Hearing the maidâs words, HuangâEr seemed to feel the Cyan Snake on her wrist move slightly. She instantly became nervous, anxiously looking out the window. After confirming Ah Qing had already left, she finally breathed a sigh of relief, then pouted:
"What are you talking about? If Ms. Qing hears this, how can I even show my face?"
"...Eh?" The maid was also stunned, "Thatâs strange, werenât you always saying you would become the Young Masterâs concubine when you grew up? Why deny it now?"
"I was just a child... I didnât know any better back then. Stop talking about it." HuangâErâs face blushed slightly.
"Itâs strange, whatâs so shameful about liking the Young Master?" The maid tilted her head, "I even like him... Wait, doesnât Ah Qing know about your feelings for the Young Master?"
"Ms. Qing does... does know." HuangâEr hesitated.
"Then what from your childhood canât she know?" The maid tilted her head.
"...You wouldnât understand, sister." HuangâEr didnât explain in detail.
Ah Qing may know she likes Xu Changâan and is willing to be his concubine, but... but she always mentioned it in a joking tone, and Ah Qing couldnât feel her affection for the Young Master from her tone.
However, if Ah Qing knew she had actually admired the Young Master since she was very young, the weight of the Young Master in her heart, and the nature of the problem, would be entirely different. It would immediately elevate the Young Masterâs position in her heart to a very high level.
And the higher Xu Changâanâs status, the more Ms. Qing might feel like sheâs her ârivalâ?
Of course, HuangâEr didnât want Ah Qing to discover this. Even if only a little, she didnât want her feelings for the Young Master to affect her relationship with Ah Qing.
"Such a strange girl." The maid shook her head helplessly, "Actually, I would prefer it if you continued admiring the Young Master as before."
"Because you canât have him?" HuangâEr blinked.
"Yes."
They were accustomed to not obtaining things, so not having it meant not being hurt. In comparison, for the girls at Flower Moon Building, losing something was much harder to accept.
Itâs incredibly challenging for them to have anything at all, so when they give their all but lose it, even the toughest girl would cry out in pain.
So, whether itâs choosing a companion or admiring someone, they have to be fully prepared.
"Compared to the Young Master who I can only look at, I prefer Ms. Qing... shouldnât you support your sisterâs feelings?" HuangâEr smiled at the maid, "An Xin, Iâve already seen through Ms. Qing, sheâs very cute."
"For a woman to be seen through by you, sheâs either extremely clumsy or extremely bright. Which one do you think Ah Qing is?" the maid asked.
"Ms. Qing isnât very smart, sometimes she doesnât seem like a woman."
"...Alright then." The maid didnât argue but sincerely said, "Girl, Iâve basically watched you grow up."
HuangâEr looked down at her chest and quietly said, "Not... not fully grown yet."
"Sassy mouth." The maid sighed, lifting her head, "Pingniang told me, Ah Qing... might have been a Demon Sect Lady in the past, do you understand?"
In the mortal world, âLadyâ doesnât only refer to the Sect Leader; as long as you were a woman of the Demon Sect, you were collectively called a âLady.â
"Ms. Qing being a Demon Sect Lady, as Pingniang said... I guessed it." HuangâEr felt the Cyan Snake on her hand move again, but this time she was much calmer than when mentioned she liked Xu Changâan. She openly said, "Ms. Qing also said she was a bad woman in the past, so being a Demon Sect Lady makes sense."
In this world, what place except the Demon Sect can allow a Half-Demon to live and provide them with a relatively stable environment?
So many things actually go unsaid, but everyone has a tacit understanding.
"Pingniang never specifically brought this up, so Ms. Qingâs background isnât really important," HuangâEr said seriously.
"Oh, you." The maid said helplessly, "Didnât you get scared to the point you refused to go to the West Pavilion alone when you heard the words âDemon Sectâ as a child? You had to hold my hand to squat down."
"...Donât say anymore." HuangâErâs cheeks reddened, stubbornly saying, "If I had known back then that all the Demon Sect Ladies were as pretty as Ms. Qing, I wouldnât have been afraid."
"Liking a Half-Demon, are you prepared?" The maid suddenly asked.
"Yes, I am." HuangâEr didnât hesitate for a moment.
"Alright." The maid gently nodded, not saying anything further.
The girl was grown up after all. Many things she wouldnât interfere with too much anymore. As long as sheâs ready to face all outcomes, all an older sister needs to do is support her and be a warm embrace, a harbor when sheâs in pain... thatâs the best.
"Letâs go, your sister is about to perform on stage. Iâve saved you the best spot to watch the dance." The maid turned around.
"Sister, donât get jealous, okay? Ms. Qing is Ms. Qing, and youâre my sister too." HuangâEr smiled.
"..." The maid glared at her, then said, "Letâs go."
"I canât move." HuangâEr pointed at her leg.
"Didnât you say it didnât hurt?"
"Itâs not the whip marks that hurt, itâs my leg... Pingniang crippled it, I canât walk now."