She shouldnât have asked so many questions.
Yun Qian shook her head, not thinking that Miss Lu was an outsider. However... at this moment, Yun Qian gave Miss Lu a deep look.
She somewhat understood what this girl was thinking.
The girls around her husband each had their distinct characteristics and roles, so if she didnât exist, what would be Miss Luâs unique trait?
Yun Qian blinked, feeling that perhaps Miss Luâs trait was just her "uniqueness."
Hmm.
Xu Changâan was indeed an indifferent person, so... if he really were to have many wives and concubines as in the books, a girl who could stir his desires would be necessary.
Miss Lu, being of not such high status and thus not caring about face, is perfect to become the key to unlocking his inner desires for such matters.
Yun Qian could probably foresee what kind of uncontrollable state Miss Lu would be in if she were truly with a man she fancied.
Thinking about it, perhaps Miss Luâs fondness for such matters was quite similar to Xu Changâan when he first got together with her.
When Xu Changâan first got together with her, he wouldnât pamper people either, always clinging to her, unwilling to part for even a moment.
A girl much like her husband.
Also possessing things that she did not.
Yun Qian didnât see lust as something to be ashamed of, on the contrary... her attitude towards Miss Lu became even friendlier.
Because she discovered that Miss Lu wasnât a mere ornament among these girls but held an important position, after all, the women around Xu Changâan, from Li Zhibai, Zhu Pingniang to Wen Li, were all more or less indifferent too.
Donât be fooled by how Zhu Pingniang always acts the villain; sheâs no different from Li Zhibai.
From husband to wives and concubines, if they are all indifferent, how would life even go on?
So... the existence of someone like Miss Lu becomes crucial.
.
Thinking about it, if in the future Zhu Pingniang were to watch her maid clinging to Xu Changâan day in and day out, sheâd naturally be affected.
"..." Yun Qian.
Maybe thatâs the case, just a guess.
"What were you thinking just now?" Yun Qian asked.
"..."
After a moment of silence, Miss Lu buried her head even lower.
Thinking about Yun Qian and Xu Changâanâs marital life, she certainly couldnât say that.
But when Miss Lu met Yun Qianâs gaze, she felt a little dazed before locking into a trance, like she was encountering a vortex every second, pulling both her mind and heart in.
For some reason, Miss Lu found Yun Qianâs gaze seemed even gentler towards her...
Could she deceive such a girl?
A bitter smile.
"Miss Yun... can you not ask?" Miss Luâs eyes trembled slightly. "Please... spare me some dignity."
"I want to know," Yun Qian looked at her.
"..."
There were no words left to say.
Upon hearing Yun Qian say she wanted to know, Miss Lu realized there was no turning back; she could not refuse Yun Qianâs request under such a gaze, let alone deceive her.
So, after her last plea was rejected, she had no choice.
Her dignity was destined to be swept clean...
Fortunately, Yun Qian was no longer an innocent girl, discussing things of the bedroom realm wouldnât tarnish her.
Miss Lu said somewhat disheartened, "I... I was thinking, with you being so weak, and young master so full of energy, perhaps... your married life is not very harmonious."
"..."
After saying it somewhat self-destructively, what met her was a vast silence.
Right now, Miss Lu really wanted to find a hole to bury herself in; at this moment, she suddenly felt this was karma for her past lasciviousness and eavesdropping on the girls.
Didnât even a good girl like Yun Qian fall silent after hearing her thoughts?
"Miss Yun, I... am I a very impure girl?" said Miss Lu, her face somewhat pale.
"No."
"Eh?"
To Miss Luâs surprise, Yun Qianâs tone remained as calm as ever, as if she didnât mind what she said at all.
"Miss Yun, donât you think my thoughts..." Miss Lu felt dizzy.
"Youâre right," Yun Qian nodded, speaking softly, "I really canât fully satisfy him, which is why I need to cultivate."
Miss Lu: "..."
Oof.
What did she just hear?!
She suddenly wanted to cover her ears.
Itâs over.
What on earth had she just heard...
So it was true.
Turns out... Yun Qian really canât.
Isnât this something books said only happens to men?
Well, itâs the young master after all...
At this moment, Miss Lu felt smoke might start rising from her head, but when she saw the somewhat troubled emotion in Yun Qianâs eyes, she surprisingly calmed down.
Indeed, itâs nothing to be embarrassed about.
"Miss Yun, your health will get better, Ms. Zhu is very capable; she will certainly be able to help you," Miss Lu said earnestly.
She did her best to wash away the embarrassment, just to make her words more convincing.
At this point, Miss Lu really hoped that cultivation could fulfill Miss Yunâs wishes, and as to what that wish was?
At least itâs certainly not laughable.
"Mm." Yun Qian nodded.
Then Miss Lu fell silent.
She often watched those girls gather together discussing personal matters and was quite envious... because for girls, talking about nighttime matters was the most personal of all things.
If not extremely close confidants, no one would share such details.
So, those who could talk about this were best sisters.
She had also thought about talking to Zhu Pingniang, but that sister... was not reliable.
Zhu Pingniang is frighteningly pure, although she looks charming, she hasnât even read those little comic books.
So Miss Lu never expected her first time gossiping about bedroom matters would actually be... with Yun Qian here.
If it were yesterday, she wouldnât have dreamed of such a thing, considering Yun Qian seemed so lofty, more like a celestial being above the nine heavens than even Zhu Pingniang the Immortal.
How could a fairy, like ordinary women, be interested in such matters?
But it turned out... Yun Qian might just be an ordinary girl; after all, when she said she couldnât keep her husband satisfied, her expression did show common concerns.
If... if Miss Yun is just an ordinary girl...
At this moment, Miss Luâs heart suddenly raced.
Does that mean, thereâs hope for her to become friends... even confidants with her?
At this moment, Miss Lu felt this might not be just a fantasy, after all, sheâd already taken a leap and discussed such intimate topics with Yun Qian, hadnât she?
With some effort...
Maybe itâs really possible.
By then, she could be close to both the girl she admired and the boy she liked.
"How greedy... I am." Miss Lu covered her face, rarely giving up the self-reference as a concubine, probably because she even considered herself insatiable.
She felt she was undeserving of even being a concubine, let alone the thought of Zhu Pingniang taking a concubine while she served as an attending maid.
"Are you greedy?" Yun Qian suddenly asked.
"Very greedy," Miss Lu replied frankly. After all, having already confessed to such humiliating matters, admitting to one more wasnât an issue.
"Greed is a good thing," Yun Qian said seriously.
She had always wanted Xu Changâan to become greedy, but didnât know how to coax him into it, now perhaps she could learn a thing or two from Miss Lu.
"...Huh?" Miss Lu never expected to be praised by Yun Qian for being greedy.
At this moment, she felt not joy, but strangeness.
"Miss Yun, you... really are a strange person."
"Am I?"
"Yes."
Miss Lu nodded vigorously, but quietly added, "However, I very much like such a girl."
Hearing this, Yun Qian took a deep breath slightly longer than usual.
This is whatâs so odd; why like her, liking her husband would make more sense.
Miss Lu referred to lust surely meant an interest in men, so how did her gaze turn onto her?
Yun Qian was somewhat helpless.
She felt this couldnât continue, even after not saying much, she just could sense Miss Luâs fondness towards her gradually growing.