He really didnât.
Perhaps he had thought about itâif he knew the girlâs secret, this current peaceful life would be gone.
He is a very content person. Initially, he was satisfied just being a steward. Later, as reality far exceeded expectations, he couldnât shout "wife" greedily and always called her "Miss."
Xu Changâan said with some confusion, "I said it a long time ago; Iâm a greedy person, and I love food, beauty, and wealth... So, if Miss has been led astray by me... itâs all my fault."
Especially beauty.
As Xu Changâan mentioned "beauty," his tone paused for a moment, and his gaze, like a rascal, swept over Yun Qianâs hair and dress.
Yun Qian, who usually would be pleased, ignored his intentionally aggressive look and shook her head.
"Not enough."
This is not greediness.
She hoped Xu Changâan would have the greed to grasp everything, the malign intent to satisfy his selfish desires even at the cost of hurting others, to completely become a wicked person.
Only then would Yun Qian truly feel at ease.
"Not enough...?" Xu Changâanâs brow quivered slightly as he looked down at their interlaced fingers, "I donât know what you are thinking about all day."
"You?"
"..."
"Whatever it is, itâs not good stuff," Xu Changâan said to himself, extending a finger, "Miss, there is something you said wrong."
"What is it?"
"Miss is not a greedy person," Xu Changâan said.
Joking.
Miss Yunâs uncompetitive nature, where is she greedy?
She is the easiest to satisfy, isnât she?
In clothing, anything will do, even if itâs a floral jacket that he would tease her about.
As for food, anything he makes, from lavish seafood feasts to simple cabbage soup noodles, she can finish cleanly.
Heâs off to cultivation, and the girl can stay at Beisang City at ease, meeting once every two months without getting angry.
When bored, even a novel she has read many times can be used to pass the time.
Moreover, she likes Wen Chun so much but only needs a quarter of an hour, after which she returns to her original state.
Wait, is only a quarter of an hour considered contentment?
Ahem.
In conclusion, if Miss Yun is considered greedy, then everyone in the world is greedy... So Xu Changâan believes Yun Qian is the most easily satisfied person under the heavens, incredibly Zen.
"I wish Miss could be a bit more greedy, not being content with such little matters as she is now," Xu Changâan said helplessly, "Can someone who hasnât learned to be jealous be called greedy? I really donât know what youâre thinking."
"..." Listening to Xu Changâanâs words, it was as if a soap bubble in Yun Qianâs heart popped suddenly, and she froze for a moment before nodding.
Hmm.
So thatâs how it is.
Yun Qian suddenly understood a bit about how to become a girl who gets jealous.
First, she must discard the thought of âAs long as he doesnât leave me, itâs okay if he gets bored and takes a new lover.â
Additionally, the idea that âIt would be good for the husband to become a bad, possessive person because even if he dislikes her in the future, he wouldnât discard her but keep her like a vase,â should also be abandoned.
"I... might not learn to be jealous," Yun Qian said calmly.
Yes, she was always learning from him, from his handwriting to everything. Now that Xu Changâan is a content person, how could she be greedy?
"Not learning is fine," Xu Changâan released Yun Qianâs hand gently and said with a smile, "As long as I understand in my heart, even if Miss one day really says I should take a concubine, I will listen carefully, and after talking to you a lot... I will refuse."
"..." Yun Qian felt this approach of listening and then refusing was somewhat familiar.
Itâs like her gentle perfunctory treatment of Xu Changâan.
"Are you going to give up learning to be jealous?" Xu Changâan thought for a moment and said, "I really like seeing Miss working hard on your cultivation because... if youâre jealous, it means you care about me."
Although jealousy is just a subtle expression of affection, Xu Changâan still liked it.
He was honest and considered himself quite greedy.
"If you donât want me to give up, I can still learn," Yun Qian said.
"Then go ahead and learn," Xu Changâan stretched lazily and then seemingly inadvertently said, "So, can you tell me why Miss seems unlike herself?"
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A moment ago, Yun Qian made him feel unfamiliar, but definitely not strange, just... strange.
After he finished speaking, he felt his words were abrupt and immediately added, "If itâs like Missâs secret and canât be told, then donât say it."
Yun Qian: "..."
There are two things in this world.
One is that Xu Changâan knows and forgets, and Miss Yun also forgets.
The other is that Xu Changâan knows and forgets, but Miss Yun always remembers.
Distant past memories echoed in her mind. She thought the deeply ingrained emotions would accompany her forever, even until the stars vanish. Now, however, she finds she is much calmer than she imagined.
As for things they donât know, Yun Qian never even thought about it, such things donât exist.
But knowing something doesnât necessarily mean understanding it, just like Xu Changâan is puzzled now.
So, as he held Yun Qianâs hand again, he could still sense the little emotions deep in the sea fog, quietly waiting for her response.
Miss Yun deserves her name. Once she came back to her senses, she didnât hesitate.
"I remembered some things from a long time ago," Yun Qian said with her head tilted, "Is it strange?"
"Itâs not strange, why would it be?" Xu Changâan promptly said, "I see, Miss remembered something from your childhood."
No wonder he felt Miss Yun seemed distant.
He didnât know about her childhood.
Suddenly realizing something, Xu Changâan said, "Miss, youâre not homesick, are you?"
"No," Yun Qian gave him a strange look, "Youâre right in front of me, so why miss anything in the future?"
Even if those memories bring discomfort and worry for the future, sheâs happy with her husband by her side.
To Yun Qian, what just happened was a side effect of a loosened memory seal. Just taking some time to forget them would suffice.
"However..." Yun Qian gently placed her fingers on her temples, "I might need some time to not be affected."
It might take some time to forget.
A long time.
Possibly one or two days.
After all, it was "her" memory. Since sheâs now reduced to just being Yun Qian, though itâs just the tip of an iceberg, the good and the harsh so mixed into the ordinary Miss Yunâs mind, she naturally needed time to process it.
"Miss, I understand what you mean," Xu Changâan said, fully "understanding" now with a smile. "What does this say? Memories always catch us off guard? Doesnât matter... Iâm not that interested in your childhood things."
An untruth.
Heâs very interested, actually.
Was it a canary-like life in a large family?
A happy, pampered childhood?
Or lonely?
After all, he rarely saw the silly, dazed look on Miss Yun with such expressions... but since Yun Qian doesnât want to talk, he wonât ask.
One is influenced by past memories, he felt there wasnât much to it, rather it made the cool Miss Yun feel more human.
He was the same.
When he sometimes recalled his previous life... he certainly gave the usually familiar Miss Yun a sense of unfamiliarity and distance.
Overall, as long as Yun Qian was not in a bad mood, he was at ease.
"Iâm not happy."
"...Huh?" Xu Changâanâs expression changed instantly.
"Iâm not happy."
Yun Qian repeated her words, thinking she actually got upset by a word from her husband. She had been trying to forget it, but she really could not hold back.
"Because of what?"
"You."
She got angry, though just a little.
What is this called...
Settling scores afterward?