Chapter 462 - 0283 God Turns Out to Be Myself (Two-in-One)_2

Xu Chang’an: "..."

Listening to Yun Qian’s gentle heartbeat, each beat hooked onto Xu Chang’an’s undeniable and intense heart-pounding.

Hmm.

He was instantly captivated.

He deliberately lowered his image to get closer to the girl, but didn’t expect the effort to become something given in return...

Any man who hears such words from a girl can’t help but feel moved.

"This is a win-win situation, a win-win." Xu Chang’an coughed: "The return I want is also warmth."

"Oh."

Seeing Yun Qian’s confusion, Xu Chang’an thought the topic was going too far, so he immediately corrected it: "Miss, you see... even when I’m good to you, it’s because I want to get something from you. How could there be a god in the world that grants wishes for free? So you can visit the temple for fun, but don’t take it too seriously, the gods won’t actually fulfill your desires."

This is what he wanted to say.

A preemptive reminder for the girl, lest... she goes to the temple and is full of expectation only to find out the gods cannot grant her wishes.

In that case, she would surely be unhappy.

Don’t think it’s impossible, this really is something Miss Yun could do.

However, in the world of cultivators, he couldn’t just blatantly tell Yun Qian "the gods are fake and don’t exist," because after all, there are immortals, so maybe there are gods too, right?

So he told her in a different way not to expect too much from the gods, and once expectations are lowered, she can wish for whatever she pleases.

He also wisely didn’t ask her about her wishes because ninety-nine percent of the time they would involve him, like... wanting a child or something.

But Yun Qian didn’t understand.

Being good to someone means wanting a return?

Then what return does Li Zhibai want from always siding with Xu Chang’an in everything?

What return does Liu Qingluo want from praying for his safety day and night?

Miss Yun couldn’t understand, but she didn’t question Xu Chang’an further. Because for these matters, she knew Xu Chang’an wasn’t aware; she could only inquire Li Zhibai and Liu Qingluo, the individuals involved, as only they knew what they truly wanted.

Yun Qian couldn’t understand, but her desire to pray to the gods didn’t change.

She wasn’t praying for the gods to fulfill her desires.

And also...

Miss Yun keenly sensed something.

That is, Xu Chang’an doesn’t like gods—at least, he doesn’t like the "creator and ruler of all things" he mentioned...

Even though that’s the pinnacle of gods, Yun Qian didn’t want to pray to a god he dislikes, so she decided to switch.

The system probably never thought one day it would escape a disaster because of Xu Chang’an’s dislike.

"..."

Yun Qian turned her face to rest against Xu Chang’an and pinched his arm.

"What’s wrong?" Xu Chang’an looked over.

"Are there other gods?" Yun Qian slowly asked.

"Hmm?"

"Shouldn’t there be powerful and less powerful gods as well?" Yun Qian seriously inquired: "Is there one who isn’t that powerful, but... is one you like?"

She wanted to pray to a god he liked.

As for what would happen if she truly knelt before and made offerings to a god Xu Chang’an liked, she hadn’t thought about it.

Perhaps it would not just shorten her life.

"..." Xu Chang’an was momentarily confused by those words.

This girl, so perplexing.

However, Yun Qian’s words unintentionally stirred his heartstrings.

"Miss, indeed there are countless gods in the heavens." Xu Chang’an said, looking at the girl beside him.

"Hmm?" Yun Qian turned her head, meeting his gaze.

She waited for Xu Chang’an to continue but Xu Chang’an forgot what he originally intended to say because... a warm sun illuminated the girl’s moist eyes, brilliant and bright, truly a beautiful scene.

He looked at Miss Yun’s eyes, in a daze thinking he was gazing at the countless stars.

Indeed.

When he first saw Miss Yun, he felt like he was seeing a distant, awe-inspiring starry river.

Just by looking at her, it felt like gazing at the sky full of stars as a child, an awe that was mixed with a fear of the vast star sea.

