"Ni Zi, what does it feel like to be attracted to someone?" Ms. Zhu asked.
Miss Lu was slightly taken aback upon hearing this, then lowered her head, "Why is Sister asking me such a question..."
As she spoke, she suddenly realized something and looked up abruptly, "Sister, have you fallen for Young Master Xu?"
"No, what are you talking about?" Ms. Zhu waved her hands repeatedly, "I donât even know what it feels like to be attracted to someone."
In short, if her feelings for Li Zhibai were considered attraction, Ms. Zhu could confirm that her feelings for Xu Changâan were not quite the same as those for Li Zhibai, so it probably wasnât attraction.
"Tell me about it." Ms. Zhu pressed on.
"..." Miss Lu was silent for a while, covering her chest with one hand, feeling her heartbeat.
At the same time, the faint sweetness on her lips revealed the candied fruit the woman in front of her had eaten.
She said, "Sister, supposedly, being attracted means your heart is moved, different from its usual rhythm, either too fast or too slow."
"What nonsense." Ms. Zhu twitched her lips twice, "Be serious."
"Oh." Miss Lu nodded, took a deep breath, and said with a smile, "If you like someone, your heart must beat faster, like the feeling after entering Flower Moon Building and learning a dance but being arranged by Auntie to perform on stage, heart beating too fast, shy and scared, excited yet uneasy..."
She paused for a moment.
Then said, "Besides, the feeling of attraction also includes wanting to possess while wanting to restrain, always seeking balance."
"Possess... restrain?" Ms. Zhu blinked, thinking she seemed to understand somewhat.
Qinling always wanted to "possess" her, but that QinâEr did not know how to write the word ârestraintâ.
Yet Ms. Zhu found it strange because if the standards of Qinlingâs attraction applied, then... what about her feelings for Li Zhibai?
Ms. Zhu liked Li Zhibai but never thought of possessing anything.
Could it be... she wasnât really attracted to Ah Bai?
And what about that Xu the kid? Could it be because she wanted a young person to be her junior?
Ms. Zhu pondered deeply while Miss Lu stole a glance at her, keeping her head down, "Ms. Zhu, regarding attraction, I prefer the idea of restraint. The true feeling of attraction is when the heart is unmistakably chaotic but still pretends to be calm on the surface, afraid of doing something improper to make the one they like dislike them."
After she finished speaking, she said nothing more.
"So thatâs it." Ms. Zhu patted Miss Luâs shoulder with emotion, "This little girl has grown up... to analyze things so thoroughly, have you fallen for someone?"
"Maybe." Miss Lu turned her head away.
Some things canât be hidden from people.
Feelings of affection will overflow even if you cover her mouth.
Ms. Zhu certainly wasnât a fool.
"A lesson from the past?" Ms. Zhu suddenly interjected.
Miss Lu instinctively said, "Consider it three times yourself."
A lesson from the past, consider it three times yourself.
"Itâs a teacher for the future." Ms. Zhu covered her face helplessly, "Ni Zi, is QinâEr your past lesson?"
At this moment, Ms. Zhu suddenly realized what Xu Changâanâs expression meant when he mentioned LuâEr.
Xu Changâan, indeed a meticulous person, could sense Miss Luâs not-so-simple feelings toward her after only a few meetings.
"Ms. Zhu, what are you saying... oh well, youâve found out, I like you."
The imagined flustered shame of Miss Lu having her feelings exposed didnât appear. She openly hugged Ms. Zhu, wrapping her arms around her waist, "I do really like you, Sister, and Iâm quite moved, but that Miss Qin you mentioned is different from me."
"Indeed, she doesnât have your straightforwardness." Ms. Zhu sighed, "So then, are you going to be a Rebellious Daughter like QinâEr... can you avoid causing me trouble?"
"There are many girls in Flower Moon Building who like you, why canât I?"
Miss Lu clasped Ms. Zhuâs waist, feeling she didnât intend to break free, smiling happily, "Besides, since youâre not pushing me away, you clearly know everything."
"Such impudence." Ms. Zhu patted Miss Luâs waist, indicating for her to let go.
Reluctantly releasing her hands, Miss Lu shook her head, "Ms. Zhu, I am different from Miss Qin, I have my reasons."
"What reason."
"I am your maid in Flower Moon Building, also the Chief Manager. The only girl I can take a liking to is you, so... itâs only natural that Iâm attracted to you."
But sheâs different from Qinling; her affection is subtle and unobtrusive, unlike Qinlingâs entanglement, so even if Ms. Zhu discovered it, she just smiled it off.
"I have no choice but to like you." Miss Lu pretended to be disappointed, then pointed in the direction Xu Changâan had left, "I also like Young Master Xu, even more than I like you."
Saying so, she pointed to the sky.
"If I go to the Immortal Sect and meet other girls stronger than me... whether Iâd still like you will be uncertain." Miss Lu sighed, "In this regard, that daughter you took in early... after joining the Immortal Sect, she still has deep affection for you; sheâs indeed remarkable."
"Go away." Ms. Zhu couldnât help but feel a headache at the mention of Qinling.
However, she also smiled.
As Miss Lu said, many liked her in Flower Moon Building, as long as they didnât intend to knock her over like Qinling did from the beginning, they were not a problem in her eyes.