Chapter 802 - 451: The Permissiveness of Ritual Propriety (Double-Length Part 2)

Miss Lu: ’...’

Ah.

Miss Lu realized it.

She had been completely seen through; the fact that she was a lustful woman was also accepted by Yun Qian.

Otherwise, why else would Yun Qian know what she was thinking without her even speaking?

She wanted to find a crack in the ground and hide in it forever.

But... Miss Lu’s fingers were turning white from her grip.

Though she was so embarrassed she wanted to faint, this was truly a rare opportunity for her to bypass those fiction, stories, and illustrations and understand the real feelings of intimacy.

Unlike false things, this was the genuine thoughts of a truly loving couple.

So, Miss Lu forcibly suppressed her shyness, staring with her eyes glistening with moisture, intently at Yun Qian, afraid to miss any details.

Miss Lu herself did not realize that her gaze and behavior exerted great pressure on others.

But in front of her was Yun Qian, who was completely unaffected by these things.

The wife of her husband’s potential future relationship partner asked her, so she answered properly.

"Intimacy..."

Hmm.

Yun Qian pondered carefully.

To make her husband’s potential future relationship partner satisfied, Yun Qian rarely used her remaining strength to think about this matter.

There were many feelings to talk about regarding intimacy, but too many... solely relying on words, Yun Qian knew it would be hard to let Miss Lu empathize.

She couldn’t possibly relay all her subtle feelings to Miss Lu, not because she was unwilling, but because her strength didn’t allow her to say so much.

So, she had to choose a few things that were very important to her.

As Yun Qian pondered, Miss Lu looked at her with anticipation.

For a moment, it was quiet around, only the faint breathing of the two women could be heard.

"An Xin (peace of mind)," Yun Qian suddenly said.

Miss Lu’s expectant expression halted slightly, she blinked: "An... An Xin?"

"Yes." Yun Qian nodded: "The feeling of intimacy is very reassuring."

Every aspect of intimacy, even feeling so exhausted afterward that she didn’t want to move a finger, needing her husband to help with bathing, though it was extreme fatigue, Yun Qian deeply loved it.

But only An Xin runs through it all.

"Reassuring... is it." Miss Lu thought, while her eyes lost a bit of their expectation.

Unexpectedly, she heard such a proper answer.

Miss Lu originally thought that the feelings brought about by intimacy between husband and wife should be something more personal, precious, and beautiful.

But Yun Qian’s answer was "An Xin," Miss Lu felt it should be so, yet... she couldn’t help a slight sense of disappointment.

Because if it was just a calm mind, she could experience it without intimacy.

Mere An Xin, wasn’t a precious thing at all.

On rainy days, she occasionally brewed a cup of tea, listened to the rain, and watched the scenery, which also made her feel An Xin.

When she watched the maids below playing and laughing, enjoying themselves, it made her feel very An Xin in the lively atmosphere.

At night, occasionally preparing a late-night snack to see Zhu Pingniang still absorbed in her accounting, the waiting process also made her feel extremely An Xin.

Holding hands with Zhu Pingniang made her feel An Xin.

When embraced by Zhu Pingniang, after a slight quickening of the heartbeat, she also felt An Xin.

So...

This emotion, embedded in daily life, made Miss Lu unable to feel any specialness at all.

That’s why she was disappointed.

She felt somewhat lost.

The so-called feelings of intimacy, shouldn’t they be more rare, more heart-moving feelings?

If intimacy was just An Xin, what was she then?

Was she always in intimacy?

Miss Lu shook her head hard, then looked at Yun Qian, unwilling to give up, she asked: "Miss, is it... is it just like this?"

"Yes." Yun Qian nodded.

She only wanted to say this much.

Maybe after eating, she would have the spirit to say more, but for now, Yun Qian could only go this far.

"I see." Miss Lu nodded lightly, murmured: "I... I’m not saying I dislike it, it’s just... just that those maids usually like intimacy very much."

She thought it would be something more delightful.

Turning her head to look at Yun Qian, Miss Lu made a final effort, boldly asking: "Madam."

"Hmm?"

"When do you feel An Xin?" Miss Lu’s eyes shone brightly: "I... I want to know."

"Many times." Yun Qian replied.

"Be more specific?"

"When holding hands." Yun Qian said calmly.

"Hmm."

"Also, while embracing."

"Hmm hmm."

"And during a kiss."

"Hmm hmm... Hmm?!"

Miss Lu’s voice suddenly rose a lot, she stood up in a fluster with a blush: "A kiss... Kiss, are you talking about this?"

Yun Qian looked at Miss Lu’s finger touching her own lips, nodding, not quite understanding what she was making a fuss about.

"It’s actually... actually a kiss..." Miss Lu was stunned for a long time, shook her head vigorously.

No, that’s not right.

This is very wrong.

"What is it?" Yun Qian didn’t know what made this girl so surprised.

"Madam, aren’t you the young master’s wife?" Miss Lu asked cautiously.

"Yes." Yun Qian nodded.

Of course she was.

"But I heard, there are rules between husband and wife, that you, you can’t do this." Miss Lu hung her head with a blush on her ears: "Young master... is actually very nice like this."

It really was quite nice.

Turns out, Young Master Xu, who appeared so serious, could also be teasing.

Teasing even someone as pure as Miss Yun.

Miss Lu liked this not-so-serious Xu Chang’an.

Indeed, men could be serious, but if they were too serious during intimacy, it wouldn’t be as delightful.

And what Xu Chang’an did, undoubtedly made Miss Lu feel very content.

"Is there a problem?" Yun Qian curiously looked at Miss Lu.

"Madam doesn’t know?" Miss Lu realized something, she bent slightly, whispered: "I read in a book... things like kissing between husband and main wife, are rare... because it doesn’t conform to etiquette."

Not just from books.

Miss Lu had deliberately understood these rules.

"?" Yun Qian blinked: "What do you mean?"

"It means..." Miss Lu looked around the empty surroundings, whispered next to Yun Qian’s ear: "Proper men, during intimacy, should not kiss their wives."

Although this rule was strange, in etiquette, there indeed was such a rule.

She didn’t know why, but kissing was considered disrespectful, so usually, for the main wife, proper men wouldn’t do such things.

Only concubines brought into the family didn’t need excessive respect, they could be teased as one wished.

Undoubtedly, Miss Lu didn’t like such rules.

The worldly rules were annoying, setting rules even for men’s intimacy with wives, wasn’t it ridiculous?

If sick, just go see a doctor to check the brain.

Therefore, Miss Lu was so shocked upon hearing that Yun Qian and Xu Chang’an had kissed.

At the same time, also very pleased.

Young Master Xu... though looking serious, at least wasn’t too rigidly serious, so Miss Lu was very happy.

The young master wasn’t someone immersed in convention, naturally worth her joy.

But that was overestimating Xu Chang’an.

Xu Chang’an was completely unaware of this rule, and even if he knew, he would scoff at it.

Still needed to look at outsiders’ rules when being intimate with one’s wife?

Kissing one’s wife is disrespectful?

If sick, they should reincarnate early.

Miss Lu whispered: "In any case, I’ve understood the rules, since the main wife needs respect, so kiss... things like lips, are generally for concubines."

"For you?" Yun Qian looked at her.

"It’s not for me." Miss Lu’s face turned crimson, very helpless: "It’s, it’s for concubines."

"It’s the first time I’ve heard such a rule." Yun Qian shook her head: "He never mentioned it to me, so it’s not a rule, don’t mind it."

"Hmm hmm."