But now...

This kind of divine figure was by himself, those eyes containing stars just gazed at him.

"What are you looking at?" Yun Qian asked with a curious gaze.

"Miss." Xu Chang’an did not respond and instead closed his eyes: "Indeed, there are many gods in the heavens..."

"Really?" Yun Qian was instantly drawn in: "Which ones?"

"According to legend." Xu Chang’an looked into Yun Qian’s eyes, extremely certain: "Every star in the sky is a noble god."

"Stars?" Yun Qian asked, her eyelashes fluttering.

She didn’t like looking at the star sea, but Xu Chang’an really liked it.

But stars aren’t gods, she knew these things very well.

"You really like stars." Yun Qian held his hand and gently said: "Are they that wonderful, worthy of your affection?"

She didn’t like the seas, whether the ocean, star sea, or boundary sea, these were empty parts within her heart.

But the things her husband likes, she wanted to understand, and also wanted to like.

What surprised Yun Qian was Xu Chang’an’s smile, "Actually I no longer like stars... I’m not a child anymore."

"?"

A visible question mark appeared over Yun Qian’s head.

Xu Chang’an winked at the girl.

He loved looking at stars as a child, sometimes dragging friends along, as if he could see the celestial beings in the sky.

That scene was too overwhelming, as if countless stars were arranged to form a girl’s figure, she adorned with the twilight and starlit sky, composing an indescribable mysterious scroll above the Fixed Star Heaven.

Passionately enamored, he often felt he could glimpse celestial fairies, always felt there were significant people up there.

Yet as he grew up, he stopped liking stars.

The starry sky, such an imitation, false and untouchable ephemeral, only children would like it.

Growing up amidst the bustling and intricate life, he liked not the untouchable stars but rather attainable things.

Just not liking to gaze upwards at stars didn’t mean he disliked stars altogether.

He now liked the glittering stars in the girl’s eyes.

Just like now, the puzzled Yun Qian gazing at him with eyes gleaming with moist light.

"You are... staring at me like that."

For once, Yun Qian was somewhat uncomfortable under Xu Chang’an’s intense gaze, for no reason other than...

Her body was weak now, unable to endure even a quarter-hour.

So, Miss Yun subconsciously closed her eyes, blocking Xu Chang’an’s view of the stars he wanted to see.

"Looking at how beautiful Miss is." Xu Chang’an smiled.

He knew the girl in front of him was mysterious, as mysterious as the starry sky he once loved.

But this starry sky, he could reach out to touch and play with, wouldn’t feel like a distant dream.

Just allowing him to touch it, he liked it very much, still too vile.

Xu Chang’an thought that those who need returns for their affections are wise, and wise men don’t fall in love.

Unfortunately, he’s always been a fool and a failure.

To him, Miss Yun is the tender drizzle of spring, is a summer deep lotus reflecting in water, is autumn’s mountain full of red leaves, is winter’s frosty window pane.

She is the crisp morning wind, is evening’s splendid red, is the floating cloud above the courtyard, is the blinking star in the night veil.

All that is beautiful under the sky is her, and yet all that beauty doesn’t compare to her.

"Miss, in the sky every star is a noble god."

Xu Chang’an felt slightly heated on his face, there were indeed many sweet, embarrassingly cheesy words he deeply wanted to say.

Yet he couldn’t express them, suppressed for a while, only repeating his words before turning his head away.

So-called gods?

The creators of all things?

The Supreme Principle of Heaven and Earth? The Impermanence Dao?

None of these.

She was his god.

——

At that moment, Yun Qian also suddenly remembered something.

The night they boated.

Her husband said the moon was beautiful, said she was the moon in the sky. Later he said stars were beautiful, and she was the star in the sky.

"Every star in the sky is a noble god?" Yun Qian murmured, her big eyes shimmering.

Ah.

The god is actually me?