Yes, she lied to Qianxun.
All these years, it wasnāt the burden of many lives she carried that troubled her.
Growing up in the organization, she experienced too much, saw far more death than those instances could collapse her mentally.
It was because...
Every time he did something more for her, a new fear grew in her heart.
It was precisely because she stayed by his side for so many years that this constant fear deepened day and night.
She was afraid, very afraid.
Day and night, she lived in fear of being discovered by him.
Itās indescribable... that inexplicable fear grew and spread in her heart until it consumed her completely.
She thought about leaving, the organization, Li Sinian, to find a small town in the countryside where she could hide and live.
However, whether it was the organization or Li Sinian, she couldnāt escape them now.
Therefore, she was afraid, afraid that when the day her secrets were revealed, she still wouldnāt be able to die, he had a thousand ways to keep her alive and in agony.
Xiao Man stood up from the sofa, buttoned her coat without looking at Luo Xuan, and spoke for herself and to him: "If you think that with just this, you can threaten me, then you are gravely mistaken. I am Heather, and Iām afraid of being discovered by Li Sinian. But you wonāt do such a thing, so I donāt need to worry."
The interview room had a few bottles of red wine.
Xiao Man saw that they were old and good brands, so she opened the cabinet and took one out.
She poured herself a glass, sat on the sofa, and crossed her legs.
The shock from before had passed, and now looking at Luo Xuan, she showed no signs of surprise.
She accepted the fact.
"What a pity," Luo Xuan, seeing he couldnāt achieve his goal, didnāt continue.
Xiao Man smiled slightly, "The lord sent you here, not to expose me. After arranging such a pawn for many years only to eliminate it before itās useful, who would benefit? It would just mean I enjoyed a few good years for nothing."
"The famous superstar, Xiao Man... and Li Sinian foolishly protecting you, you indeed have enjoyed a lot these years."
"I know my spotlight wonāt last long. I never intended to keep going on this path forever. Iāll just go with the flow without thinking about my future. Someone like me, Iām afraid, has no future." She gave a bitter smile.
Qianxun asked her if she wanted to marry Li Sinian.
The word marriage, she was destined never to have in this life.
She never dared to dream of such luxuries, love, marriage...
She couldnāt even feel the reality in the money she held in her hands.
"Li Sinian has protected you really well, over the years he has eliminated every suspicious person around you, even the lord faces difficulties in contacting you. However, Heather, itās not hard to imagine, you havenāt made any efforts, because of your non-cooperation, our organization has lost so many people. Do you know the lord is very angry about this?"
"I know," Xiao Man wasnāt scared, "You could even go back and report to the lord, saying I deliberately exposed their traces for Li Sinian to eliminate, that I used him to kill them. I hate seeing them, whenever I see their presence, it reminds me of my true identity, I donāt want to be Heather. Be cursed or completely tarnished, Iād rather be a real, flesh-and-blood Xiao Man. This is the new world I discovered after leaving the organization. The outside world is too beautiful... and I find it hard to leave."