Chapter 538: An Excuse To Indulge In Taboo Love

Eventually Mika pulled back from the kiss.

Their lips separated with a soft, wet sound, and Nadia’s eyes fluttered open. Her gaze was hazy, unfocused, as if she had just emerged from a deep, beautiful dream.

Her mind was still swimming in the afterglow of what they had just shared—the taste of his mouth, the heat of his tongue, the way he had held her so possessively.

But then reality crashed back down on her.

’Oh no!’

’I-I messed up again!’

She had been so overwhelmed with emotions, so completely consumed by how Mika was playing with her body—that she had lost control.

She had kissed him back with abandon. She had let her body respond in ways that left no doubt about her true feelings.

And now he knew.

’Oh, Nadia, how dumb can you be?’

She berated herself internally, her inner voice sharp and merciless.

’You already messed up once. Then twice. And now you’ve done the same thing again!’

’Are you really the same Battle Angel that everyone looks up to?’

’The woman who never makes mistakes?’

’The one who fulfills every duty without negligence!?’

She felt deeply ashamed. She used to pride herself on being full-proof no matter what.

But right now, she had broken. Repeatedly. And she had no idea how to explain herself, no excuse for why she was squirting and kissing her own son in this moment.

She felt like dying. Like the ground should open up and swallow her whole.

But fortunately for her, Mika was the perfect support character and he decided to help her out.

He started slow clapping.

Clap! Clap! Clap!

Nadia blinked in surprise.The sound was soft, almost mocking, but his expression was anything but.

His eyes were wide with amazement, as if he had just witnessed an award-winning performance in a movie theater.

"Wow, Nadia." He said, his voice filled with genuine admiration. "Truly. What a wonderful performance."

She stared at him, utterly confused, but stayed silent.

"I honestly don’t even know how you managed to do it."

He continued, shaking his head in wonder.

"You’ve only just regained your ability to show expressions recently, and already you’re able to act out a woman who’s completely drowning in pleasure and in love with her son."

Nadia’s blush deepened, guilt and shame twisting in her gut. Because Mika was exactly correct. That wasn’t an act. That was her. Her true feelings, her true desires, laid bare for him to see.

But he didn’t seem to see it that way.

"You truly did put on a wonderful performance right now." He said, looking at her with admiration. "And that’s perfect, since we still have to continue what we’re doing so that you can decrease your sensitivity to your own blessing."

The moment she heard those words, Nadia grabbed onto them like a drowning woman grasping a lifeline.

"Yes, Mika!" She said, nodding her head frantically. "It’s exactly as you said! I’m acting once again!"

She took a breath, trying to compose herself, and then added in a more analytical, thoughtful tone.

"Honestly, showing so many expressions right now is actually really hard for me. But after analyzing so many people over the years, I think I can emulate whatever scene I want in my mind and put it out right before me."

She spoken as if her tears and moans had been calculated performances rather than honest reactions.

And Mika clapped again, this time with even more enthusiasm.

"Truly, I could never match up to my own mother. I thought I was a good actor, but you’re on a completely different level."

Nadia, desperate to believe him, quickly accepted the excuse.

Relief flooded through her. Once again, Mika had given her an out.

He had provided a logical explanation for her behavior, a justification that allowed her to save face.

And she was so desperate, so scrambled-minded, that she didn’t doubt him for a second.

But then a thought occurred to her. She looked up at him with a curious, hesitant gaze.

"Then...does that mean we definitely have to follow through with what you’re doing to me? I mean—"

She gulped, feeling her body grow warm.

"—do we have to keep doing all those taboo things to decrease my sensitivity to my blessing?"

That was what she had understood from Mika’s words.

It didn’t seem like he was planning to stop. In fact, it seemed like he wanted to go further and further.

"Yes, Nadia." Mika nodded, his expression serious. "That’s what I had in mind."

He pulled her closer, hugging her tightly, his voice warm and loving.

"Of course I’m very happy that you’re finally able to show so many expressions. But that’s not enough."

He shook his head in dismay.

"I want to go all the way until you’re able to laugh, cry, and smile openly just like anyone else. Not just show micro-expressions that not everyone can catch."

