Chapter 1150 - 630: He Can Hardly Be Called a Good Man (Double-Length)

Not sure when it started, but he’s beginning to not understand what the teacher says...

Some immortal-like persons divide greed, desire, and anger into the three poisons of the heart. Consistently... from the perspective of the cultivation realm, having a greedy mental realm is bad no matter how you think about it...?

Li Zhibai, however, says that being greedy is a good thing, leaving Xu Chang’an unsure how to comprehend it.

"You don’t have to look at me like that." Li Zhibai saw the increasingly puzzled expression on Xu Chang’an’s face, walked over somewhat helplessly, and gently touched his brow with her fingertip, under his slightly surprised gaze.

The slight push made Xu Chang’an lean back, but more importantly, there was a coolness from the fingertip on his brow that reinvigorated him.

This intimate gesture further makes Xu Chang’an feel the teacher’s affection and trust in him...

"Teacher?"

"Things that can’t be understood need not be pondered. As long as you know... what I say is correct, that’s fine." Li Zhibai smiled softly.

"...Understood." Xu Chang’an sighed.

He just needs to trust the teacher, just as the teacher trusts him.

Yes.

Xu Chang’an somewhat felt that Li Zhibai didn’t really think greed was a good thing, but simply because... the greedy person was him, so there’s no need to worry, right?

It seems, in Li Zhibai’s heart, he is a perfect person?

But Xu Chang’an knows his own character.

"You too..." Xu Chang’an shook his head, bitterly smiling, "I am... not as good as you think..."

"Not as good as I think?" Li Zhibai interrupted Xu Chang’an’s words, with a slight smile on her face, but if you looked closely, seriousness was in her eyes: "Chang’an, being a bit greedy is nothing—if you say something like that, not just me, even Tong Jun will be annoyed."

No mother can tolerate her child ’underestimating himself’.

So, she would indeed be displeased.

"...Got it." Xu Chang’an faintly saw a ruler in Li Zhibai’s hand, the bitter smile deepening.

In the teacher’s heart, what image do I conjure? Even saying something bad about myself... isn’t allowed?

But Xu Chang’an indeed knows clearly, from the beginning, he has not been a kind person. His so-called bottom line has always been only Yun Qian... Therefore, as long as it’s for Yun Qian, Xu Chang’an would truly do anything...

How can such a person be called a good man?

"What do you want to say? Speak." Li Zhibai saw Xu Chang’an’s hesitation, staring at him.

"..." Xu Chang’an paused and then said, "Teacher, I’ve always wanted to be a gentle and kind person."

In comparison to the high standards of a gentleman, Xu Chang’an believes he cannot achieve that, so being gentle is enough.

"...Want...to?" Li Zhibai realized something.

Chang’an says he is not yet a gentle person now; hence, he wants to be.

But unexpectedly... everyone evaluates Xu Chang’an as a ’gentle’ and ’kind’ person... from the general perspective, Xu Chang’an clearly has achieved gentleness.

"Do you have some unpleasant thoughts in your mind?" Li Zhibai asked.

"...Kind of." Xu Chang’an bowed his head and said softly, "Sometimes, when scheming too much... it doesn’t feel great inside."

For cultivation, for Miss Yun, he’s schemed countless times... Many times, even the obedience he showed to the teacher in the beginning, the generosity he showed to Zhu Pingniang, was for Miss Yun. How much of it came from his genuine heart, Xu Chang’an himself is unsure.

"Still just a child." Li Zhibai laughed, should she say that the thinking Chang’an finally gave her a sense of youthfulness?

How can anyone be perfect?

Under the heavens, who doesn’t have dark thoughts...

Even the Sect Leader, even Tong Jun... even herself, isn’t always bright and warm.

In truth, it’s because he’s usually too mature, at this moment, it reveals a hint of innocence.

Ah Qing: "..."

From afar, Ah Qing’s heartbeat kept accelerating.

Cute...cute...

As a woman, she should feel her heart’s admiration for his handsome and attractive appearance, but at this moment, looking at Xu Chang’an’s expression filled with either guilt or remorse, she only feels it’s cute.

Perhaps it’s the common problem of being an old woman, seeing her heart’s admiration in confusion, she naturally feels love and wants to hold him to comfort him dearly—there’s no lustful thoughts here, truly motherly love overflowing.

Compared to that unbelievably mature in both body and spirit Miss Yun... the gentleman has an irresistibly charming and youthful vibe—though not truly youthful, as under the heavens, those like the gentleman at such an age yet so steady, with clear goals and firm thoughts, can’t be considered youthful...

Maybe it’s the contrast.

Xu Chang’an only shows a hint of ’weakness’ in front of Li Zhibai, directly striking the softest spot in Ah Qing’s heart.

Envy.

Jealousy.

Now, she is very envious of Li Zhibai.

As for Xu Chang’an saying he sometimes has bad thoughts, it’s completely ignored by Ah Qing.

She’s not a good person.

Zhu Tongjun isn’t a good person either.

Even Shi Qingjun, the Immortal Chaoyun, used to see only the Heavenly Dao, considering the Chaoyun Sect and the common people of Qing Province as mere ants. How can you talk to her about kindness?