Chapter 187: Chapter 187: Tears of Grievance
Although Miao Xuanxuan was usually lively and cheerful and loved making friends, she seemed pretty casual when she was with Song Xiaodong.
But this casualness wasnât something she had with everyone, especially regarding sexual matters. Miao Xuanxuan was actually very conservative. Earlier, her mind had been in disarray, and she had almost let Song Xiaodong take advantage of her in her confusion. Now that she had come to her senses, her natural first reaction was to run away.
However, she ran too hastily, and her legs had gone a bit weak. Just as she reached the stairwell and started running down, her foot missed a step, and she cried out as she fell downward.
She thought she would have a terrible fall, but suddenly, a figure darted past her, caught her around the waist, and then she felt as if she was floating.
"Why are you running?" Song Xiaodong asked as he caught Miao Xuanxuan in a princess hold, standing on the middle landing of the staircase.
With one arm around Song Xiaodongâs neck, Miao Xuanxuan turned her head away and chuckled, "I just remembered, I have something to do. So, Iâm heading off first."
Song Xiaodong, unable to help laughing, said, "Hey, can you come up with a better excuse?"
Suddenly, Miao Xuanxuan turned her head back sharply and glared at him, saying, "Can I just regret it? Youâre not my boyfriend right now, and things with Xiao Yingying are unclear, and thereâs also Lin Suâer who has feelings for you. You want to get with me just like that? Iâd be at a loss."
Song Xiaodong felt a bit embarrassed and said, "I told you, theyâre just friends."
Miao Xuanxuan pressed on aggressively, "Then do you consider me your girlfriend? Have you ever pursued me? Did you ever think about marrying me after fooling around?"
"That... letâs take it slow."
"Hmph, if you had your way with me, youâd still be thinking about such things, hmph, Iâm not that foolish. Let me down."
Song Xiaodong dejectedly set Miao Xuanxuan down. At that moment, he genuinely felt ashamed and said, "Xuanxuan, Iâm sorry. I was impulsive just now."
"Hmph! Pervert! Big bad wolf! You big villain!" Miao Xuanxuan glared fiercely at Song Xiaodong, then continued walking downstairs, this time with much steadier steps.
Song Xiaodong followed behind Miao Xuanxuan, wanting to say something, but feeling that his behavior just now had indeed been too much. Apologies seemed pointless, and any explanation would come off as insincere.
When they reached the living room, Miao Xuanxuan turned around, stared at Song Xiaodong, bit her lip, and said seriously, "Dongzi, I can forgive you this time and still be friends with you, but you must never treat me like this again. Otherwise, we canât be friends."
Song Xiaodong chuckled awkwardly and said, "Okay, if you donât agree in the future, I will definitely not do anything inappropriate."
Miao Xuanxuan raised her chin a bit proudly and said, "Donât get your hopes up, I wonât agree, unless you pursue me and I agree to be your girlfriend."
Song Xiaodong couldnât help but smile, asking, "Is it hard to chase you?"
"That depends on your performance."
At that moment, Miao Xuanxuan was truly adorable and even a bit cute, making Song Xiaodong unable to resist teasing her, "If itâs too difficult, I might easily give up, you know."
"Go die!" Miao Xuanxuan kicked Song Xiaodong hard.
Song Xiaodong laughed out loud and said, "Xuanxuan, you really are cute. Honestly, Iâd thought about making you my girlfriend."
Miao Xuanxuanâs face turned red in an instant, and she stammered a bit as she said, "Are... are you confessing to me? I might reject you, you know."
Song Xiaodong placed his hands on Miao Xuanxuanâs shoulders and said, "Xuanxuan, I must sincerely apologize to you right now."
"Why?" Miao Xuanxuan blinked her big eyes at Song Xiaodong, her heart starting to panic.
Looking into Miao Xuanxuanâs clear eyes, Song Xiaodong felt a sense of shame wash over him. He sighed lightly and said, "I hadnât thought too much just now. I figured we were both adults, and thereâs nothing wrong with a man and a woman being together. I didnât contemplate that much; I hadnât realized that this matter was so important to you."
"What do you mean? Are you saying you donât want to pursue me anymore?" Miao Xuanxuan puffed her cheeks and pursed her lips.
"Since you take this matter so seriously, I certainly canât deceive you. That would make me a real jerk. I really donât have any intention to marry now, and pursuing you would be irresponsible."
"Are you just finding excuses? Are you afraid that if we sleep together, Iâll cling to you?" Miao Xuanxuan clenched her fists, looking angrily at Song Xiaodong.
Song Xiaodong patted Miao Xuanxuanâs shoulder and said, "Having a beauty like you cling to me would be an honor."
"Then what do you mean?" Miao Xuanxuan was quite serious about this issue.
In contrast to their previous encounters, which were accidental and mostly passive on Song Xiaodongâs part, this time Song Xiaodong took the initiative. For Miao Xuanxuan, this was a completely new experience. Deep down, she held traditional views: a man taking the initiative to get close to her, even wanting to sleep with her, ought at least to truly care for her.
"Xuanxuan, you can be my friend, you can be my *** but as for being my girlfriend, thatâs not possible right now."
"You... you really are too much. Who do you think you are? I donât have to cling to you!" Miao Xuanxuan clearly misunderstood Song Xiaodongâs words, biting her teeth in anger, her face turning ashen, tears swirling in her eyes, almost spilling out.
This was the first man she had been so close to, nearly having slept together, but to say he couldnât be her boyfriend was just too much for Miao Xuanxuan to take.
Song Xiaodong was startled, not expecting Miao Xuanxuan to react this way, and hurriedly said, "Xuanxuan, thatâs not what I meant."
Miao Xuanxuan felt even more wronged and retorted angrily, "What do you mean? That Iâm not good enough for you? You just want to play with me?"
"My dear, how could a beauty like you not be good enough for me. What I mean is... alright, Iâm not even sure about my own future, so I canât make any promises to any woman, including a family."
Miao Xuanxuan sniffled and wiped away her tears with her hand, saying, "Thatâs just an excuse."
Song Xiaodong wiped away Miao Xuanxuanâs tears with his hand, and spoke seriously, "This isnât an excuse. There are things I really canât tell you. All I can say is that there are still issues I havenât resolved, and these issues are quite dangerous. I might even lose my life. How could I casually start a relationship? If I were to die, wouldnât that be harming someone?"
"Really?" Miao Xuanxuan looked at Song Xiaodong speaking earnestly and truly became scared. Could it be that Song Xiaodong was hiding some secrets?