Nadia’s heart raced.

"But, but—" She stammered, her voice hesitant and shy. "Wouldn’t we be doing a lot of...you know..."

She trailed off, unable to say the words.

"Dirty things." Mika finished for her. "Things that a mother and son shouldn’t do."

She nodded, her face burning.Because according to logic, if you wanted to decrease your sensitivity to something, you had to increase the dose.

You had to experience it more and more, go further and further.

And if what Mika said was true, they would have to do more and more dirty things together.

Things that were even worse, even more intimate, than what they had already done.

Her pussy unconsciously let out even more liquid at the thought, as if her body could not wait for what was to come. She immediately covered her crotch in embarrassment, her face burning.

Mika in response had an awkward look on his face for a moment, as if he himself was embarrassed by what he was about to say.

But finally, he nodded.

"Unfortunately, that’s the only way we can go through with this, Nadia."

She gasped.

"Only by making your emotions fluctuate to higher and higher peaks can we decrease your overall sensitivity."

He paused, considering.

"Of course, we could try other methods. We could put you in extreme situations that might make your emotions fluctuate on their own. But I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t react as strongly..."

"...especially after what we’ve already experienced today."

Nadia nodded in embarrassment. After today, she had felt emotions and euphoria and shame that she had never been able to reach before.

She was certain that nothing else could stimulate her the same way.

"That’s why we have to follow through with this method."

Mika said before giving a smile and reassured her by saying,

"It’s alright, though. We’re doing this for a good cause."

"Not to mention..." He whispered like it was a conspiracy. "...we’ve already done more than enough together and have a proper understanding of what we’re doing. So it won’t be as awkward."

He said it like he was trying to reason with both of them, to make sense of the situation so that neither of them would feel guilty.

Nadia nodded along, as if she had no disagreement.

Mika then looked down at her with a loving gaze, his eyes soft and warm.

"For me, honestly, I’m willing to do anything to save you, Nadia. Even if it meant sacrificing a part of my life, I would still do it for you."

He smiled and caressed her cheeks tenderly.

"But fortunately, I don’t have to do anything like that. Instead, all I have to do is play around with this sexy body of yours."

His hand dropped to her breast and squeezed, making her flustered.

"Honestly, that isn’t too bad in my mind."

He chuckled, then continued with resolve.

"So I’m completely okay with it."

His eyes met hers.

"What about you, Nadia? Are you okay with proceeding with this?"

Unsurprisingly, Nadia did not hesitate long. She immediately nodded.

"Yes, Mika. I’m totally alright with this. There’s no need to hesitate!" She said quickly, as if afraid the offer might disappear.

But then she caught herself, realizing how eager she sounded. She added more carefully,

"O-Of course because my son has already done so much, I can’t give up as a mother, so..."

She looked up at him.

"...I think we should go through with it."

Nadia was genuinely excited by this offer.

Mika was essentially giving her permission to do the very things she secretly wanted to do with her son without actually exposing her love to him.

It was, in a way, helping her as well.

And even though she felt deeply guilty inside for having such emotions, she did not want to lose this opportunity.

She was tired of sitting on the sidelines. She wanted to enjoy herself properly for the first time in her life—to receive her son’s love and affection wholeheartedly without giving it to anyone else.

So she made her decision right then and there to go along with what Mika had said.

Mika had a look of deep satisfaction in his eyes. He saw that Nadia was going along exactly as he had paved the way for her.

He was so happy that he could not help but lean in.

"Do you want to seal this deal with a kiss, Nadia?"

Nadia jolted in surprise, but nonetheless, with a limpid look in her eyes, she nodded.

Both of them leaned into one another. Their lips touched. And they started kissing.

This time, Nadia did not feel scared anymore, or afraid that she was going to be caught.

Now she had a legitimate reason to do whatever she wanted with her son.

She felt so happy and giddy inside at the thought of what they were going to do together.

She knew that eventually, when she could finally express her emotions completely without triggering her blessing, they could stop this intimacy on the spot.

But she did not care.

Until then, she was willing to enjoy herself with her son.