeling will change either. If I actually apologise with things as they are now, itād simply be for formās sake and without an ounce of sincerity. If Iām going to apologise it should be after repenting honestly and my feelings having cooled down.
Besides all that, the one who annoys me the most right now, is that damn outsider who stuck his nose in and acts as if he owns the place and told me to apologise ā Wrath. Whatās with that high-and-mighty view of his own opinion! Bad things are bad!? I understand that without being told! Thatās why recently Iāve been vomiting while agonising after all!
Spurred on by my seething irritation, I get up from the bed I was lying on. In the end I didnāt return to the dormitory yesterday, and was put up at the mansion overnight. When I open the curtains, Iām bathed in refreshing sunlight. It wonāt turn me into ashes of course, but that light makes my heart melancholy.
Iām sure they were waiting until I was awake, since with good timing there is a knock on the door. When I reply, one of the maids of the mansion asks if I need assistance with getting ready. I politely decline, and head over to the dining table where breakfast is being prepared. I find that other people are already there.
One of them is goshujin-sama. Her expression is the same as ever, but thatās the face of someone thinking of nothing else but the breakfast she is about to eat. With that mood about her, Iām sure she wonāt respond.
ćGood morning.ć
ćGood morning.ć
I exchange greetings with Wrath, the other person already here. As if the room temperature had literally decreased, a battle of dangerous glares unfolds between us. Neither of us intend to yield, that much is clear.
A while after we start glaring at each other, the food is brought in. Iām sure just entering into this space where Wrath and I are trying to stare each other down is painful, so Iām impressed that the serving maids didnāt allow anything to show on their faces. I separate my gaze from Wrath whose spirit had wavered, and take a seat next to goshujin-sama.
The entire meal time is silent. After weāve finished eating, Wrath turns to look at me. That is clearly telling me that he wants to talk afterwards.
ćSophia, this is convenient timing so letās go visit the Divine Word Religion.ć
Ripping that apart, is a rare long sentence from goshujin-sama. In this atmosphere, to completely ignore that and talk about taking me somewhere, her nerves are the same as ever, but where did you say youāre taking me? If I didnāt mishear, she said the Divine Word Religion or something?
ćEh? What do you mean?ć
Itās a bad habit of goshujin-sama, but she orders other people about without explanation, only giving the conclusion from her own reasoning. No matter what, I donāt understand why I should be visiting the Divine Word Religion. Saying that, where exactly is the Divine Word Religion? Doesnāt the Divine Word Religion have locations spread out around the world though?
Goshujin-sama is expressionless. Saying that, I donāt think itās just my imagination that she appears to be astonished. Why doesnāt she ever realise that her explanations are lacking, I really wish she would stop that.
ćDivine Word Religion?ć
While Iām agonising over what to do, Wrathās murmur brings me back to my senses. From the way he said it, it seems like he didnāt understand the meaning of the words āDivine Word Religionā. Ahh. I guess that would be the case for those living in the demon territory? I havenāt heard Wrathās detailed personal history, but Iāve heard he was a goblin though. Then I guess itās no surprise that he doesnāt know about the religions of the human territories, since they donāt exist in the demon territories either.
ćThe Divine Word Religion is a religious belief worshipped widely amongst the humans. Calling the System messages the Voice of God, they promote actively raising levels and skills in order to hear it more often, or some such nonsense.ć
Privately though, I attach the comment that theyāre the bastards who killed my parents. Thatās not relevant right now though, so thereās no need for me to go out of my way to explain that to him, so Iāll conceal it instead. Or rather, you should just be glad to have a decent explanation. To my explanation, Wrath makes an āhmmā expression and then his face seems to tighten in sudden realisation.
ćShiro-san, that doctrine isā¦ć
To Wrathās words, goshujin-sama nods. Hey, what are you two doing ignoring me and having your own private understanding? How did you communicate between you with just that?
ćWould it be possible for me to come as well?ć
Goshujin-sama nods yet again. This is a nod to affirm that itās okay to come, right? Is it just me who keenly feels that a troublesome situation, has suddenly gotten even worse?
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