Sen ended up making breakfast the next day since he was up first, or at least the first to wander out into the main room. It was always hard to gauge how long any given cultivator would sleep because there was no good way to gauge how long it had been since they last slept. Heâd been getting regular sleep recently, so sleeping for a few hours had almost been an indulgence. It had been a chance for his mind to rest, though. He was still pondering the problem of Falling Leaf. The casual way with which sheâd disrobed had caught him off guard. After a moment of aesthetic appreciation for the lithe young woman, though, heâd gone into healer mode. There was something off about her, something that twinged his cultivator senses. If she did that to him, sheâd likely do it to others. It turned out that it wasnât something physical. She looked like a normal human woman. Well, she looked like a normal human woman cultivator with all that entailed, albeit one with green eyes. Having ascertained that it wasnât some physical trait he was picking up on in some barely conscious way, he suggested she should put her robes back on.
Her face twisted in unhappiness, and she said, âBut theyâre
uncomfortable
.â
Understanding had dawned at that point.
No wonder she seemed so eager to undress
, thought Sen. He supposed clothing of any kind was still relatively new for her. Not so new that sheâd adjust her clothes all the time, but new enough that sheâd likely take almost any excuse to get rid of them if she could. He suppressed a laugh before it could form. It wouldnât do to laugh at her discomfort. He could even appreciate it a little. He remembered all too well how uncomfortable heâd been that first year as a cultivator. Granted, Falling Leaf wasnât precisely new to cultivation, but she was new to being a human cultivator. He was once again confronted with just how much sheâd sacrificed for him. He picked up her robe from the floor and handed it to her.
âItâs not generally appropriate to be undressed with someone of the opposite sex. Itâs a culture thing.â
Falling Leaf sighed and started putting the robe back on. âThe Caihong said the same thing. I hoped you wouldnât care.â
âItâs not so much that I care. Itâs more that itâs distracting. Undressing that way in front of a man is usually interpreted as a desire to,â Sen tried to think of the right term to make it clear, âmate.â
Falling Leaf stared down at her half-dressed body and grimaced. âWhy would anyone want to mate with this? Itâs so unsightly.â
Sen did laugh at that, which drew a perplexed look from Falling Leaf.
âI assure you that human men will not find you unsightly. Quite the opposite, in fact. Iâm surprised you havenât noticed that already.â
Falling Leaf shrugged. âMost of the human men I spoke to were screaming.â
âScreaming?â
âIn pain. In fear. We were not gentle with the demonic cultivators. Especially not when you disappeared.â
âI see,â said Sen.
He was a little startled at Falling Leafâs nonchalant viciousness. Then again, she was a cat at heart. She finished putting her robe back on and gave Sen a look.
âThere. Is that less
distracting
?â she asked, loading the word distracting with seven kinds of doubt.
âYes. Thank you. I understand that you might have been harsh with the demonic cultivators, but what about the other human men you spoke with?â
âI did not.â
âYou didnât what?â
âSpeak with them. I left that to the,â she took a very obvious pause, âto
Ma
Caihong.â
âYou didnât speak to them
at all
? Surely some of them must have spoken to you.â
âThey did.â
âAnd?â
âAnd what? They were not demonic cultivators. They were not you. They were not Feng Ming or Kho Jaw-Long.
Why
would I speak to them?â
Sen suspected that Auntie Caihong had probably had conversations with Falling Leaf about all of this, but the ghost pantherâŠformer ghost pantherâŠhad brought most of her personality over with her in the change. She was interested in what she was interested in and absolutely nothing else. She had changed so she could come out into the world and find him. Anything that didnât relate specifically and directly to that goal was simply beneath her notice. He wondered how many heartbroken young men sheâd left in her wake when she refused to even acknowledge their existence. Although, if sheâd done that to cultivators, some of them would surely have challenged her.
âDidnât that provoke some anger? Some challenges?â
Falling Leaf nodded. âIt did.â
âSo, what did you do?â
âI killed them, of course. What else is there?â
Of course
, she had. Challenges in the wilds were almost always to the death unless one of the spirit beasts fled. He wondered how many of those people had died confused, thinking that theyâd only meant to prove a point. It was that last thought that lingered with Sen as he made breakfast. He realized that bringing Falling Leaf along with him, and there was no way that sheâd let him leave her behind, was going to be a challenge. They would have to have a lot of long talks about what was and wasnât appropriate. He worried that wouldnât be enough, though. Certainly, Auntie Caihong had had similar talks with Falling Leaf. If the nascent soul cultivator couldnât get the ghost pather girl to change, Sen didnât like his chances. Although, Falling Leaf might also put more stock in his words simply because she was closer to him. Heâd always had the impression that she respected the nascent soul cultivators because of their terrible power and strength, but sheâd only ever seemed to like Uncle Kho. He worried he might be kidding himself thatâd she listen to him more than Auntie Caihong, but it was all he had to lean on at the moment.
It seemed the smell of food was enough to rouse the nascent soul cultivators and Falling Leaf from their rest. Sen prompted some stories from the elder cultivators but quickly discovered that once you heard one sect destruction story, youâve pretty much heard them all. The details changed, but the end results were mostly the same. He also learned that while Uncle Kho and Master Feng had usually opted for a scorched earth policy if their demands werenât met swiftly and without protest, Ma Caihong had taken a more subtle approach. She threatened to destroy entire sects and then waited for the demonic cultivators to run. Once they left the sect, they were chased down and questioned. Vigorously. Falling Leaf nodded along cheerfully to those stories.
âI was very good at the questioning,â she told Sen proudly.
Ma Caihong agreed. âIâve never seen so many grown men break so quickly. Iâve also never seen so many grown men cry.â
Sen almost asked a question then, and quickly thought better of it. He decided he really didnât need to know how Falling Leaf made men cry during questioning. He had enough bad dreams as it was. As the meal wound down and the stories dried up, Master Feng fixed Sen with a firm look.
