Lin Fan felt that Zou Xiaosheng was too bitter a girl, not to mention that she was a little girl, even Lin Fan himself couldnât imagine how she managed to survive in such an environment. But she pulled through and finally found her biological parents.
Logically speaking, this should be a cause for celebration, many parents who have lost their children exhaust all means to search for them. Some search for ten years, some for twenty years, even for a lifetime. One can imagine how happy they would be when they find their child. They would definitely compensate by loving their child doubly.
As for the children, itâs different; many children are kept in the dark, always assuming that their adoptive parents are their biological parents, having "real" affection for them, while their biological parents are strangers. So when many children are found and brought back, the more common reaction is confusion, not knowing how to face it.
But Zou Xiaosheng is different from other children, she actively sought out her biological parents.
So logically, once she found her biological parents, she should be happy. Under normal circumstances, she and her biological parents should be twice as affectionate and cherish each other. Why did she end up attempting suicide after finding her parents?
Lin Fan said, "Wouldnât it have been better not to have found them? What happened?"
Zou Xiaosheng smiled bitterly, "Because I later learned that instead of getting lost as a child, I was sold off by my biological parents."
Lin Fan froze, what the hell?
Zou Xiaosheng said, "Actually, when I asked Grandma about my background, she told me that I was bought by my adoptive parents, not picked up. Later, Grandma told me she kept one of my vaccination records."
Lin Fan frowned, "If you were stolen, how could even the vaccination record be stolen, unless the person who stole you had forged it, otherwise it must be provided by your biological parents."
Zou Xiaosheng said, "At first, I also thought it was forged by a middleman because I couldnât accept that I was sold off by my biological parents. How could parents like this exist in the world? Other peopleâs biological parents go crazy searching for their lost children, yet mine sold me off voluntarily, I couldnât accept it. But this vaccination record was my only clue, so I still asked Grandma for it. On it, I saw a strange name, Chen Lu, which could be my real name, and thereâs also my fatherâs signature on it."
With her biological fatherâs name, Zou Xiaosheng went online to search, and she did find her biological fatherâs information. She mustered the courage to call him, and thus she found her biological father.
From her biological father, Zou Xiaosheng learned about her biological motherâs identity and realized her biological parents had separated years ago, and each had their own respective families now.
At that time, Zou Xiaosheng did not realize that her sudden appearance might not bring joy to her biological parents but rather fright, because her appearance could disrupt their new families.
Zou Xiaosheng questioned her biological father whether they sold her back then.
"If he had told me at the time that I was sold by them, I would never have recognized them, but he lied to me, saying life was too difficult, so they gave me away, supposedly for my own good. I believed him. Later, I also contacted my mother, and her words were the same as dadâs, so I didnât doubt, and eagerly wanted to see them." Zou Xiaosheng said.
Zou Xiaosheng was quite happy at that time because she had finally found her biological parents, and no longer had to live like a stray child, nor was she an orphan anymore. She now had parents, and they were biological.
But no matter what, she never expected that these biological parents would eventually push her to despair.
"I found them and wanted to meet them, isnât that how it is in the news? A family excitedly embracing each other, I envied such scenes, I also wanted such a reunion scene. But they each have a new family now, they didnât want to affect their current family because of me, meeting became a very difficult matter. For starters, they definitely wouldnât come together to see me. After many twists and turns, I met Dad in Yun City and later went to Hang City to meet Mom. Although it was different from the family reunion scenes in the news, just being able to see them made me very happy. That period was my happiest in over a decade. When we met, the atmosphere was good, Dad even gave me a red envelope, and I thought they were happy, too."
However, Zou Xiaoshengâs happiness did not last long. Later, when she was chatting on the phone with her biological father, he revealed a cruel truth to her.
At that time, she was indeed sold off by her biological parents, and when she was born, they werenât married yet. The reason they sold her was because they didnât have the money to get married.
"They found a middleman through a doctor at the hospital, the middleman sold me to my adoptive parents for 30,000 yuan, and they got a few thousand from the middleman."
Speaking of this, Zou Xiaosheng was very sad, tears kept flowing, looking at Lin Fan with a bitter smile, "They used the few thousand they got from selling me to get married."
This marriage, born out of sin, was destined for a bad ending; they did indeed divorce later.
Hearing this, Lin Fan was speechless, how can people be so evil, so shameless, truly lowering the limits.
Lin Fan wasnât inexperienced, heâd seen many bad people, but selling off oneâs own flesh and blood was a first.
"After learning the truth, I became very desperate and broken, but I could no longer break off contact with them. Do you know why?" Zou Xiaosheng said.
Lin Fan nodded, "I understand because youâve seen them. You crave for the love from parents, because itâs something youâve always lacked in your life. Even knowing such a cruel truth, you still find it hard to let go."
Zou Xiaosheng found some comfort in her heart; Lin Fan understood her, at least, finally someone understood her.
"Ever since my adoptive parents passed away accidentally, I lost the true meaning of a home. Relativesâ homes are not a home; in fact, Iâve been drifting for over ten years. As a child, I moved around my relativesâ homes, and since attending middle school, Iâve been living at school. In my heart, Iâve always longed for a home but didnât dare to expect it. But since recognizing dad and mom, this desire has become unprecedentedly strong."
"It just so happened that the school recently closed for renovation, so I couldnât stay at the school anymore and suddenly had nowhere to live. I hadnât returned to my adoptive parentsâ house since their death. When I went back a few days ago, it had become a ruin, only desolation remained. The desire to have a home occupied my heart for a while, I was too tired over the years, I just wanted a stable dwelling, didnât want to live under someone elseâs roof anymore."
Lin Fan felt that Zou Xiaoshengâs view was too normal. Just like Lin Fan had a home, his home was in West River Village, his parents were there. It was like a harbor, no matter how he struggled outside, when he was tired and missed home, he could go back.
But Zou Xiaosheng had no such home, no place she could "go back" to.
Zou Xiaosheng smiled bitterly, "But when I told Mom about this thought, she immediately turned her face against me and blocked me."