She is who she is.
These are all her own memories, her treasures, so why would she put great effort into sealing them away?
Various scenes churned in her mind, and Yun Qian sighed softly.
It was her husbandâs music that unraveled her seals.
What had happened in the past?
Hard to say.
In most cases, although she would stretch the time around Xu Changâan infinitely, making one day feel like countless days, there would always come a time when it reached its end.
In each memory, as her emotions neared a dramatic change with her husband, Miss Yun would wonder how he would react upon learning the truth in this life.
But each time his reaction was different, sometimes angry, sometimes bitter, but mostly calm, leaving her guessing.
"For ordinary people, the longer they live, the more they want to die"âYun Qian understood this better than anyone else.
"Until his spirit is completely worn into a hollow, I must prevent his desire to die"âthis was also an agreement made between the two of them.
Similar agreements are made when [he] still loves [her].
So Miss Yun would comply.
She would not allow him to die until the end of this life.
"..."
Sunshine poured in from outside the window, bathing Miss Yunâs face in a beautiful glow.
"Ms. Yun, you look so beautiful," murmured the Rowing Maiden beside her.
Just like an immortal in the heavens.
"...Mm," Yun Qian nodded.
Those memories not belonging to [Yun Qian] should be set aside.
Now, Miss Yun, who was immersed in happiness, did not wish to recall the gaze that had once been cast upon her in a certain life.
A gaze that seemed to want to peel away her flesh bit by bit, piercing through her spine with hateful eyes.
But she truly followed his gaze, yet wasnât allowed to.
She didnât know which life it was... it left her with no pleasant memories.
A fool.
Yun Qian gently lifted the potted plant from the windowsill, walked over to the table, sat down, and rested her chin in her hand, gazing at it.
"Ms. Yun, havenât you been cultivating? Why are you still like this..." the Rowing Maiden beside her exclaimed, surprised at Yun Qianâs breathlessness after merely carrying the plant a few steps.
Yun Qian shifted her gaze from the plant and tilted her head: "Last night was a bit tiring."
Miss Yun thought to herself that she had a long life ahead with her husband, who knew what might happen in the future.
She still held hope for this life, still longed to become pregnant.
Or rather, she held hope for every life.
Things would eventually break through.
Yun Qian, in her breathless state, stuffed all those memories back in, proving that it truly wouldnât take more than two or three days once she made up her mind.
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"...Last night, last night..."
The Rowing Maiden was momentarily stunned, her face turning red, as if she could imagine the scenario vividly, her face so flushed that it seemed it might bleed.
"What is it?" Yun Qian looked at her.
Unsurprisingly, if she hadnât come this time, she would have done the same with her husband.
"Nothing, nothing at all, I didnât hear anything," the Rowing Maiden shook her head vigorously, trying to shake off everything she had heard.
But the thought of the two people she liked, whom she longed for, being together at night was too intense for her, who was still an innocent girl.
But itâs really her making a fuss; they are a legitimate couple.
Mm.
In a sense, the girl wasnât wrong about a single thing she was thinking about.
Just like how Zhu Pingniang believed she wasnât wrong either.
Cultivation can indeed lead to the loss of emotionsâ
Itâs not related to the Heavenly Dao, but according to Zhu Pingniangâs understanding, if someone truly becomes an immortal, they will ultimately reach an end under the pressure of timeâ
Because there is no pursuit.
Because there is no hope in sight.
Because the upward journey, which should have been an incredibly exciting world adventure after becoming immortal... had already ended, the future, alongside the torn wheel of heaven and earth, was casually ended by a villain.
So, the idea that immortals are already dead the moment they ascend is correct.
Xu Changâanâs words are naturally correct.
Xu Changâan: "..."
Xu Changâan was unaware of these; his attitude had already been displayed in his conversation with Zhu Pingniangâhe only focused on the present, without aiming too high, finding it most important to walk his path steadily.
However, at this moment, Xu Changâan didnât really feel like walking. He looked at the bashful and self-pitying Zhu Pingniang before him... wanting desperately to find a place to hide.
"?"
Senior Zhu was here, worrying like a little girl if her teacher would like her, and wondering if it was because she had changed her appearance and name, losing the coolness of the past, that Li Zhibai disliked her...
