Chapter 1114 - 611: The Meaning of Reincarnation

The cold moonlight shone in through the cracks of the window, illuminating Yun Qian’s face.

My husband is human.

No matter that he possesses immortality, he will certainly give it up.

Even if most of Yun Qian’s memories were ’sealed’, she still understands this.

To him, no matter which lifetime, no matter what kind of world, he is simply an ordinary ’person’—at least that’s what he believes.

And as long as one is human, one will certainly die, one cannot possess eternal life.

Just as he said at the start, just as he is destined to say in the future—often it’s precisely because we will die that living has meaning; precisely because we will die that staying together for a lifetime becomes a romantic thing; precisely because life will inevitably end that meeting oneself can be happiness.

[She] couldn’t understand these words until now, because she herself didn’t even have a concept of life and death.

Thus, if following Xu Chang’an’s logic, [she] has no significance of existence... Therefore, after one parting, [she] finally had her own name and would appear beside him in the state of ’Yun Qian’.

’Yun Qian’ is different from [her], Yun Qian does not have eternal life, and when Xu Chang’an dies again as an ordinary human, Yun Qian’s life will also end, stored away in the Treasure Vault.

Then a question naturally arises.

My husband is human, he only wishes to be human.

So... am I human?

If it were before, she wouldn’t know the answer.

But at this moment, she has the name Yun Qian.

That’s right.

Ever since she met this young man named "Xu Chang’an" by the sea, the doll called ’Yun Qian’ has been infused with vigor and soul, she needn’t just quietly watch him from the side without being able to approach, as in his so-called ’past lives’.

She can be quietly watched by him.

She only needs to reach out her hand to touch his cheek and enjoy the gaze that hasn’t turned cold... Isn’t this the best thing in the world?

As long as she’s by his side, she’s not just a segment of memory named Yun Qian, but a real, living person.

As Yun Qian, she has been held close to her husband’s heart more than once to listen to the heartbeat, and what he hears is no longer empty but a faint yet continuous heartbeat. Similarly... Yun Qian also really enjoys hearing his heartbeat, pressing her ear against her husband’s chest, those powerful accelerating sounds, each beat like a heavy hammer striking her heart.

The usually unperturbed Miss Yun, in those moments, feels a sense of security that even impacts her Mental Realm.

’By using a name, temporarily becoming a person.’

This is the most clumsy, but also the most intelligent way of companionship she could imagine.

But...

Ultimately, giving up a name... doesn’t count as death.

Yun Qian doesn’t have any avatars, her so-called death, so-called entering the Treasure Vault, is nothing more than the storage of a segment of memory. Essentially, each one is [her].

On the island, barefoot while reading a novel is [her].

Dressed by Xu Chang’an is [her].

Drinking with Xu Chang’an, moderately intoxicated is [her].

Gazing at the stars with Xu Chang’an is [her].

Being able to enjoy a moment of joy—

is also [her].

Essentially, she is not a girl named Yun Qian, just someone who named that segment of experience ’Yun Qian’... So, does this count as reincarnation?

No, it doesn’t.

Yun Qian knows very well, compared to her husband’s changes, this certainly doesn’t count as reincarnation, but Miss Yun couldn’t find a better choice. Even if she wants to genuinely enter reincarnation with Xu Chang’an, that fragile place, she couldn’t even step in, probably just looking would cause it to collapse.

Yun Qian withdrew her gaze from the window, then glanced in the direction where Xu Chang’an and Li Zhibai departed.

Xu Chang’an’s question has an answer.

When meeting again in the future, will it still be the same person?

It will.

The same person.

’Ah...’

At this moment, Yun Qian’s blinking frequency slightly increased, because the occasional memories she reveals always bring her some strange experiences, even making Miss Yun show a helpless expression.

At this moment, recalling those past times while being Yun Qian, inevitably, Liu Mei frowns slightly... and even gently sighs.

For example, not knowing how long ago, the call of "Mother" from her husband...

That call has passed a lifetime.

She touched her chest, feeling a very peculiar sensation.

As Yun Qian, she cannot imagine what it would feel like when her husband, as a child, chased after her calling "Mother," but Yun Qian actually doesn’t mind, because even when called Mother, at least they’re together, better than just being a bystander.

Tilting her head, Yun Qian supported her face looking out the window, her gaze peaceful, some memories slowly surfacing like bubbles pressed underwater, blooming into flowers on the water’s surface, creating a sea of flowers, swaying when the wind blows.

Every flower, is a name.

Because it’s beautiful, it’s a flower.

"..."

Every husband should have every corresponding girl.

But every corresponding girl is herself.

Is this a good thing?

Maybe not.

So Yun Qian likes this lifetime, or rather... likes that past life of Xu Chang’an unbeknownst to her, in that life, Li Zhibai was the main wife, that Li Zhibai wasn’t a name she took, but a genuine ordinary woman.

At that time, there was already a relationship beside him, and not just one... Clearly a good thing, but why, why when opening her eyes, was she called over by him?

Inconsistency between heart and actions.

My husband is always inconsistent between heart and actions.

If he really doesn’t like, even detests reincarnation as he says, then it’s impossible that one day, when remembering something, he realizes he’s not there, and calls for her.

Even now, Xu Chang’an verbally says he doesn’t like reincarnation, but Yun Qian wouldn’t simply believe it so easily, she will remember every word Xu Chang’an says, and when alone, slowly think whether it’s his true intention, or another inconsistency between heart and actions.

Saying he doesn’t like reincarnation, Miss Yun wouldn’t believe so easily.

Knowing this, so after ’Yun Qian,’ [she] will certainly have a new name, and as for past ones... the sea of flowers in memory gradually fades, those emerging names again slowly submerge.

Set a small goal.

Next name, not to be called "Mother."

——

Under the eaves, Li Zhibai listened to Xu Chang’an report the matter of time being suspended, after a long silence, looked at him.

"Chang’an, do you believe in reincarnation?"