"What does it mean?"
"Because, this hallucination is really so real..." Lou FeiāErās eyes became slightly hazy, just like when she first entered the cabin, "Everything at home, my parents, their habits, what they say, all so real, and, and..."
"And what?" Lou FeiāErās tone and hazy eyes made Xu Xin feel a bit uneasy.
"And, in that hallucinated home, it seems... I never existed there..." Lou FeiāEr looked at Xu Xin, her eyes somewhat confused, "Anything related to me in my memory is completely absent in this illusion."
...What is she actually talking about, being so jumpy.
Xu Xin was somewhat speechless; he thought it was something major: "Just a hallucination, just a dream, you took it seriously?"
"Itās not a dream!" Lou FeiāEr glared at him, "Absolutely not a dream, because I am very conscious, I know I am in the Red Mist cabin, and I know I am inhaling the Red Mist, but I can clearly see everything, even change angles to observe! Moreover, I still clearly remember everything I just saw, this is definitely not a dream!"
Lou FeiāErās emotions were somewhat agitated.
"Alright, alright, not a dream, so why are you so agitated?" Xu Xin still didnāt understand.
"Because... because I feel, everything I just saw is not a hallucination, but a kind of... memory buried deep in my mind..."
"Memory?" Xu Xin was taken aback, "Isnāt memory more normal? This Red Mist evokes your longing for home, is that what it means?"
"Of course not!" Lou FeiāEr stomped her foot, "This is simply not my memory!"
"Huh?" Xu Xin really wanted to splash water on her to wake her up.
Is it memory or not memory, what kind of nonsense is she talking about, another cryptic speaker?
"Listen to me!" Lou FeiāEr, also hasty because of her vague words, said, "What I mean is, this is not a memory I experienced on Earth! How to say, itās like... memories from another parallel universe!"
Sheās getting more cryptic.
However, Xu Xin could summarize what she meant.
She means, everything in her hallucination feels too familiar to her, almost like a memory, but such scenes are not things she has experienced before.
Déjà vu?
Xu Xin shook his head and asked, "So, why do you feel this way?"
"Because, because..." Lou FeiāErās expression became somewhat panicked, "Because, this hallucination is about my childhood home. But in that familiar home, all traces of me have vanished, the height marker I carved on the door frame, the countless designs I inscribed on the table with a small knife when I was naughty, and... none of them are there! And, and! My parents were discussing adopting a child, saying it was a pity they never had kids and wanted to adopt one, raise him, and have him care for them in their old age!"
Lou FeiāErās eyes carried a hint of fear: "I seem... to have never existed... And, that scene was so real, so real it was as if I were standing there watching!"
"...Werenāt you adopted, did you see scenes of your parents before adopting you?" Xu Xin asked with an odd expression.
"Certainly not!" Lou FeiāEr laughed angrily, "Why are you such a mood killer! Iām definitely born by my mom, I look a lot like my parents! Also, canāt I tell my parentsā age? In the hallucination, they were already in their fifties! Thatās their current age!"
Xu Xin said nothing but fell into contemplation.
He actually understood Lou FeiāErās meaning long ago, but kept interrupting to ease the atmosphere, as Lou FeiāErās state was somewhat off.
But what she said was indeed worth contemplating.
She saw a world without her in the Red Mist.
In that world, she wasnāt dead or missing but simply... never existed from the start.
Could it be, what she saw was the scenario on Earth?
Now on Earth, perhaps it is as she saw, where no one remembers those who traversed into this world. Everyone has forgotten them, these survivors, even their existence has been erased, along with memories and traces, disappearing from Earth.
This speculation is quite creepy to think about.
However, itās just a hypothesis after all.
"Youāre not just making this up, are you?" Xu Xin looked at Lou FeiāEr with some suspicion, disbelieving her words, "You didnāt fabricate it to scare me, right?"
"You jerk!" Lou FeiāErās face, which had just regained its color, turned red with anger again, "I signed a contract with you, I canāt possibly lie to you!"
Who knows how binding the contract really is. Xu Xin pouted.
"...Donāt overthink it, itās just a hallucination." Xu Xin concluded.
Although he felt that this matter might not be so simple, if it indeed relates to Earth, to their original home, it would need thorough consideration, discussing it now is of little significance and would only waste time.
"You donāt think after inhaling so much Red Mist, youāll see Earth, do you?" Xu Xin shrugged.
"Uh... thatās why I said, itās memory!" Lou FeiāEr retorted.
She indeed felt it was too real, as real as being there personally.
"Whose memory, yours? Since you werenāt there in your hallucination, where did this memory come from? You saw it standing in void?"
"Uh..." Lou FeiāEr blinked.
"So, as I said, a hallucination is just a hallucination, just your imagination. Itās not unusual for such a peculiar world to create incredibly realistic hallucinations when you inhale the Red Mist, right?"
Xu Xin didnāt want Lou FeiāEr to be affected by this; she had a crucial task tomorrow and couldnāt be mentally unstable because of it.
"Is... is it normal?" Lou FeiāEr was somewhat shaken.
The sight she just witnessed was overly realistic, giving her a severe shock, even making her doubt her real existence. Xu Xinās words calmed her a bit.
"Alright, go back and rest, we have things to do tomorrow."
"Oh, okay." Lou FeiāEr glanced at the cabin again, then turned to head towards her treehouse, muttering softly, "Fake? Hmm, should... be fake, right?"
Who knows whatās real?
Anyway, itās best to live in the moment.