The clear-eyed youth she imagined was actually far ahead of her, a true senior, fundamentally different from a woman holding a bunch of "dirty books" but completely inexperienced.
This time, when Xu Changâan asked her for a dual cultivation technique, Zhu Pingniang thoroughly realized one thing.
This might be what Qinling wanted to tell her.
The youth in front of her is not a child.
Heâs a man.
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"..."
Zhu Pingniang bit her lip slightly, stubbornly approached Xu Changâan, tightly grabbed his clothes, and muttered, "Teach me a lesson? Why does QinâEr want me to avoid suspicion? Just because youâve grown up? No... I wonât."
Zhu Pingniang found it absurd and annoying that Qinling was jealous even involving herself and Xu Changâan.
"Ms. Zhu... Whatâs the matter with you?" Xu Changâan looked at Zhu Pingniang with her puffed-up face, feeling very helpless.
"Donât worry about it, that QinâEr is overly sensitive. I refuse to avoid suspicion anyway, neither you nor Miss Yun will misunderstand." Zhu Pingniang spat: "Even if I avoid suspicion and donât cozy up with you, it wonât be QinâErâs place."
Xu Changâan: "..."
"Changâan." Zhu Pingniang held onto the corner of Xu Changâanâs clothes, with a face questioning lifeâs choices: "Do you think I have no talent in raising a daughter? Back when Ah Ling was a lovable girl, now sheâs always thinking about pushing me away?"
Listening to Zhu Pingniangâs words, Xu Changâan too began to question lifeâs decisions.
My dear Miss Zhu.
Can you really say this to me?
What does Qinling mean by always thinking of pushing her?
Clearly, she doesnât treat me as an outsider.
"Back then, I treated her too well, always thinking of her... thatâs why she clings to me like this." Zhu Pingniang regretted deeply: "Had I known, three-day beatings wouldnât have caused so much trouble."
Xu Changâan: "..."
Heâs a smart person.
Seeing Xu Changâan pretending death, Zhu Pingniang pouted, released his clothes, nudged him, and said, "Donât play dumb, QinâEr wants you to deliver a letter, Ah Bai wants you to deliver wine... Whether itâs them or me, where have we ever treated you as an outsider? Speak your mind, donât play dumb, or else Iâll be mad."
"..." Xu Changâanâs fingers froze momentarily, he could only say, "Ms. Zhu, that Miss Lu is a nice person."
"Hmm? Thatâs true." Zhu Pingniang nodded satisfactorily: "From past experience, LuâEr is taught with heart and hasnât gone astray after QinâEr."
"..." Xu Changâan remained silent.
That Miss Lu is Zhu Pingniangâs deputy.
In fact, he noticed Miss Lu also likes Zhu Pingniang, just not as blatantly as Qinling.
"I donât know how I raised QinâEr into such a gloomy character." Zhu Pingniang glanced at Xu Changâan.
There were some words she kept unsaid.
Qinling was indeed an obnoxious and vile woman. She felt embarrassed in front of Xu Changâan, very unclean.
So she gave him that kind of medicine, trying to make him use it on Yun Qian, making him the same level and less "clean."
This straightforward "evil womanâs" action was the real reason Zhu Pingniang said she was ashamed of Qinling for venting for Xu Changâan.
Itâs a pity, Xu Changâan did not appreciate the gesture.
Rather...
Even if Xu Changâan understood Qinlingâs intention, he wouldnât care, just helplessly smile.
One could say Qinling was bold and fearless.
Both she and Xu Changâan were manipulated by Qinling.
Zhu Pingniang paused, shifted her thoughts away from that rebellious daughter.
Suddenly, she realized that the cultivation techniques used between couples seemed normal to her, so when Xu Changâan asked, she didnât think much about it. After all, coming from the Hehuan Sect, such a small matter wouldnât make her shy...
To Zhu Pingniang, the cultivation techniques of the Hehuan Sect and regular techniques were the same.
But what about in a normal personâs view?
Dual cultivation techniques involving Yin and Yang would generally be considered improper, right?
Realizing this, the corners of Zhu Pingniangâs eyes twitched slightly, she silently released Xu Changâanâs hand, stepped back a few steps, and pointed at herself: "Changâan, do I look good?"