Hearing such private matters, Xu Changâan blushed... was this something he was supposed to hear?
Xu Changâan clasped his fingers together, not daring to look at Zhu Pingniang.
This Senior... did she not care about anyone else in this world anymore?
To say such things in front of a junior, did she not have any sense of shame?
Or perhaps...
Was she going to come clean with him?
If she was going to come clean, at least he wouldnât be "silenced."
Xu Changâan thought, gently turning his head, only to find Zhu Pingniang had stopped muttering to herself and was instead staring at him motionlessly.
Her face was smiling, which made Xu Changâanâs heart feel uneasy.
Hopefully... she wouldnât silence him.
"Changâan," Zhu Pingniang suddenly said.
"Yes," Xu Changâan immediately responded, then earnestly said, "This junior is not someone who speaks out of turn."
Apart from the joke about being silenced, Xu Changâan knew he was indeed a good listener. What he heard would remain buried deeply within him, never to be shared with anyone.
"I know you only have one mouth," Zhu Pingniang pursed her lips, "What, are you scared? Not calling me Senior anymore?"
Hearing this, Xu Changâan gave a wry smile, simultaneously feeling relieved.
Indeed, she said it deliberately for him to hear.
Was teasing him really that amusing?
From this perspective, Miss Zhu and Li Zhibai truly were polar opposites in personality.
"Changâan."
"Hmm?"
"Iâm glad I have you."
"..."
Xu Changâan, surprised, lifted his head abruptly, meeting Zhu Pingniangâs bright eyes.
"Didnât hear me clearly, should Sister say it once more?" The clarity in Zhu Pingniangâs eyes lasted only a moment before they returned to their usual alluring demeanor, "Iâm glad youâre here."
Xu Changâan gave another wry smile; it seemed teasing him was quite entertaining.
Zhu Pingniang, catching sight of Xu Changâanâs amused expression, lifted the corners of her mouth slightly, although her eyes remained clear.
She wasnât joking.
It was fortunate to have him.
It was fortunate to have such a child, very likely an immortal reincarnation, who gave her peace of mind, and fortunate because of him, the Sect Leader said she gradually rediscovered her feelings, claiming she just lost her way and that true cultivation didnât lead to the Supreme Forgetting Emotions.
"If it wasnât for you, Sister wouldnât dare continue cultivating." Zhu Pingniang murmured.
"?" Xu Changâan listened carefully, although... he found it strange and indeed had his doubts.
Not only did he hear the secret of unrequited love earlier, but also...
"Oh, earlier when I mentioned that cultivation would lead to losing emotions, it was just a joke," Zhu Pingniang clicked her tongue, "Iâm so good-looking, yet Ah Bai doesnât like me. Do you think... sheâs cultivated away her brain, her feelings?"
Xu Changâan: "..."
"Hahaha, youâre really funny, donât keep showing that expression, or Sister will like you even more," Zhu Pingniang chuckled softly, and after a pause, she explained with a smile, "Alright, the latter part was a joke, but really, cultivation doesnât make you lose emotions. Sister thought too much, so donât overthink it."
"This junior understands," Xu Changâan nodded, finally exhaling a sigh of relief.
Senior Zhu wouldnât deceive him on such matters.
Previously, he truly believed that cultivation, with extended lifespans, would lead to emotional detachment and becoming indifferent...
If that were the case, he would immediately take the girl back to his island to live in seclusion, never to come out again.
"Itâs all the Sect Leaderâs fault," Zhu Pingniang suddenly said.
Her words were rather inappropriate.
But indeed, itâs the Sect Leaderâs fault.
If the Sect Leader hadnât told her about the so-called "truth" of cultivation, how would Zhu Pingniang have undergone such a significant change?
Yet in the end, it was the Sect Leader who had a mishap in her own cultivation, and it wasnât the path above that had an issue.
Where could Zhu Pingniang seek justice for this?
"By the way, did you hear everything clearly that Sister said earlier, whether about the Sect Leaderâs shortcomings or about Ah Bai?" Zhu Pingniang said, slowly standing up.
"Did you hear it all?"
Her lips curled into a captivating smile, and a pitch-black hammer appeared in her hand, she blinked at Xu Changâan.
"Should Sister give you a knock?"