Xu Changâan asked himself whether his performance today could still be considered meticulous. He hadnât made any mistakes, and though he was worried, he didnât let it show so as not to affect the mood of the women enjoying the banquet.
Yet unexpectedly...
Was he discovered by his teacher?
Could it be that the fleeting look he gave Yun Qian was noticed by Li Zhibai?
Butâ
Did his teacher care about him that much?
From what he knew of Li Zhibai, if he didnât ask for help, Li Zhibai wouldnât usually inquire proactively.
So he instinctively felt that something was off.
Xu Changâan wasnât wrong; she did know Li Zhibai well. But the one who noticed his bad mood was Zhu Pingniang, whose observation skills were even sharper. He momentarily forgot Ms. Zhuâs presence.
Xu Changâan didnât understand, but he was only looking at the night view over the lake with Li Zhibai, stubbornly saying, "Teacher, why do you say that? What would cause me to be uneasy?"
Li Zhibai raised her hand, her long sleeve slipping down to reveal a fair wrist.
"Lying to me?"
Her tone was calm.
Yet Xu Changâan was sure the persistent result of arguing would be seeing that pale jade ruler in her hand.
He sighed.
Xu Changâan said helplessly, "Teacher, I just donât want to trouble you. Itâs not necessarily lying."
"Ah, so you know not to trouble me?" Li Zhibai looked at him.
Xu Changâan didnât know what simplicity meant.
In his words, what he owed was not a personal debt, so he could squeeze her for all she was worth, like lice that donât fear itching once there are too many. He felt he could comfortably call on his teacher.
This was why Li Zhibai didnât understand; normally heâd rather shoulder all difficulties himself, as if only with her could he feel at ease. But now Xu Changâan was saying... he didnât need to rely on her?
For a moment, Li Zhibai felt an indescribable feeling.
It was as if a child had grown up and no longer needed her, an unsure mixture of joy and loss. If she had to describe it... it was like reaching out to grasp lake water, holding a full hand yet feeling so empty.
"So, youâre really not trying to trouble me?" Li Zhibai asked.
"For sure, I did cause you much trouble before, Iâm sorry." Xu Changâan shifted his gaze guiltily but continued truthfully, "Senior Zhu is in a good mood."
"So, you donât want your issues to disrupt Tong Junâs interest." Li Zhibai understood.
Xu Changâan understood Zhu Pingniangâs intentions, so he did not overshadow the host, nor disrupt the atmosphere of the banquet. Despite his unease, he had hidden it well in his heart.
"Changâan, you really like Tong Jun." Li Zhibai was a bit surprised.
Xu Changâan surprisingly went to such lengths for Zhu Pingniangâs interests.
"Itâs only right."
"Also, after all, Tong Jun has helped you a lot." Li Zhibai nodded, thinking that Tong Junâs frivolous self-reference as âsisterâ seemed to have worked.
From Xu Changâanâs attitude, it was evident that though he referred to her as âSenior Zhuâ, his treatment of Zhu Pingniang wasnât as cautious as with Li Zhibai.
Truly a difference between a sister and a teacher.
"About Senior Zhu, teacher, the student has something to report to you." Xu Changâan cleared his throat.
"Tong Jun? What could she have going on?" Li Zhibai asked.
"A spy." Xu Changâan, without hesitation, sold Zhu Pingniang out, clearly explaining to Li Zhibai how Zhu Pingniang wanted him to act as a spy, regularly reporting on Li Zhibaiâs situation.
There was no other way.
How could he "monitor" Li Zhibai without her consent?
Li Zhibai: "..."
After a moment of silence, she lifted her hand as if to touch Xu Changâanâs head, suddenly recalling the earlier incident of pushing Xu Changâan and being critiqued by the courtesans, so she only slightly moved her fingers.
It seemed a manâs head couldnât be touched casually.
"Itâs hard on you then, dealing with that troublesome girl of hers." Li Zhibai looked at Xu Changâan with a gentle expression.
Having Xu Changâan act as a spy â Zhu Pingniang indeed had the nerve to think it.
"I agreed," Xu Changâan blinked, explaining, "Senior Zhu said that if I promised... sheâd give me a good sword."
"So, youâre selling out your teacher for a good sword?" Li Zhibai looked at Xu Changâan with a half-smile.
"Isnât this me asking you?" Xu Changâanâs gaze wandered, "Teacher, can you allow Senior Zhuâs request?"
"Let her do as she pleases." Li Zhibai instructed.
"Alrighty."
Xu Changâan smiled.
With Li Zhibaiâs words, he could unabashedly be the spy. Honestly, he still hoped that Li Zhibai and Zhu Pingniangâs relationship could become closer.
"Changâan." Li Zhibai suddenly tapped the railing before her.
"The student is here."
Li Zhibai looked at him: "This matter about Tong Jun, are you genuinely reporting, or... tattling on her?"
Xu Changâan: "..."
He didnât know how to respond.
Reporting?
Thereâs no need.
Tattling that Zhu Pingniang made things difficult for him was even more impossible; he still quite liked Zhu Pingniang, this sister.
Thus Xu Changâan remained silent.
There was a real reason, but he dared not voice it.
But who was Li Zhibai?
If he didnât say it, she wouldnât know?
Xu Changâanâs words werenât seeking her consent, nor were they tattling; rather, they were... meant to inform her of how much Zhu Pingniang cared about her, so much so that she even wanted a spy.