"You look good."
Xu Changâan nodded earnestly, and when it came to perfunctory replies, he had truly inherited Yun Qianâs teachings.
"Oh." Zhu Pingniang covered her face at Xu Changâanâs emotionless gaze: "So... in your eyes, Iâm not a woman?"
She finally realized this.
If Xu Changâan saw her as a woman, he wouldnât be so calm asking her for a Hehuan Sect cultivation technique, or rather... a regular man asking a woman for a Hehuan Sect technique would have some ambiguity, right?
Xu Changâanâs side was a pool of still water; ambiguity never appeared.
"Senior is, naturally, a senior." Xu Changâan said truthfully.
"Nothing more to say."
Zhu Pingniang was somewhat deflated, a rare moment of insecurity.
Could it be... she and Miss Yun have such a vast difference?
She believed she was quite attractive too.
Comments about Zhu Tongjun being pursued all over Qing Province wouldnât be an exaggeration.
Zhu Pingniang originally thought that even if Xu Changâan knew how to avoid suspicion, it should only mean he could restrain himself. But Li Zhibai used this matter to tell her... Xu Changâan never considered them as women.
"Ah Bai... is also admonishing me?" Zhu Pingniang bit her lip.
Li Zhibai made her realize this, perhaps to warn her not to insert any woman by Xu Changâanâs side, since Xu Changâan didnât even care for her own charms, to say nothing of other women.
Zhu Pingniang thought Li Zhibai was simply overthinking it; she was merely caring for Liu Qingluoâs thoughts, not trying to let Liu Qingluo interfere.
And now sheâs indeed unhappy.
"Changâan... are you perhaps into men?" Zhu Pingniang asked with a peculiar expression.
"???" Xu Changâan found himself puzzled.
"What kind of charm did Miss Yun use on you, so strange." Zhu Pingniang shook her head; she has never been more curious about Miss Yun.
Comparing Qinling she raised.
And looking at Xu Changâan raised by Yun Qian.
Why is there such a stark contrast between people?
All of a sudden, she wanted to discuss "parenting issues" with Miss Yun... seeing her tonight, perhaps she could get some insights.
"Iâm not going to talk to you anymore. Go to the resting area I prepared for you and make dinner, later Iâll send a few girls to the side courtyard to take your instructions." Zhu Pingniang was eager for a close encounter with Yun Qian.
Xu Changâan thought about it and realized everything worth saying has been said.
Except for the matter of the Beauty Fruit still hasnât been brought up... But the Beauty Fruit matter can wait until dessert is needed after dinner.
Xu Changâan stood up, ready to leave.
"Take the umbrella." Zhu Pingniang threw an umbrella from the Storage Ring, pointing at the rain outside the window.
Xu Changâan nodded, took the umbrella, and left.
Only Zhu Pingniang remained, pulling back the curtains and quietly watching his back, then... tilted her head, covering her heart with one hand, feeling the faint heartbeat.
"..."
Zhu Pingniang suddenly letting Xu Changâan leave was because she felt her state wasnât quite right.
Her heart felt stifled.
Not knowing what it was.
Even if just a little, even if she considers herself a sister... but as a sister, she doesnât want her charm to be denied, does she? This sense of defeat is truly uncomfortable.
Zhu Pingniang frowned.
Xu Changâan, whose eyes only have Yun Qian in them, how did Li Zhibai tolerate it?
True, Li Zhibai in those ragged clothes wouldnât count as a woman.
Zhu Pingniang rarely feels a bit moved, yet realizes that in Xu Changâanâs eyes, sheâs not even considered a woman.
From the start, Li Zhibai denied her feminine charm, thinking Xu Changâan wouldnât see her as a womanâeven though thatâs true.
Why does Ah Bai think she lacks charmâ
Could it be that, in Ah Baiâs heart, she truly lacks charm? Believing she canât enchant a young boy from the countryside?
Unpleasant.
At tonightâs banquet, she must dress up properly.
She definitely canât seduce Xu Changâan.
Then... letâs try with Miss Yun.
Try to make Yun Qian admit sheâs good-looking!
To prove that her charm is far from what Li Zhibai assumes.