Xu Changāan realized that his state was somewhat strange.
Years ago, when he first woke up, he thought he had experienced a soul migration, just that he had traveled into the body of an underage child.
But later, various details in his life, his familiarity with his body, and the profound intuition all told him one thing.
That he wasnāt experiencing any soul migration, this was real, it was his own body.
Afterwards, he often had a lot of time to think about these things, so after much deliberation, Xu Changāan believed the most likely explanation... was that after a misfortune, he was saved by the girl and then awakened memories belonging to a past life.
Hmm.
At that time, as a child whose limbs hadnāt recovered, being held in Miss Yunās arms allowed him to shift his focus on this extremely serious matter.
However.
This method was only effective at the beginning; after he began to adapt to and get used to the world he had traveled to and becoming a child, sitting in the girlās arms againā
That light orchid fragrance on Miss Yun, the sensation of her breath brushing the back of his neck alongside the sunlight...
These feelings were like mountains pressing down on his head, making it hard to think about anything else.
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Inside the carriage.
Xu Changāan sighed softly.
In short, since he had reincarnated with awakened memories of a past life instead of a soul migration, his childhood could indeed be described as the days spent living on the island with Miss Yun.
"Regret, what is it?" Yun Qian was quite concerned.
Xu Changāan opened his eyes, with a face full of seriousness.
"When I was being held by Miss, I wanted to bury my face in and take a breath, but couldnāt manage to, does that count?"
Yun Qian: "..."
Xu Changāan was willing to risk it all, opening his eyes, he looked at the slight light-colored embroidery on Miss Yunās simple garment and spoke seriously, "Back then, being held in Missās arms, it took a lot of effort not to bury my head and take a big sniff."
As a child, he used whatever he could think of to shift his focus.
Thinking about it makes it understandable.
In front of the desk.
Being held in her arms, with her hand guiding him in writing, to restrain his fondness for the girl, he had to constantly orbit his thoughts.
"Bury in?" Yun Qian blinked her eyes and then lowered her head in confusion, "Is this... worth minding?"
"Of course itās worth it." Xu Changāanās expression was serious, "Didnāt I just say childhood regrets make oneās heart flutter? I restrained myself in the past... but this desire to bury my entire head and take a breath has never disappeared, and now... our current posture, Miss gives a chance to make up for childhood regrets."
"So, thatās why your heart flutters." Miss Yun nodded, finally understanding.
It turns out itās the regret of childhood unmet that makes the heart move.
"So, now you want to..." Yun Qian blinked, slightly straightening her body.
The girlās action scared Xu Changāan slightly backward, closing his eyes tightly.
"If itās to make up for regrets, why are you avoiding me?" Yun Qian asked.
Xu Changāan kept his eyes tightly shut, sensing the girlās breath landing on his face, hurriedly said, "Regrets have their values too, besides, speaking of this to Miss has been embarrassing enough."
Xu Changāan always thought, if he really buried his head in the girlās arms in the carriage at that moment and took a deep breath... his integrity would surely fall to the ground.
If he really did that, he could nearly be certain that for a time afterward, he would have no face to look Miss Yun directly in the eye.
"Youāre really strange."
Yun Qian turned her head calmly, but moments later couldnāt help but chuckle.
When thereās something worth being happy about, you ought to laugh.
But Xu Changāan, with his eyes closed at the time, didnāt see Yun Qianās smile that could be described as an SSR.
"I still donāt understand one thing."
Yun Qian stowed away her smile, "If itās just because you liked my body, it wouldnāt be enough to make you blush like this."
"... Did I blush?" Xu Changāan opened his eyes, then closed them again.
"A little bit." Yun Qian pointed at her heart and asked in confusion, "I just donāt understand, if you said ābury in,ā during our intimate moments, you often did this, so why are you uncomfortable now?"
What childhood regrets, the two are old married couple, what havenāt they done?
Even when he was not yet a husband, as her steward, he often assisted her with washing, bathing, and changing clothes.
What kind of innocent regret is that.
Xu Changāan: "..."
For Xu Changāan, it was somewhat too advanced to have Miss Yun openly reveal his levels of lust and preferences... but even hesitantly, he still said, "Wen Chun was in bed, now this is in a carriage."
One is at home, the other when traveling.
The difference between tenderness and being a rogue.
How could they be the same?
"I understand." Yun Qian nodded.
Xu Changāan peeked open his eyes, what he saw was the girlās completely uncomprehending expression.
"Miss, you completely donāt understand, do you?"
"The important part, I got it."
Yun Qian thought, it turns out that as long as itās not at home, but when outside letting the husband into her embrace, or her into his embrace, it can move him like this.
She fully understood.
Miss Yun didnāt need to understand the reasoning, she just needed to remember what kind of things could make Xu Changāan happy.
"I see you completely donāt understand." Xu Changāan was helpless.