Yuder looked at the elderly man lying in bed, asleep.
Grandfather.
Hair white as if snow had fallen on it, hands thinned and gnarled with age.
He once seemed like the biggest, sturdiest tree in the worldâso how had he grown so frail?
He slowly set down the basket heâd brought, careful not to disturb the sleeper, and turned to quietly leave.
Then a low voice came from behind him.
âYouâve come.â
Yuder turned his head. The old man, eyes barely open, smiled and beckoned.
âMy little pup. Come here.â
Hesitating a little, Yuder stepped closer, and the old man took his hand. His hands, though aged, were still much larger than Yuderâs. Without a word, he gently patted the back of Yuderâs hand, then exhaled deeply and spoke.
âDid things go well down in the lower village?â
âYes. It wasnât anything serious.â
âI figured. Youâd handle it just fine. Still... I shouldâve been there.â
âIâm fine. Just rest.â
A few days earlier, his grandfather had suddenly collapsed. There was no cough, no fever, no particular injury, and yet he hadnât been able to get up again. The doctor from the neighboring village had said it was due to old age. No cure, no medicineâjust eat as well as possible to regain strength. The old man didnât get angry. He just laughed heartily.
âYour hands are a mess. What have you been doing now to make them like this?â
âI didnât do much.â
âThere wasnât a basket when you left, and now there is.â
Yuder paused, then answered honestly.
âI picked some herbs.â
While climbing back up toward the house, heâd spotted herbs that usually didnât bloom in this season. If they were strong enough to defy the season, he thought maybe theyâd help boost his grandfatherâs energy, so he dug them up with his bare hands. Then he figured he might as well look around more, and before he knew it, heâd filled an entire basket. Wrecked hands were just part of the package.
âItâs because of me, isnât it.â
The old man clicked his tongue as if heâd guessed it all without needing to hear it. Yuder mumbled a small excuse.
âIt doesnât hurt. Iâm fine.â
âStill, donât do that next time.â
The old man gave his small hand a few more pats and sighed softly.
âIâve told you this before. I might leave at any time, so donât be too shocked...â
â...Or too sad.â
âThatâs right.â
It was something his grandfather had said often. That although he was still here, he was old now and could pass at any moment, so when that time came, donât be too surprised or grieve too deeply.
Heâd said it over and over again: death was a natural part of life.
So often that even young Yuder could accept it.
After his grandfather collapsed, Yuder realizedâthis might be that time.
He knew he had to act calmly, just as heâd been taught and prepared for.
He knew he could now do everything on his own, even without his grandfather.
But still...
âEven so, please try the herbs. At least the Untarm.â
âUntarm? You actually found that in this season?â
Thatâs why heâd picked it. His grandfather smiled as if he already knew, even without being told.
âYes. I should eat that. Since my sharp-eyed pup brought it for me.â
Yuder got up right away, washed and sliced the herbs, and brought them back. While his grandfather ate, Yuder didnât take his eyes off him.
âBitter. So bitter.â
âI brought honey water too.â
He held out a drink made with some spring-harvested honey, and the old man laughed.
âMy, my. Youâve really grown up.â
A part of him wanted to say so, and another part still wanted to say not yet. So Yuder said nothing. Then the old man set down the empty cup and reached out to stroke Yuderâs hair.
â...Thank you.â
â...â
The warm silence stretched on as he gently patted Yuderâs black hair again and again. Then, suddenly, he spoke.
âHave you ever wondered why plants and flowers bloom at the right time?â
Yuder shook his head.
âItâs because they know that if they bloom too early or too late, they wonât survive. They instinctively know that blooming at the right moment gives them the best chance of making it. Even the smallest ones know that. If they bloom off-season, theyâre easy preyâsomeone like me might come along and eat them.â
He laughed, patting his belly.
âI was greedy once too, like those herbs. But now I know that such greed is useless. So... whenever I feel greedy, I try to believe that the timing right now is just right. No matter how sad or regretful it feels... I believe that itâs the right time.â
It was difficult. Yuder didnât fully understand. Seeing this, the old man, as always, slowed down and explained againâthis time in simpler words.
âSo donât be greedy on my behalf, Yuder. Or for your own sake either.â
So that it wonât bring sorrow or pain.
Two days after that conversation, his grandfather passed away in his sleep.
He left behind a handmade bracelet at his bedside...
â...â
Yuder slowly blinked his eyes open, waking from the dream.
The ceiling of his childhood homeâfamiliar and yet strangely distantâcame into view.
The dream just now... That was right before Grandfather passed away, wasnât it.
He hadnât dreamed of that day once in all the years since. It had faded into a hazy memory over time.
Maybe itâs because I came home.
Most of the things that happened with his grandfather had settled deep into the past, gathering dust. But the last thing his grandfather ever saidâDonât be greedyâremained vividly etched in his mind.
Back then, I only remembered the words but couldnât grasp the meaning...
Now, after the dream, he thought he might finally understand why those words had been said.
It felt oddly fitting to have such a dream on the day he planned to visit his grandfather. Still, it wasnât a bad feeling.
Blinking, he turned to the sideâand saw the spot next to him was empty.
He hadnât noticed at first because he was so used to sleeping alone, but now he clearly remembered that someone had been there before he fell asleep.
Kishiar.
Yuder sat up. He looked around, but the small house was completely quiet. No sign of anyone.
Did he go to wash already?
He opened the door, and the rising sunlight poured in over the brightening sky. Compared to the capital or Peleta, the light here was searing, and he instinctively squinted.
As his eyes adjusted, he saw a figure in the distance.
Kishiar, in just a simple shirt and pants, stood quietly, watching the sun rise. That was all. And yet, Yuder couldnât look away from that silhouette.
Then, as if sensing his presence, Kishiar turned his head.
Bathed in light, his face had turned pale white, and he smiled with crinkled eyes.
âYouâre already awake?â
It felt like time had only just resumed moving again. Yuder finally breathed in and approached him.
âWhat were you doing?â
âLight morning training. And preparing breakfast.â
âExcuse me?â
â...And while doing that, the sunrise was just too beautifulâI found myself watching it.â
As Yuder blinked at him, Kishiar chuckled softly.
âWho wouldâve thought the sun rising over distant mountains could be so breathtaking? I almost felt like I was one with nature.â
It was a silly thing to say, but somehow, it truly looked that way.
Yuder swallowed down his comment and spoke instead.
âWhat do you mean by breakfast preparation?â
âWell, since you treated me to such a fine dinner yesterday, I figured Iâd /N_o_v_e_l_i_g_h_t/ try to return the favor. Itâs coldâshall we go inside and finish it?â
They went back into the house. Only then did Yuder notice the ingredients laid out around the stove. But unlike the roughly chopped ingredients from yesterday, these were trimmed and arranged with mysterious beauty.
âWhat is this...â
âThanks to growing up with someone like Shuseiner, Iâve seen plenty of cookingâeven if Iâve never done it myself.â
Kishiar casually added the prepared ingredients into the pan on the stove. His movements were slow, but carried the rhythm of someone recalling and imitating something they'd watched many times.
Grill. Stir. Sprinkle something heâd taken from the cupboard. Slide it smoothly onto a plate.
That was all. Yet somehow, the result was a dish of grilled vegetables and eggs that looked like something served in Peleta.
âThis should be passable, right?â
Yuder stared at what he saw, unable to believe it.
â......â