[This isnât me... I donât get attached... I donât care like this...]
[But I do... I care about him... More than I should...]
Natalya shook her head, trying to regain her composure, then snapped at Helen. "What are you looking at? Why donât you give him his medicine? What kind of nurse are you? I should fire you for incompetence!"
Helen didnât dare to talk back, just nodded quickly and took out two pillsâone painkiller and one sleeping pill. She was about to feed them to me, but Natalya snatched them from her hand and came closer to me.
"Open your mouth," she commanded, her voice firm but her hand trembling slightly as she held out the pills.
I obeyed, opening my mouth as she placed the pills on my tongue. Her fingers brushed against my lips, sending a jolt through both of us. I could see the conflict in her eyes, the way her breath hitched as she pulled her hand back.
The glass trembled slightly in Natalyaâs hand as she pressed it into mine. "Here, drink some water," she said, her voice barely above a whisper, cracked with something fragile and unnameable. Her fingers brushed against my skin, sending a current through both of us. I could see the storm in her eyesâconfusion, terror, something so raw it made my chest ache.
As I swallowed the pills, I looked up at her. Her thoughts were a tempest of emotion, each one more vulnerable than the last:
[Maybe this... this ache in my chest... Itâs because he saved my life... That must be it... Just gratitude...]
[Yes, thatâs all it is... Gratitude...]
[I should leave... Before I do something stupid... Before I show him how weak Iâve become...]
[
But my feet wonât move... My heart wonât let me...]
She turned abruptly to Helen, her voice sharp with barely contained emotion. "Nurse Helen, you can stay in the next room."
Helen hesitated, her voice trembling. "Miss, I need to stay with the sir... If he needs anything... And to monitor his temperature..."
Natalyaâs thoughts spiraled wildly, her internal voice a desperate whirlwind:
[No... NO... What if she touches him? What if she looks at him the way I do?]
[What if she sees him vulnerable and he looks at her with those damn eyes that make my stomach flip?]
[I canât let them be alone... I canât...]
[No... I canât even think it...]
I lay down, pretending to fall asleep, my breathing slow and steady. Natalyaâs panic was immediate and visceral.
"Viper! VIPER!" she called out, her voice breaking with terror. She grabbed my shoulder, shaking me gently, her touch desperate.
Helen quickly intervened, her voice calm but urgent. "Miss, heâs fine... It must be the sleeping pill. He must have fallen asleep."
Natalya didnât respond. Instead, she moved to the other side of the bed and climbed up beside me.
The scent of herâjasmine and gunpowder and something uniquely herâfilled my senses. My mind raced:
[Sheâs actually going to sleep beside me?]
[If she keeps this up, I wonât be able to control
myself...]
[But God, I donât want her to stop...]
Suddenly, there was a knock at the door. Polinaâs voice came through, cautious. "Boss..."
I could almost see her eyes flicking between Natalya and me. I kept pretending to be asleep, my breathing even.
Natalya made a shh sound, her footsteps light as she moved to the door. Polina entered quietly, her voice low and urgent.
"Boss... Weâve found out who was behind this attack."
Polinaâs voice was grave, laced with urgency. "It was that Italian Mafia guy, Vito. He wanted to use Igorâs hand to kidnap you... and blackmail Boss Nikolai..."
Natalyaâs entire body went rigid. Her thoughts were a storm of fury and terror:
[They wanted to kidnap me?]
[They wanted to use me against my father?]
[But they almost took Viper from me...]
[They almost killed the man who... who...]
She asked, her voice a deadly whisper. "Where is that guy Vito now?"
Polinaâs response was immediate. "He is staying with Igorâs father, Sergie... They must have gotten the news of Igorâs death... and must be planning to take revenge on you, boss... At all costs..."
Natalyaâs voice was a blade, sharp and lethal. "Revenge on me?" Her thoughts were a whirlwind of violence and heartbreaking vulnerability:
[Revenge?]
[They want revenge for that piece of trash, Igor?]
[They want to hurt me?]
[They have NO IDEA what I will do to them...]
[I will make them BEG for death...]
[Because they almost took Viper from me...]
[And if I lost him...]
[I donât know what I would do...]
[I donât know who I would be...]
[I canât forgive myself for almost killing him...]
[The guilt is eating me alive...]
[So I need to kill them... I need to bathe in their blood...]
[Only then will this pain in my heart stop...]
[Only then will I be able to breathe again...]
[But what if something happens to me?]
[What if I donât come back?]
[NO... I canât think like that...]
[I have to come back...]
[I HAVE to...]
[Because heâs mine...]
[And Iâm his...]
[Even if he doesnât know it yet...]
[Even if Iâm too scared to say it...]
She turned to Polina, her voice a command laced with desperate emotion. "Call our whole army. I am going to end them all now... And ask them to bring every weapon... Possible grenade launchers... machine guns... smoke bombs... Everything."
Polina hesitated, her voice cautious. "But boss... Shouldnât we inform Boss Nikolai?"
Natalyaâs eyes flashed dangerously, her thoughts a storm of conflict:
[I canât tell my father...]
[Heâll try to stop me...]
[Heâll say itâs too dangerous...]
[But I donât care...]
[I need to do this...]
She snapped at Polina, her voice a whip-crack of authority and fear. "Are you my subordinate or my dadâs? Just listen to my order or go back to my dad."
Polina nodded quickly, her voice firm. "I will... I will call everyone..."
I heard Helen gasp softly, clearly shocked by the sudden talk of weapons and revenge. Polina left the room, and I felt Natalyaâs fingers tracing my face with heartbreaking tenderness. Her thoughts were a mix of guilt, love, and fierce determination:
[Viper... My Viper...]
[I will kill everyone who ever thought of hurting you...]
[Because of them, I almost lost you...]
[I donât know why... Weâve only known each other for a day...]
[But it feels like my heart has known you forever...]
[Every time I close my eyes, I see you fighting for me...]
[I see you bleeding for me...]
[I canât forgive myself for almost killing you...]
[So I need to kill them all...]
[I need to make sure youâre safe...]
[Because I canât lose you...]
[I canât lose the only person who makes me feel...]
[Who makes me feel like Iâm worth something...]
[Who makes me feel like Iâm not just a monster...]
[I know you donât blame me...]
[But I blame myself...]
[And I will never forgive myself...]
[Unless I make sure no one can ever hurt you again...]