As she spoke, Gu Shengyinâs expression turned sullen:
"It was also Master Ning Yuan who made me realize that I am the Heavenly Lone Star. It turns out those curses werenât merely wordsâthey were true, I really am an ominous person."
"For a long time, my greatest wish in life was to call Master Ning Yuan âmasterâ, but I cannot."
Gu Shengyinâs expression was somewhat complex: "Because I am the Heavenly Lone Star, a master-disciple relationship is too intimate and would harm him."
"As I slowly learned what being the Heavenly Lone Star meant, I worriedly asked Master Ning Yuan if our close relationship would affect him. The master said it wouldnât. He told me we donât have a substantial master-disciple relationship and we donât live in the same house. Besides, he cultivates merit, so hostility affects him very little."
Gu Shengyin covered her face: "At the time, I really believed him."
Yan Zi, seeing her like this, suddenly thought of the abrupt news of Master Ning Yuanâs death.
"When the news of Master Ning Yuanâs unexpected death came, I had just completed a task."
"My first thought then was, I might as well take the sword in my hand and stab myself to death."
Gu Shengyinâs lips revealed a trace of a smile: "Someone like me shouldnât have come into this world in the first place."
Yan Ziâs eyes were already reddening.
She had never known that this colleague, who always walked ahead of all exorcists, hid such profound pain deep inside.
"Thatâs how it ended up."
When Gu Shengyin spoke to the end, her tone had calmed down: "Iâve learned to control my emotions, no longer having any contact with anyone. All I can do is not cause harm to any innocent people."
Yan Zi stared blankly at Jiang Lan sitting across from her.
This young girlâs complexion was as pale as ever, her expression always indifferent, like her unapproachable aura.
Suddenly Yan Zi asked, "Can I give you a hug?"
Gu Shengyin looked up in surprise, and before she could speak, she sensed a shadow descending, and then a strong embrace enveloped her.
Gu Shengyin moved a bit uncomfortably but did not break free.
Yan Zi hugged for just a moment before releasing her.
She smiled at Gu Shengyin: "Well, it seems we wonât be able to be friends in this lifetime."
Gu Shengyin also smiled faintly: "Iâve long said, Jiang Lan doesnât need friends."
Yan Zi had heard her say this many times, but this time, it felt completely different.
Perhaps it wasnât that she didnât need friends, but more that she couldnât have them?
To love someone, to want to be close to someone, is to push them towards death.
How painful!
Yan Zi shrugged, seriously looking at Gu Shengyin: "Actually, you really are a good person."
Gu Shengyin raised her eyebrows at her.
Yan Zi chuckled: "You know about the foolish thing I did in a past life. When I tried to be friends with you this time, you didnât agree. Thinking about it, I actually saved my life."
If Jiang Lan really wanted someoneâs life, Iâm afraid no one could stop her.
Gu Shengyin did not deny it, she just said: "If I truly wanted your life, I wouldnât need to use such sneaky methods."
This was the confidence of the First Exorcist Jiang Lan.