Chapter 1121: Chapter 1115: Self-Blame and Guilt_1 Chapter 1121: Chapter 1115: Self-Blame and Guilt_1 An Ruge stared at the large plate of fried rice in front of him. It was far too early to eat, and he didnât feel hungry, but he knew that with his daughter giving birth, and his pregnant wife at home, he needed his strength to support them. Therefore, whether he felt like it or not, he needed to eat a substantial meal.
âIt doesnât matter if I canât finish it, you eat. Donât worry about me.â An Ruge sat down and began to eat.
Seeing his actions, Xiao Xiangâer understood his concern and began to eat as well.
By the time the couple finished their meal and arrived at the Armed Forces General Hospital, the Lis and An Hao had still not arrived, so they couldnât help feeling restless. They decided to wait at the main entrance of the hospital, wishing they had called the Lis before coming. If the Lis werenât on their way, they could have gone to pick them up at their home.
âWhy havenât they come yet?â Xiao Xiangâer worriedly asked after a period of waiting with no sign of the Lis.
âXiangâer, donât worry, theyâre probably still having their meal. Itâs Anâanâs first baby, and these things usually take time.â When he thought about how lengthy the birth process had been when his wife was giving birth to their daughter, An Ruge felt a bit more at ease. Despite his increasing anxiety, he appeared calm on the surface to avoid scaring his wife and exacerbating her nervousness.
âI know, but I canât help but worry. Anâan hasnât spent much time with us over these years. Now sheâs married and giving birth. I feel so guilty. If I couldnât be there for her during childbirth, then Iâd feel like I failed as a mother. Donât you think?â Xiao Xiangâer had devoted much of her life to the country. Although she was faithful to her nation, she felt like she had failed her daughter.
âXiangâer, donât think like that. Without a country, we wouldnât have a home, right? Anâan will understand. She wonât blame you.â An Ruge knew their daughter was feeling resentful. However, as he put it, without a nation, there would be no home. Thus, for the sake of future generationsâ happiness, he had chosen his country over his daughter.
âI hope so.â Xiao Xiangâer had never felt so guilty about neglecting her daughter until Anâan had asked her to abort her unborn child. Thatâs when she realized how much resentment Anâan harbored against her.
Especially when Anâan said, âYou gave birth to me, then abandoned me. Why are you bringing another child into the world to suffer like I did? Do you know what Iâve dreaded most in my life? Being your daughter. While other kids always have their parents around, I donât see my parents from one year to the next. If you didnât love me, why did you give birth to me?â
Xiao Xiangâer was shocked by her daughterâs words. She did love her child, she loved Anâan. She and her fellow researchers had always prioritized their work over their family for the greater good of the country. But it was only after hearing Anâanâs words that she realized the depth of her daughterâs misunderstanding.
When Xiao Xiangâer finally decided to make more time for her daughter, she found out that Anâan was now a wife and soon-to-be mother. While she felt pain at this realization, she also found comfort in knowing the Lis loved her daughter. This left her with conflicting feelings.
However, as long as her daughter was happy, that was all that mattered. Her greatest desire was for Anâan to be happy, so she decided not to dwell on guilt and regrets any longer.
âDefinitely. Anâan will surely understand. Just relax.â An Ruge stepped forward and held his anxious wife, looking at her sincerely. If anyone were to be blamed, it should be him, for he didnât spend enough time with his wife and daughter.
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