âSo, now that youâre not being hunted up and down the kingdom, what are you planning to do?â
Falling Leaf perked up at that question, and fixed her eyes on Sen with unnerving intensity. He thought it over for a while.
âThe Clear Spring sect first, I expect. Then, probably off to the capital. I need a manual for the Five-Fold Body Transformation. If itâs as dangerous as everyone says it is, I canât just stumble blindly forward with it and hope for the best.â
Ma Caihong and Master Feng traded a look before she spoke up. âThe capital isnât a good place for you. Youâd be a tempting target for, well, for a lot of people. Sects, nobles, and whatever demonic cultivators werenât on that list. If there are any left, theyâll be in the capital.â
âWhy would sects and nobles be trying to kill me?â
âNot that kind of target. Sects will want to recruit you, and youâll find saying no to them a much more difficult task than you did in Emperorâs Bay. Sects in the capital are large. Most of them have a nascent soul patriarch or matriarch. They donât like hearing the word no,â said Uncle Kho.
That made more sense to Sen and shuddered at the idea of what an unfriendly nascent soul cultivator might do to him to get their way.
âThe nobles will just want to use you in their games,â said Auntie Caihong.
âOr bed you,â said Master Feng.
Auntie Caihong sighed but nodded. âOr that. Or both. They arenât mutually exclusive activities.â
Sen wasnât sure exactly how going to bed with someone would be part of a political game, but he trusted that Auntie Caihong knew what she was talking about.
âSo, I should seek out Fu Ruolan instead, if the Clear Springs sect doesnât have the manual?â Sen asked, a little dubious.
âThat woman isâŠdifficult, at the best of times. Still, she might actually be the better choice here.â
Ma Caihong gave Master Feng a look that suggested she thought heâd suffered a massive head injury that was affecting his judgment. âThat woman isnât difficult. Sheâs insane.â
âSheâs not insane,â said Master Feng. âSheâs strange, but her reason is intact. Itâs her emotions you canât be sure of.â
âStill, sending Sen to her is ill-advised, at best.â
Sen had gotten used to this kind of bickering between the two over the years, but it never led anywhere productive, so he cut them off. âI have three possible options for finding the manual I think we all agree I wonât survive without. The Golden Phoenix sect, Fu Roulan, and the Clear Spring sect. Since it seems like thereâs only a slim chance the Clear Spring sect has it, I need a second option. Itâs either the capital or Fu Ruolan unless one of you has a line on another place I could get it. Do you?â
There was some hedging and vague talk about possible locations, at least two of which Sen knew were mythical, but the takeaway was that they didnât have a better plan. At least, they didnât at the moment.
âOkay,â said Sen, âso given the two options that I realistically have available, which is better? Which carries more risk?â
There was more grumbling and hedging.
âItâs a coin toss,â said Uncle Kho after five minutes of additional bickering from Master Feng and Auntie Caihong. âThe risks in the capital are more numerous, but theyâre diffuse. No one there is, to our knowledge, specifically looking for you or to cause you trouble. If there is trouble, though, it can come at you from a lot of different angles, all at the same time. Plus, negotiating with the Golden Phoenix sect is going to be troublesome. They wonât want to give you that manual or a copy of it without extracting something very valuable from you. Either some kind of service you absolutely wonât want to do or some kind of nearly impossible-to-find treasure.
âWith Fu Ruolan, who
is
crazy by the way, the risk is very specific and very direct. If you make a bad impression or simply catch her on the wrong day, itâs very likely that sheâll kill you or punish you in some terrible way. If you make a good impression or catch her on the right day, you could walk out an hour later with what you need. Assuming you can find her at all, which is not guaranteed. No one really knows where she lives, just a general area she roams in. So, either option has a high risk of failure as well.â
Sen looked over at Falling Leaf. âWhat do you think?â
âInsanity is always a danger to avoid,â she said with utter certainty.
Sen waited for more but that was apparently the entirety of her thoughts on the matter. Trying to hide his reluctance, he looked to Lo Meifeng. âHow about you? What do you think?â
Lo Meifeng shifted uncomfortably as everyone looked at her, but she plunged ahead. âI donât know anything of value about Fu Ruolan. I thought she was a cultivator ghost story until today. I mean, honestly, an insane nascent soul cultivator? It sounds like a story youâd made up to scare outer sect disciples into behaving. So, in practical terms, Iâd be more useful to you in the capital, but I donât know if that makes the capital a better choice.â
âDo you know anyone in the capital?â Sen asked.
It had sounded casual enough, a natural follow-up to her statement, but she knew what he was really asking.
âI have some contacts there, but no one Iâd consider close.â
Sen nodded and weighed his options. He hadnât done well in cities so far. It was just a flaw in his personality. He wasnât flexible enough, not willing to bend enough to suit the whims of those who saw themselves as powerful. He could try to keep that in check if he had some warning, but if someone just started acting like he owed them something because they were breathing in the same vicinity as him, heâd fall back to form. He knew it. On the other hand, his last experience with a crazy person living out in the middle of nowhere hadnât gone very well, either. Plus, it sounded like heâd only have a fifty-fifty shot at surviving an encounter with Fu Ruolan. That was assuming he could even find her in the first place. Granted, wandering around in the wilds didnât sound so bad to him anymore now that he wasnât going to be on the run. Falling Leaf would probably love it. Lo Meifeng would probably hate it, which made it sound more appealing to the small part of Sen that was petty. Of course, the goal wasnât to punish Lo Meifeng but to get a manual that would help keep him alive.
âIâm going to need to pick your brains about the capital,â he announced.